no matter how silently i try to cry
i have very loud tears
i hold my mouth and it hurts to breathe
you dont know the hurt ive found here
you're gone away and i had to stay
i beg you but do you hear me?
i apologize through all the crying i cant speak clearly

i just want you back
i want you and the fact that i cant have you is what kills me.

no matter how quiet i try to be
your silence overpowers me.

light up my whole life.

with you i can only go right.

embedded in my heart is a feeling i'll never stop feeling

i've said it before and i'll keep on repeating

y o u

light up my whole life.

You broke my heart and it never healed.
I still feel the pain after all these years.
It's dying from the sorrow
It's gone blind from the darkness it stays under
I cry at the sound of your name
The thought of your face
I can't keep myself up I fall apart just like that
I wish I could have all of you back
All of us
And what we had.
I still reminisce about when you held me
When I held you
When we held each other.
You didn't let me go
I just wanted you close
That's how we went to sleep and that's how we awoke.
My eyes opened
Your arms around  me
The sound of your voice talking about your dream
The dream that made you so upset
I just listened to every word you said.
I can never forget .
When you Gave up so easy I heard the gun go BOOM.
Bullet shot me dead in the center through and through.

I want to cry for you but then I remember
You only wanted me from august till September
I wanted you for as long as I could breathe
I fell in love with you but your heart it just runs free.
I wish I knew how to make you love me.
But if being without me makes you happy,
My heart will continue to die till I do.
And if you ever should come back to me
We would be revived and still belong to you.

this generation
love's been dead for a while.
     No one knows hows to tell the truth.
If you just want *** you just want to have fun,
Thats fine by me i'll follow that rule.

   but when im alone
and unhappy
    when im upset and no one knows

i wish i had someone to come get me

and hold me so ******* close...

i wish i knew someone i could call

2 hours before the sun rises

come to my rescue before i go crazy
     sit with me and we'll watch the horizon.

i wish i could meet someone who made me feel comfortable and safe
   to make me believe in trust when he's away
he could be my best friend and i his
and we could better each other 'cause that's what life is.

i would say i love you and mean it to death
he'd be the only thought i have in my head

all i want is to have love i can feel
i really just want something real.

i'd do anything for him,
anything he asks,
we'd have our own secrets
we'd share our own laughs.

we'd have all types of times
good and bad

i'd never leave his side or let go of his hand.

he'd be my only desire
the rest of our lives begin down the isle.
then i shed that pretty white dress in the closet



i want something that is real.
not one doubt about it.

Why
Do i
Cause so much pain
To me
you see
i lose but never gain
Family
is supposed to be
family
but not to me
they're the ones who hurt me the most
even more
than i
ever could alone.
its easier to cry than it is to laugh.

its easier to say bye than it is to lend a hand

its easy to wonder why when you're the victim in the case
but when you're the suspect
its easier to be chased

whether you get caught depends on what you do

clean up,
dont waste time,
get in, get out, move.

sometimes the worst gets the better of me too

feels like i land on the sun every time i aim for the moon

and i end up burning to death feeling like the heat just grew.
if only i knew.
it would be this way.

i never
ever
would have saved

myself

that day,
those days
back then

back when
failure followed every attempt

to take myself away from this world.
one day i'll be where i was trying to go

one day i'll see nothing but darkness

one day i really will be all alone.

life just seems to only get harder

and whether i'll last long is something i just dont know.
my thoughts are running around and i keep telling them to stop

i yell and throw all my belongings around

i try to be normal i try not to exist

i try to be happy i dont want to be like this.

im ****** up in every way and no one can help.

i dont know how the **** im gonna make it by myself.

Been high since yesterday.
Good times since yesterday.
Feeling right all day since yesterday.
It's only morning but I've been alright since yesterday.