the scars that circle my wrist,
once beaded with blood,
but now running around
my arm, standing out like
pink ribbons against my skin,
waiting, hoping, against me
that someone will see them
and they'll ask the dreaded
question that sets off a
sinking feeling in the pit
of my stomach

i just want someone
to need me as much
as i need them

for once i want someone
to care about me as
much as i cat for them

maybe if i wasn't me
maybe if i was
someone else

with a deep breath i lay down
in defeat, accepting my fate
these days it seems that nobody
really gives a **** about me
i've become something of an
afterthought, forgotten until it's
convenient for someone to talk
to me

it hurts a little in the way of rejection
although i know i shouldn't let it get
to me

it hurts

it's the way that seeing a picture of you
makes my heart skip a beat and
a small smile crawls on my lips
without my consent

it's the way i think of you when I listen
to Winter Lady on repeat for hours
with no one on my mind but you
for hours

it's the way i close myself off to you when
you've been ignoring my messages
and don't tell me who you were with
or what you were doing

it's the way it becomes hard to breathe
when I read a goodbye post on Instagram
because I fear that i'll get that message
from you

it's a lot of things that make me sad these days
it's a lot that makes me cry lately
i'm an emotional wreck that no one
can love

I was young, gullible, naive
When you promised forever,
I believed you with everything

I fell ******* a flat surface
You said you'd fallen,
But you had a safety net

Now, I'm broken and alone
And you're perfectly fine
And hate who I am

Dear warrior,
I was born of your flesh and blood
I've watched you in battle
I've watched you save lives

Dear warrior,
You birth me and raised me
You changed my diaper
You always tried your best

Dear warrior,
We're all your support
We're your safety and your defence
We are here for you

Dear warrior,
Keep your head up

i found myself craving
the intro to a childhood show
i found myself craving
the sound of innocence

I guess I should be haply
Finally I am free of you
Done with the fighting,
Done with the way you get angry
Done with the alcohol you give
Done with continuously trying to please you

We're done, for good this time
Never again will we say another word
And that saddens me in a way
That I've never been saddened before

She fell in love too easily
And far too often
When all she wanted
Was someone to look at her
And tell her that she had a beautiful heart

You're beautiful,
and perfect,
and absolutely
wonderful
and I feel like
some of you need
to be reminded

It's been months since then
and I can't stop thinking that it's my fault

A burning light leads the way
And we follow it helplessly
For without that light of hope
We're completely blind