I write because it keeps me sane
Takes away my sorrow, anger and pain

When my mind switches off or gets stuck on repeat
Words make no sense and i feel incomplete

My lines have no flow and the frustration sets in
Pen poised above paper
Giving up before I can even begin

On with the headphones, Psyclon Nine takes my life
Haunting my head so my hand can write
The rhythm of rhyme pushes my senses to flight

While the energy  incited by the beat of the drum
Has me no longer frustrated and no longer numb

Music is my muse and with it I play
I'm the hunter, the words are my prey.

To feel numb, to not look back
Close my eyes and hit that same old track

Oh the bliss, take a deep breath now as i fall into the abyss
All that was broken in me i can now dismiss

Cause it's washed away in this false state of freedom
Where i let go and have no fear of my demons

But this place is not safe to hide
It's a killer and will cut you up inside

Cause great pain and conflict
Drag you down much further than before

Even have you lying in your own blood on the floor
Even then you will hear yourself say
Just one more hit...one more fix...one more day.

Thoughts so shallow
This page ain't deep
Blood, ***, self torture
For your pleasure comes cheap

Hot, sick, twisted images
And I'm breathing hard
Almost over the edge
Can anyone tell how far

Lust is fleeting
But oh so sweet
And the ache deep within I can quiet with my evil sin

My thoughts wander to your flesh so sweet
And your sick, twisted words
Have my heart missing beats

This is my pleasure
This is my pain

I'm lying naked, in your eyes i can see your ***** hatred
But i still want it...

Your precious degradation will be my salvation
Create my fate in this hopeless situation

Do i seem so demure?
Behind these eyes i am far from pure

Wrap your hand around my neck
The more you hurt me the hotter i get

Self hatred feeds these sick desires
And just a spark of pain can start the fire

Alone...i want your demons
Lonely...I need your dark
And now...i have your nothing.

Drag me under and hold me down
The more i choke the faster i drown

Take my horror and wield the knife
You pierced my skin will you take my life

I grit my teeth when the blade sinks in
Moaning in pleasure with this painful sin

I crave my torture to keep me sane
Begging you to do it over and over again

The cutting, the pain, i feel so alive
In this nightmare is where my sense thrive

My nerves on fire as blood fills my mouth
I laugh in glee as the blade slides out

Now you know my secret...
What i dream about.

Come to me my little fiend
Come dine with me
On the blood of the weak and thine enemy

Demon of flesh and darkness of old
Take him down before you in his arms he enfolds

Slashing at flesh, cackles of glee
The demon strikes at your miserable plea

He says don't struggle now, your souls bound to me
Nails of searing heat tear at your flesh
As your agony and his delight, like light and dark firmly mesh

He is yours and now you are his
He licks his lips and sighs out a hiss
Take me as i am, your darkness of retribution
Enemies downfall and your weakness persecution.