“My heart ached. These people were full of joy and happiness, and here I was, isolated; alone.
I was simply overlooked, they had no idea i was even there.
They didn’t know who i was.
I wasn’t sure I did either
But in the end, did that even matter? Who or What you are?
I no longer thought it did.
But when did my opinion- what i thought- ever count?
No one else knew I was here … And for that I was glad; I did not want to speak with anyone.
I was filled with a certain kind of misery. The kind where guilt eats away at the soul; it devours the strength and darkens the light. It was the kind of feeling that fills you up, to the point where forgiveness can’t find its way through.”
I don't remember when I wrote this or who I was when I did, but I remember that feeling like I could feel it now. Maybe I can. I'm not so sure what I'm feeling these days.
© KMH 2018