Imagine if this was a poem
A real poem
Perhaps a poem about
"The uncertainties of love"
I have so much love to share
And yet, I can never get enough
But my love so often
Turns to doom and despair
Imagine that
More than any soul should bear...
Fortunately
This has been an imaginary poem
I'm hoping my feelings haven't shown
..................

Cognitive surge
Synaptic flash
Thought conversion
Physical reflex
Bypass mind
Engage fingertips
Prepare to converse
Cyber circuits delay...

Standby
Interruption
"Yeah  
Okay
Yep!
Later"

Now
What­ was that thought again...

Did you ever wonder
Why the caterpillar
Was blessed
To be a butterfly
And not the rest
Did the Earth Mother
Love that worm best?

Celestial Beings
Gathering
Wayward spirits
Wicked dreams
High tides
Unpredictable
Waves
Yet our Spirits
Refuse to stay
In some earthen
Terrestrial grave

Perhaps that's why
We walk on
The earth this way
...

I once saw things much different
Under a dimmer, duller sky
Yet I can only view the past
Through these present hazel eyes

Once in a while I’ll meet a young person
And I’ll catch a glimpse of then
That is, the days before I understood
That which I can never comprehend

What say you
That you and I
Finally meet

You can be
All knowing
And I'll
Be belief

I'll warn you
Of the fires
Burning
Down below

Surely
You'll know better
Then to believe
When you know
...

Tip'toeing around
An endless maze
Of hypocrisy
Thankfully grounded
In a state tolerance

Paradigm of equality
Yes I do believe
We shall all
Live forever
In or out
Of time

As our soul reflect
Within the fires
Of personal subjectivities

Transparent truths
Of who we really are
Burning eternally
The path goes beyond
Creation

In the tender parts
Of your naive heart
Footprints where
They went too far
So come to me
My precious friend
And I shall comfort
And help you mend
There's no magic
That cannot cure
So come to me
And have no fear
Trust these words
As true as lies
It gets better
On the other side
...

I know you are a seeker of both love and enter peace
but I also know the blindness of an over burdened beast.
Shackled to the motherland’s
home of the safe and free,
where closed mindedness
locks us into war and misery.

I truly sincerely apologize
My dearest southern friends
Our light here shines quite pale
Most the things they'er showing us on the News
Minimizes your living hell

This maybe my attempt to try and flush
My weary restless mind
Haunted by all I've seen
Down this crazy ******* line

This is a dangerous world
We gets caught up in our fears
But my arms are open wide
If you ever make it here!

I’d like that to be true
but there’s always a test
The shadow of my doubt
nevertheless
…..

I'm but a flirt
Not quite a *****
I do this for fun
Nothing more
A need, an outlet
A friend, maybe four
We all have our places
In the Kingdom of Lords
Come fill my Temple
With silver and mirth
We are but Travelers
Roaming the Earth
...
Pleasant journeys

In a rhyming
Commentary
Or simply in poem
Anyway to convey
Will you please
Come home
Never leave me
Never die
Lay with me
In an eternal lie
Hold me tighter
Then love can bear
Please come home
Oh thoughtless stare
...

Faith is blind
To the fear of lines
That led our conscience here
Many will but I won't
Pretend the path is clear

Many of us know
Yet we'll never say
How long have our tongues
Been tied this way

Unwarranted
To keep us safe
Faith takes up
The empty space
Where dreams exceed
The absolutes
Subjectively tied
   To an objective truth...

You can't catch me sleeping,
I keep myself awake.
I balance myself
in this unstable world
with every breath I take.

With every evil deception
of the powers that seem to be,
I won't stop shining on
from sea to distant sea.
I won't stop loving my fellow beings
nor deny the Divine in everything I'm seeing.
Oh no..
You won't catch me sleeping!

Yours is the touch of an angel
Such virtue within you flows
Like a pure mountain stream
You quench my thirsty soul
You’re my source of kindness
You bring me to my knees
I pray your dreams all come true
And your spirit remains free

Happy Valentines

I would fight
In a moments notice
Knuckles bare, naked soul
Death defying
Love relying
Just to win
Your heart
Of gold!

Tall as a ladder
Rungs of the brave
Stood like a Krishna
Words on parade
Angels with messages
Dreams in the sky
Imagine the state
Neural chemical high

It was the cool nights
Glow from the moon
All of the torch lights
Waiting for June
The magic of silence
An itch in an ear
Awaiting the whisper
   Year after year...

Dear depression you can't win
Your dark shadow posed to descend
Always pretending to be my only friend
Constantly blaming the fool within

But you see
Even if somebody gives me a hard time
You can't block my sweet sunshine
All these layers of who I am
Cannot be undone by simple spam

My devices has an off button
My mind cannot be limited
To these circuits of cyber bliss
And certainly not controlled
By the words of some avatar
Who uses words as fist...

