He feels he needs to breath
From the problems he’s caused.
Yet feels he needs air
As he sees her be the cause.
Lately he’s thinking,
wondering Off.
Not wanting to but
slightly thinking of leaving her off ..
The problem isn’t his Part, or nothing he ever Cause.
He just sees the main parts, the ones he disagrees on.
He already dislikes the issue
Now involving the girl that’s supposed be his wife soon ?
He’s not wanting but wandering off
Thinking a slight different of leaving her oif.
He’s never truly proven how strong his love is.
Which adds more the conspiracy  
Of leaving the love ..
Not that he ever felt Bad
Or try to correct anything
His emotions have been 1#.
Besides he didn’t like her all that much

I Do Have a Light.
It hasn’t sparked yet .
When it does, it will be so bright .
When I free From
This sickness , il be somebody .
I have the potential
To achieve great things .
I’m intelligent.
When I break Free
My life will Experience
So many Amazing things.
Il make my self useful.
I Will be productive
People will then depend on me.
I’m an awesome person.
Unfortunately my life
Unfolded Differently than others.
That doesn’t mean I can’t get
Back on my feet & Level Up.
I might not be anyone right now .
Have Attractive features
Like drive , Work , Education.
I do have other Nice things to point out towards me .  
One day il rise .

what i am suppose to do
when every word they lead to you
even though you played me like a fool
my silly *** is still over here missing you
still waiting to hear you knock on my door
keeping hope alive it's never been this bad before
truly, i ain't been this broken laying on the floor
i lied when i said i can't take no more

cause the truth is
if i'm dancing with the devil i'll stay on beat
& i'll glorify in the fact that you're all i need
i should be ashamed that i'm in this deep
i know, but i don't care that this is insanity , come back to me

back to the places we never got to go
back to what is comfortable
back to you loving me so
back to pretending this is wonderful
you called and i acted real tough boo
fronting in like i don't miss you
back to thinking where have you been
pour it up let me drink your toxin
show me love let's put skin on skin
let's love again...

cause the truth is...
i love you still & i want us back together
at the same time i know this is an imaginary forever
& i'll live with the fact i am drowning
ring the alarm, rescue me from this insanity, come back to me

back baby...