So
You told me things
I didn't want to hear
You told me things
That I did
You told me things
I needed to hear
You told me things
That I didn't

I cried
on your chest
You cried
on my shoulder
We cried
holding each other
Tight

And
I didn't mean to
You didn't mean to
But
when your lips
grazed my lips
I felt golden again

I now know
You and I are very similar
In how we think
In how we want
In how we avoid

Cheap cigarette smoke
The scent of your hair
The feel of your skin
Burning against mine
I know now

You love me
just like I love you

Constant cold becomes comforting
Even when you know it's because
Your body is dying

Hunger pains make you smile
In fact
They become glamorized in your mind

Tea is good
But when it fills your stomach with 0 calorie goodness
It tastes great

Standing up always makes you dizzy
So instead of eating
You learn how to keep walking even when walls turn into floors

You beg for help
From someone who is just as sick as you
To become more successfully sick

Meals turn into binges
Food is just a number
And so are you

You constantly think about
If the way you are sitting makes you look
Even worse than normal

Words like dainty, starved, light
Make you feel
More powerful than gods

There are nightmares where
All you do
Is eat ******* fries

When even the people you love the most
Become annoying
Because of how often they say you're perfect

The saying
"You're not fat, but, you're not skinny."
Becomes your most hated string of language

When you know exactly what the risks are
You repeat them in your mind everyday
But it just doesn't matter anymore

You have already accepted your death
Because it's either get skinny
Or die trying