Vaguely I recall
My thoughts before the fall
A world view
So wide yet dim
A simple conformance
To a world I was living in

And you
Chemically produced
Passion induced
Love was real
As real as a pill
Oh how I remember
The thrills

Our eyes
So bright and wide
Midnight moons
Amplified
Endless summer skies

Hearts entwined
In temporal bloom
Sat in stone
And doomed to ruin

Quickened
In love's embrace
The fires were fed
In flesh and lace

Memories infused
With the essence
Of gods
But in the end
Love was just a facade...

The poetry was flowing
But not through his poem
It flowed through his eyes
On into her soul
His words they whispered
Tears down her tired cheeks
She bathed in his passion
   And his darkness she reaped...

Again he fell from heaven
He and his demons in tow
The unlikely circumstance
Beyond his limits of control

The ignorance that angered him
Arguably superficial at best
In servitude to his liberalism
To degrees of subconscious unrest

In meditation on only facts
He proceeds to take the blue sky back
And so on guard he'll always be
To protect the speech of all born free...

Simplistic
My vocabulary
Until my words
Get rearranged
In and out of order
Let the darkness rain
Washing me down
Rain all over me
I need to feel
I need to breath
I need to write
   Sweet poetry!!

Alone I am
I am not free
Hell and fury
Deep in my sea's
Come up for air
Still I can't breathe
Words bleed
Out of me
Forming
Sweet poetry
...............................

Deity attributions
Are far from my mirror
She touches my heart
Whenever she near
Take her down deep
And hold her inside
I fall to my knees
Tears fill my eyes

Oh to know
The secrets beyond
To bathe in her light
Before I move on
And travel to worlds
That exist in my soul
Engulfed in her love
And never let go...

If I could separate
from the folks of a lower state..
Oh how I could flow at a peaceful perpetual pace!
But I don’t believe that is why I’m here,
So ya, I’m willing to set, talk and share!
I love you humanity
have no fear!

Peace on earth or just a dream
Angelic whisper or demonic scream
Magical wonders that feel so real
Leaps of faith that are known to ****

Dawn cast my shadow far beyond
Dusk settles my shadow, soon be gone
Does my shadow see more than I
‘Tis darkness past my shadow by
When my body shall turn to worm
**** my shadow if it returns
Cast it into the great abyss
May this shadow of doubt cease to exist.

These are not merely words
Spun across a page
In unequal syllables
Phonics enraged
Chaotic break downs
Inconclusive
At their peak...
Oh no, no no
These are my words
Eccentrically unique
....................................

I have no voice
I am an echo
In the frequency
Of the soul
No need for ear
Or even breath
That breathe
The truth of old
Simple sound
Bounced around
As it fades
And reappears
Hear me not
In the physical
Repeat and leave
Me here
...

Once a fire
Burning within
Two hearts

The consumption
Of the psyche
The ashes  
Where they part

Their's was a world
Of glee and grace
Hearts that beat
At a faster pace

Even though
No heart broke
Upon white lies
Their conscience
Choked

Words that fall
From lips that tremble
The eyes of hearts
Blinded in time
We were there
So far from here
In a better
Vanished mind

In the enter circle
The spirits sing
The calming warmth
As the hearth fire burns

Foolishness subsides
For moments uncounted
Hold tight as long as you can
Peace is where you make it

Long nights of winter's chills
I view the world through windowsills
I fought so hard to wish it away
Oh how autumn swiftly fades

In my realization
Shall my heart beat content
With the howling dogs of doom
And their ill intent
To bite hard the foot
As Jimmy plays slow
And Old Man Winter
Takes his toll

Deeper in dreams
The subconscious awakes
As we prepare our provision
For the dormant state...

When superstitious impairment
Breaches human rights
Shall a gypsy curse the guilty?
Shall an angel stand and fight?

In the paradox of foolishness
That tears our world apart
The ignorance that's feeding us
Was forced upon our hearts

As always I'll be watching
With a grimace upon my face
When they blow your *** to heaven
   Which is really only space...

Algorithms mapping
Trapping our lives
Programmed
To wake up
And **** in the night
Lap tops
Coffee hot
Device
In your face
Take your *** to work
   You'll feel better at play...

Yet algorithms
Can never hold
The opus of
The living soul...

The restless heart
A reverse polarity
When poetry's written
At a quarter to three

And so....
No thank you
Computer
I'm begging you please
Don't let the algorithms
  Choose the Daily!!!

Another tragic moment relived
I wake up and catch my breath
The image of my little girl
Clear as the day I left

I’m so afraid of seeing her again
But more afraid I may never see her again
It’s a wonder that I can ever smile
But time lets me breathe once in a while

This wall built between us
Cast a shadow upon my soul
This burning bridge separates us
Burning beyond my control

Somehow I must return to her
To reconcile the love she missed
Somehow I must resolve this
And help to heal her brokenness

Out of minds
of today
The old haunts
Slip away
Fitting into place
No longer a dread
Nor dismay

Behind the old walls
Where the laughter
Once stalled
A light of luminous minds
Bright and brilliant decline

To rehash the deviation
Of function

And so the shadow
On time remains...

