noir - Hello Poetry

noir Oct 2018

I'm too weak to be alone
I'm too weak to be with others
But this doesn't stop me from tossing myself into fires
And I do so every time with a smile
A ******* smile
I'm too naive for this
I'm going to be drunk
I'm going to get even skinnier
I need to look out for me
I need to stop being so… me
This might make one or two people sad
But I don't care
Being hurt
It ***** so ******* much
I can't smile
I can't cry
I can't do anything
I want to drink
I want to get high
I don't want to live
But most importantly
I don't want love
Or be loved
So please
*******

the second and last poem of anger toward my plight
hurting ***** man ;-;

#**** #love #but #not #really

noir Oct 2018

stage 2 (pt 1)

Oh hey
It was a lie
There was never any truth to begin with
I've been living in my head for so long
Nothing was real
I just made it all up
I want to be sad
I want to me mad
I want to say I've been lied to
But that'd be untrue
I have no one to blame but myself
I lied to myself
Told myself I could make something
Told myself I was allowed to breathe
But that's a lie
I still have to die
And remain dead
Goodbye happiness
You were fun to have :)
**** love - TeZaTalks (Love)

I was quite upset when I found out what was happening so I wrote two "angry" poems to help at the time

#**** #love

noir Oct 2018

what you are

You
You are my pain
Everything that I want
But can’t have

You
You were everything
And you were just in my reach
Or at least I thought you were

You
I still want you
And if you might come around then I’ll still be here
And if not I’ll move on

You
You might not like what you find if you come back
So don’t say I didn’t warn you
That I might break

You
I wish you fortune
I loved you
And now I must let go

found out that things between me and her can't work out
;-;

#love #***** #and #yet #i #want #it #all

noir Oct 2018

my words

I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to break
I want them all to understand
I'm just a soul
A single pink soul
I'm far from perfect
I don't want to be ******* perfect
Perfection is boring
Uninspiring
Why is it so hard to understand
That I don't want what they do
I want to be me
I want to be free
I also kinda want to die
But we don't talk about that
So please
Don't pull
Leave me be
And maybe
I'll make my way back to you

family issues ;-;

#family #***** #but #we #need #them #usually

noir Oct 2018

without you

I can’t live without you
I can't breathe without you
I can't see without you
I can't hear without you
I can’t feel without you
I can't run without you
I can't ride without you
I can't be without you
So please don't leave me

don't leave this good man... or boy
whichever you prefer :)

#plea #stay

noir Oct 2018

umm....

J ust as you are
U ‘re perfect
L ove is a thing
I feel it for you
A nd I’d love for you to feel it too

I …

L ove isn’t a word I like at all
O ddly enough
V ery strange I know
E erie of me but true

Y ou however
O ddly make me want to yell it at the top of my lungs all day
U have my heart
Do with it as you wish
:)

OwO
I saw someone do the thing with the sentence starts and was like... I gotta try it too
Didn't plan to use it for this ;-;

#julia #i #love #you #but #dont #know #how #feel

noir Oct 2018

rose

I want to love you
But you make it so hard
With your shield of thorns and brier
But I don’t mind
Even as I bleed
I don’t mind
I’ll still keep trying to get close
Even as you ruin my heart
I’ll get another one
Even as you strangle me
I’ll be without air
Even as you eviscerate me
I’ll still see the rose
The rose you hold so tight
And I’ll wait
In pain
And agony
Until the rose blooms
If that is when you’ll accept my love
I’ll be here
Waiting
And if you are the end of me
I’ll die happy
Knowing I died loving you
But
Through it all
Through the cosmos
Through our fabric
Through it all
I want you to know a single thing
And this one thing you can hold as true
I love you

tbh i don't know where these love poems come from.
they kinda just... happen.

#love #pain #hate #rose