You are my biggest regret
From the time out eyes met
4 years ago
To now
I regret ever memory
Every tear
Every "I love you"
And Every last word
That I spent
Wasting on someone
Like you.

my fantasizes
haven't even been this remotely close,
to what i laid my eyes on.
she was perfect,
just amazing,
absolutely stunning,
with the perfect shade of skin tone,
and perfect with touch.
a goddess like ***,
with a soul so well developed
and pure
that her soul instantly created a chain reaction with mine
simply breathtaking,
what a piece of "strong black woman"
with gracefulness and individuality
and a "Erykah Badu" style.

I felt broken today
I felt as if everyone who looked at me saw how torn I was
As if they were counting how many pieces of him were stuck in my skin like broken glass
Little bits and pieces stuck everywhere he ever touched me
How can they possibly count them all

I love you and i hate you at the same time
I'll never leave you forever, no matter ever, whatever but however
I'll be soft like a feather
For good or worse
Like friends since birth
Well that's worth when all your life turns  
Like saving planet earth
I want to leave you think about all the things i said
I want to kiss you, hug you and even make love to you in bed

I don't want to just be another friend
Just because you're dating that ****** called Ted
Don't you remember the first time we met
I was outside of your house playing football with my friends
You came by and Since then i couldn't keep my eyes off you
I even got struck in the face by the ball because of you
But you were the one
So nothing stopped me from getting to you

We were both bullied at school because we weren't cool
And i was weak and fragile so i couldn't stop it from happening
But one time i intervened and made a fool out of myself
Got the **** beaten out of me
But atleast i fought for our honour
But thinking of it all just doesn't matter anymore
Because you were so afraid of what people say
That you covered yourself with anguish and pain
I tried and tried to embrace and caress you
but you kept pushing me away and away

"Where was Ted when you were alone and blue?" i asked her

She said "Our love was make believe"

"Then why can't you come back to me?"

"I.. I.. I  SIMPLY  CAN'T!!"  

But how could you be so heartless
I loved you the most
You were like my best friend from 6th grade
Look at all the things i've made
In the end, i wish you were ...
No you say the ending
Cause i got fed up
With this little love story
Like Romeo and juliet

I don't care about procreation
To increase our population
I just want some copulation
Some vaginal stimulation
Simple genital integration
There ain't no rationalisation
For my urge for satisfaction
In my lower region location
I'm pushing the realisation
That with the physicalisation
Of the ******* sensation
Is the only stipulation
Pushing the physical activation
Of ****** gratification

I am hot with the seduction
So no more procrastination
We have all the education
To perform this fornication
Without meaning or relation
I'm not looking for affection
Or a long term infatuation
It's just a simple invitation
To engage in ****** deviation
The heated manifestation
Of a physical altercation
Without an ulterior motivation
With not a single ramification
Just ****** gratification

Of course we'll use protection
I'm not looking for infection
Don't wanna have an inspection
Followed by a painful injection
Ive a straight up expectation
That you stick your big *******
In a prophylactic invention
Stopping all types of creation
We have built up the anticipation
And my wetness is an indication
That I'm ready for connection
I want some ******* action
No mental manipulation
Only ****** gratification