The Goblins of Gloom do prey
At the borders of safety’s demise
This passageway frequently opens
A blessing yet curse despised

Passion for fury
****** out of control
Hell's fiery embers blister
As the burn of lust
Consumes the soul

Innocence caught in a vacuum
****** up, used and discarded
A fuel that feeds
The demonic machine
The evil eye lids have parted

Nightmares and spells
Conjured in hell
The righteous and wicked do ponder
Through evil doors
The wickedness soars
How many left open I wonder?

2019
Here the free
New Years Eve
A world as drunk as can be
Get out there among the scenes
Absolutely refuse to grieve

We live these lives
That has no ends
So fill your glass'
To the brims!!

Cheers, cheers too
Another even crazier year!

We can all agree these are interesting times
May we no longer cross
Those Human right lines!

In the spark which ignite's
At the start of each moment
A poetic heart can be
A highly charged component

Shattered upon a million mirrors
Multiplied by a billion years
Caught in a universal struggle
Between words of love and fear

Simply placed on a spectrum wide
Between connect and the unfortunate divide
But when the spark ignite's in a poetic mind
We paint our own unique pictures line by line...

There is no running
From such crimes
The witness is always
Behind these eyes
The guard dogs barking
In your paints
Is a simple warning
In advance
I'll pillage your loven'
As I rapture your flesh
And I'll always return
For what ever's left!

Can you imagine
What I might look like
Have you any idea
Of who I might be
Filled in with pic's
From your minds eye
A poetic soul
Is vividly seen

I can find no need to hide
Behind the silence of the whisper
Blinded by a need to cast a spell
Upon the listeners
The flowing thoughts
That I must convey
I find that I need
To live this way
............

Paint it, craft it
Invent it as if
Pretend the interior
Doesn't actually exist
Create a back drop
Of reason and rhyme
Initiate aesthetics
Present it sublime
Imagine a new world
Where circles entwine
Let it originate
From your own mind

...

Thanksgiving's for me
Cracks in my emotional armor
Chemical imbalance of the brain
Wounds to deep to deal with
Straight jacket for Christmas

Oh ya, good food!

In a vision, in a dream of youth I met her again
My angel, my queen, a long lost friend
I had long forgotten how she made me feel
As the aspects of this dream remained as real

She lifted her voice as the universal spirit
Harmoniously independent yet one with all who had been bit
Once bit, once alive
Upon a weary road we strive

Her young heart sang, she sang the song of love
She sang of new love, her first and true love
In the valley of the lost where perhaps I left her
Such memories of youth become a blur

As I awoke from the dream, I gathered my thoughts, my pen, my theme
I loved a girl, Penelope
I loved the girl in spite of me
Drizzling down the cold rain came
Yet somehow in my head her song remained

Her eyes are kind her heart is warm
She is a Rose, I am a Thorn
We catch and ride the wild steed
I’m so alive and she’s so free

In the gazebo we dance until early dawn
Our bodies lay naked out on the lawn
Completely fulfilled and finally whole
I have no intention of letting her go

Wheels are turning my heart is yearning
A lust for life subconsciously burning
I breathe too deep and the dream is lost
I start the day with a secret thought

Perhaps she was fictional beyond conclusion
A kaleidoscope of colors, a beautiful delusion
If only to awake and find her near
Instead I sleep and gasp for air...

Why
To have
To hold
To watch as we grow old
Give me a blanket
Now I'm cold...

My  breath fades
So I crawl
Tired of change
so I stall
The wait
Blinds me
I left my heart
Behind me

Don't come this way
A voice
Would  say
Yet upon this
Bed I lay...

There was an old man
Still young in soul
So he left his body
And just let go

With spirit free
He took to wings
He flew to where
The angels sing

But there he realized
He was all alone
That and he'd stumbled
Into a no fly zone...

...

I can still remember when
I first learned to swim
It seemed that life's ocean
Would sustain me to the end

Yet drowning has no remedy
Dry ground is but
A childhood memory

And now
Out here lost at sea
Up and down
Tossed around
Struggling just to breathe

And so I fade away
Lovesick upon these waves
In the depths of despair
I lose my will to care...

These two old fellas
They knew all that
Scars and scandals
Fragile facts
All the years they go back

Veitnam, Cambodia
Hell they survived
On eastern drugs
So call them crazy
If you must
But these two fellas
 Don't give a ****

This guy did
Over fifteen years
In a constant madhouse
He became aware
Survival isn't easy
In the zoo of men
I held on
Most never can

Tell me about
Your lowest low
Have you ever misplaced
Your soul
Did they ever rip it out
Were you ever really whole
Living in these hells
It changes you you know
...

How dose it really feel
To just get up and go....?
Perhaps you subsequently already know
Perhaps you left, maybe even yesterday
Could you explain how true love
Could possibly, suddenly decay
How long where you planing to never come back?
When did your devious heart turn black?
Turning my world upside down
Even my smile
Hooks like a frown.....