Tetra Hachiko

Tetra Hachiko Dec 2021

I'm saying goodbye
trying to be the good guy
Don't want or need you to feel obligated
all it leads to is us both being frustrated
Casting doubt upon me
trust is broken, can't you see?
You tried to say it wasn't so
but your silence was the final blow
All this for them?
Was it worth it in the end?
You and I both know the truth
You never needed to sleuth.
But before you can cast me aside
Even though you know they lied
I will just walk away
With the weight of your betray.
Its okay though, its nothing new
Just more pain to accrue
Crushing, the weight so much to bear
I try not to think about what it fair.
It is what it is, I do what I must
Even if I'm filled with distrust.
With myself and with you.
But what else can I do?
Left with no choice
Your silence echoed in your voice.

#friendship #loss #relaionship #breakup #trust #broken #pain #alone #loneliness

Tetra Hachiko Dec 2021

Bond Lapsed

Where do you get off
saying such things so aloft
Things you don't deserve
words you didn't earn
Forcing feelings I cannot stand
This was never my plan
How could you be this way?
Twisted, such a poor display
of all we have been taught
who could've ever thought
We'd end up here
Feelings so severe
I can't go back.
panic attack.

#bond #broken #crushed #panic #anxiety #feelings #twisted

Tetra Hachiko Apr 2021

What's Your Excuse

I gave up so much for you.
My love for my job.
My love for a lot of music.
My everyday sanity when I clock in.
Why.
Just so we could talk everyday.
So you could put a smile on my face when my phone went buzz.
When I logged in so I could see your little picture say "Good Morning, how are you today?"
The littlest things I wanted, I was so willing to give up big things.
I just wanted to send you a clip of this, a sample of that.
But in return, I paid the price.
Now your little picture drives me to the bottle.
Can't stand the idea of my name in your head.
Plotting ways to escape seeing your name everyday.
But there's no way out.
And it's all your fault.
Yet, you couldn't even handle the guilt.
Poor excuse for a man.
Yet, I miss you.

Tetra Hachiko Apr 2021

It Wouldn't Change a Thing Anyway

All the words I want to say
Balled up, I throw away
Because at the end of the day
It doesn't matter anyway
What will it change if I were to say
The things in my chest, boiling away
Coiled up, as if it were to say
I am going to explode any day

#indifference #withholding #explode #talk #helpless

Tetra Hachiko Mar 2021

Barely Floating

The one job I loved
You took away from me
I shouldn't give you that power
But you've got me on my knee
Now every day is monotony
The light so far away
The amount the pain weighs
Trying to breath everyday
But water filling my lungs as I say
"This can't be the way"
I can't see a resolution
Sitting through electrocution
Of your words and your apology
I can see through the psychology
Lack of personal responsibility
You're pure juvenility
"I want to be friends"
But seeing your mistake gives you the bends
You can't have it both ways
That's the phrase that pays

#breakup #power #responsibility #drowning #pain #mistake #twoways

Tetra Hachiko Mar 2021

Metronomic

I heard he broke your heart again
So now you're gonna come see me
I've gone and I've grabbed a pen
And I've gone and made some tea
Let's start from scratch
Reveal
How you got attached
Now I have a thought
See how you've been taught
To love the good in all
That is your downfall
You must be harsher now
Learn to let them squirm
Let them take a turn
Before you take the leap
Take a piece of yourself to keep

#lesson #learned #heart #heartbreak #breakup

Tetra Hachiko Mar 2021

What, 2 weeks?

you gave me a list

then I cant resist

to say what I mean

when I say you cant lean

to one then another

direction or other

Flippity flop

You took a big hop

We both took a leap

but you let the thoughts seep

into distorted perceptions

and lack of reception

I couldn't resist

but you were amiss

and left me for dead

when you looked ahead

instead of staying in the present

you made it unpleasant

I asked for consent

You left me to lament

#shortlasting #ripitout #relationships #hurt