noir - Hello Poetry

noir Dec 2018

beauty

You
You shall be perfect
You shall be made beauty
Your blood shall be a composition
A composition of perfection
It would be easier if blood came in more colours
But it doesn’t so you will have to do
You shall be made fabulous
Take your place
Face the crowd
And bleed for them
This is your purpose
And you will perform
Lest you die a far more agonizing death
But that would not be beautiful
Wouldn’t you agree?
It’s not the pain that kills
Nor the wounds
But the beauty of the performance
They will dance
They will scream
They will die
And the curtain will fall

i spent 16 minutes listening to League of Legends' Jhin's voice lines and this is the first thing that leaves my fingers XD

#jhin #is #an #artist #and #i #respect #him

noir Dec 2018

rouge

Red
Rage
Love
***
Passion
Pain
Hate
Blood
Fresh blood
Use it as paint
Paint the town
Our love isn’t defined by time
But by a delicious shade of red
Love it
Love me
Bleed for me
Give me your everything

part two of three in the series i am still yet to name

#rouge #is #french #for #red

noir Dec 2018

noir

Black raindrops
Dyeing everything they touch
In a delicious shade of sadness
Even the roses
Dead
Black
Fading
Drawing life from everything they touch
Recollections of the days we have lost
They’ve all left us
Alone
Cold
We too shall drown
Drown in our raindrops and roses
That’s all we’re given
And it’s all we have
The clouds
Watching
As we stand
Bullet in hand
Will I become the rose
Or will you?

part one of three in a series i´m yet to name
any ideas?

#noir #is #french #for #black

noir Nov 2018

violet

Let me?
I don’t have any desire to run my systems
Especially my mind
It’s far too tasking
I’m so lonely
No matter how hard I try to be with… anything
I’ve failed
No matter what I do
I can’t escape my pain
I’ve embraced you
Left you to drain my body
Allowed you to do whatever you want with me
And yet
Every
Single
Time
You come back
And stab me
Could you at least embrace me?
I know I’ve said that stabbing me is fine
But it actually hurts regardless
Oh Violet
Dear Violet
Will you save me
One last time
Before I lose my mind
I can’t do this anymore…
No, not any of this
This pain
It’s far too great
It’s like my heart is not allowed to beat
Like the sun is running away from me
Like the tears are drowning me
Violet
Dear Violet
I need you
One last time
Please
Save me

overwhelmed by saddness. drowned in agony. panic attacks. just good old living.

#when #will #the #pain #end

noir Oct 2018

Jazz

Bathed in red
You're in pain
I can feel it as you dance
You won't let anyone in
Not even me
I've been chasing you for so long now
Getting ever so close
And every time
You glide just out of reach
Every time
Hiding in the colours
The ever-changing colours of your mind
Let me touch you
You need me
And I you
Stop running from our truth
Maybe then you can be free of mind
And we can dance like we used to

made this while listening to a swanky song called:
Pedestrians' Crossing
from the SkullGirls OST

#shall #we #dance

noir Oct 2018

things to remember

We need to fix my posture
We need to get a mask
We want to get several masks
I want to exercise for at least thirty minutes every day
We need several acceptable clothing pieces
We need to draw at least once a day
We need to at least think about a poem everyday
At most write… several poems
We want to reach Gold in League of Legends
We need to go outside
Get some sunlight
But the sun isn’t going to be around for a while…
So I guess never mind?
I want to become a better animator
I need a part-time job
I need to become a more active friend
Hanging out with the people I consider… friends
I need to raise my *** appeal
I want a girlfriend
We need to be a better person
And most importantly
I must remember to die
Because there is no life without death
That’s about it
Good luck :D

Not that anyone cares but these are my current goals in life
...
kind of

#not #really #*** #poem #but #kind #of #is

noir Oct 2018

stage 2 (finale)

I'm too weak to be alone
I'm too weak to be with others
But this doesn't stop me from tossing myself into fires
And I do so every time with a smile
A ******* smile
I'm too naive for this
I'm going to be drunk
I'm going to get even skinnier
I need to look out for me
I need to stop being so… me
This might make one or two people sad
But I don't care
Being hurt
It ***** so ******* much
I can't smile
I can't cry
I can't do anything
I want to drink
I want to get high
I don't want to live
But most importantly
I don't want love
Or be loved
So please
*******

the second and last poem of anger toward my plight
hurting ***** man ;-;

#**** #love #but #not #really