Keep moving

Pack my life into boxes
        Laying down roots
Breeds friendships
        This I must avoid

Keep moving

They won't understand me
        For I am not normal
They will leave me
        And I'll return to aloneness

Keep moving

Then will come the tears
         Better to stay hidden
Allow hurt no chance
         To penetrate my bones
        
Keep moving

I'll hug you till you smile out loud

My arms will hold you tight

I'll hold you till your tears dry up

And stay with you through the night

Then when you awake

And it's a brand new day

Your heart is fixed

Nearby I will stay

Just until you really believe

That your heart is pure

And ready to receive

At first I weep

Finally awoken
the light flickers brightly
Seeing for the first time
through the eyes of her elder
I'd waited for what seemed an eternity
for my inner child to reach out to me

At first I weep
for the longing is over and finally
after all these years
I can set her free

She is now sleeping
the deepest since before I left her
Abandoned her
Before I pushed her behind my pain and trapped her
******* and gagged her
My ears muffled with a loudness
That I set to the highest level
I didn't want to hear her cries

I thought I was protecting her
From the pain I had predicted
Ahead for me
I had seen my future
There was no love that awaited me
I was thirteen years old
What could I have known

Now we have spoken
And embraced
Forgiven my crime to her
I can see
That if I'd let her inside me
Listened to her heart
Along time ago
I could have been free

Thank you for breaking me

When I found all the pieces of myself

I rearranged them before putting them back together

And I became a new whole

Missing love.

Why do they never fall in love,
Why do they let me go?
Am I really not that loveable, does my craziness make it so?

I have so much more than they can see.
If they'd taken the time to know the real me.
They wouldn't have thrown me away so fast.
They'd have given me more time, a chance to make it last.

My heart is as grand as the ocean is deep.
I love without boundaries, their love I would keep.

I guess I'm not ready, they weren't meant to be.
I'll teach myself patience.
Try to be happy,  just me.

My friend who broke my heart

I told you my darkest secret
Because I trusted you
Because I loved you
You were the only friend
Who got me
understood me

Yet you threw me away
Like so many before you
There is a reason that I'm a loner
And that reason is for fear
Fear of not being good enough
Normal enough
sane enough
For people to keep around them

I never felt this fear with you
With you I felt safe
I felt good enough
I felt calm around you
I made you my best friend
Maybe that is what frightened you
And made you run away

Cut off my arms and legs
**** out my brain
seems all I'm ever wanted for
Lies in my middle frame

There is one at each end
Both open to be filled
That's all they ever wanted
The rest of me they killed