I'd like to meet you the way our lips have.
I'd like to speak to you
because your body is a language I want to be fluent in.

our lips parted and you left me in addiction.
I've been ordering skin and tonic every night,
I kiss people so hard hoping to forget whose air I'm breathing
because  I just might not recall that you are all i want to inhale.

I don't think you understand
I would reinvent the world for you.
Just so we could live in places
where our hands would fit into spaces
like puzzle pieces, and magazine faces.

But I cant, my sand castles dry out and
blow into the wind disappearing among stardust.
I can not stop the red sea from parting,
just like I can not stop our lips from parting
and unfortunately I can not stop your soul from departing.

I held the paper
the sweet lie
in my hands
and devoured it.
Each word
like a drug
lulled me
More.
And more.
The poison seeped
into me
My heart absorbed
it.

Now the cold wind
swirls in it
Pain. Cold pain. It's real.
The missing piece
destroys me.

you always
remind me of
a puzzle piece
i can never quite
figure you out

i envy

the cup of coffee that gets to kiss your sleepy lips awake every cold and bitter morning

i envy

the blanket that gets to keep your body warm from the damp cold white winter

i envy

the fireworks that gets your attention every single time it burst out in the sky upon you

i envy

the old lady from the bakery that gets to be greeted "good morning" everytime you walk past through

i envy

everything that gets to be with you

You,
You think that you are alone
And you do not understand
Why i call you beautiful
But galaxies spin, contained
Behind your perfect hazel eyes
And if you could gaze into them
You would understand why
A simple touch,
Or a whisper from your lips
Can set my soul aflame
Because
You are so sad,
Yet so beautiful
And full of love and passion
That i cannot help but
Clasp your hands in mine
And kiss your lips like
I would give anything to take away
The dark you feel within you
Because when our bodies touch
Even my cells are replenished
Drinking in happiness and love
You're my impossible boy