I only wish my first love would have been myself

She said "I'm falling in love."

I said "I'm falling apart."

I can’t remember his dogs name
and I hope that means
eventually I won’t remember his

I have nothing left in me


I am just white noise walking

(read forward, then backward, line by line)

I ran.
Not knowing what else to do
There was so much blood on my hands
It was mine
The kitchen knife
Caught in my chest
Guilt
Consumed by
Fear
I was heightened by
Adrenaline
But running on
Wasn’t enough
While trying to stay calm,
Losing control
It was me that would end up
Dead. Because
He was
In front of me
The whole time
It was too late
Trapped
I found myself
Locked in chains
My fate was
Death.