i run my hands all over my body and think you’re the one touching me

Cradle me in your collar bone
Let me curl up and live there,
Beneath the shadow of your jaw,
In the crook of your neck.

I’ve lost sleep over that collar bone,
And I’ll lose sleep again
Until I’m yours.

Once upon a time
I was in love with your quirky smile
  Once upon a time
   I thought we'd last forever
    My naive brain led me in the wrong direction
      You see, you were poison
        You had left the most awful of tastes in my mouth
       Making me believe that you were the only thing I needed
      You damaged my heart to the point of no return
     As sad as this sounds, I'm okay with it
    You taught me that love is a cliché
   That, love is never true and pure
  That, the only point in love is heartache and misery
And, you broke my heart

maybe all i need to stop this pain is a little motrin.
maybe all i need to stop this bleeding is a band-aid.
maybe all i need to stop this screaming are some ear plugs.
maybe all i need to stop this drowning is a life raft.
maybe all i need to stop this agony is a little numbness.

numbness...


it wears off,  doesn't stop the pain only holds back the flood gates
of sleepless nights and screaming hearts, bloodshot eyes and rejections knife.
just long enough for me to catch a glimmer of hope, a mirage
in the Sahara, so beautiful yet so cruel.  
just as i get close enough to taste
a sweet tomorrow,
the desert sun sets.
and i'm still bleeding,
and you're still
gone.

maybe all i need to stop this searching is a little less hope.

I loved you to the point of ruin
but instead you filled my lungs with ash.