pieces of me
stick to past pains
like they're a part of me

but no

i must let go
move on
a million other words
that will do me
only good

i can't keep dwelling
on things
that bring up
anxiety and fear

so i fight
myself
to finally become
okay

he
held my hand
and kissed me
in the forest
as sun dappled
leaves swayed
around us

he
hugged me
as i cried
asked questions
understood
and most of all
was kind

he
was the
summer sun
winter snow
autumn leaves
spring flowers
everything lovely
in the world
together

we only had
a few hours
together but
the dream
felt like forever
so wonderful
and so real

i’ve spent
years
of my life
convincing
myself
i’m not
a monster

this
will
not
stop.

i deserve
to be happy

Under the bed
I leave each mistake
and I think about them
as I lie awake