Pins and needles evolve about my skin..

You wouldn't think this is the end..

But it is.

The thought of letting go..

Just too much to bare with.

But I understood the words..

Leave Me Alone

I drink to forget..

I suppose you don't care.

But, the pain is too much..

And this is where I say enough.

Because, I'm too scared to say goodbye..

You always write poems about hating kids..
Or ****** abuse..

Why can't you get a clue?

I've had enough of you.

You treat everyone like ****.

You say you hate everyone.

It's kind of tiring.

I'm not the only one who thinks so.

Others do too..

You just need to grow up..

Realize that hurting people..

Doesn't and Shouldn't help you through..

So please change..

Because, I've had enough of your ******* too.

When you love someone...

So  much it hurts..

You think to let go..

But, you can't.

I'm nothing but happy..
When I can kiss you..
Underneath the mist..
When you part those sultry lips..
I'm nothing but putty in your hands.
I love you..
You don't even know..
Be with me forever please?
I need you with me..

You grab my hand..

You say it hurts to see me like this.

Just hold my hand, give me a kiss and I'll be alright.

Because, I'm okay with you by my side.

Suicide.
My heart is broken and filled with pain.
I can't bare to live anymore.
I have suffered enough.
You broke my heart once and I let it slide.
But when you broke it for a second you crossed the line.
I hate you, I hate you more than life itself.
Why did I let love get the best of me and not see what was really going on?
You never liked me.
You never wanted me.
So why did you flirt.
You let me believe something could have happened.
Like you falling in love with me.
I loved you, I still love you.
But I can't bare to show it anymore.
As far as I am concerned you don't even exist to me.
In my heart your gone.
I cry myself to sleep thinking about you.
If only you knew how much I loved you.
If only you could see.
My life ended that day when I realized I can't have you and when I saw things I never wanted to see.
It hurt me, it hurt me deep inside my heart is broken in two.
I don't think I could love again the way that I loved you.
There is no more love in me now I am filled with hate.
Hate for you but more for myself I dont want to live anymore suicide is the only answer.
Why couldn't you tell me from the beginning that it was only a joke?
Why didn't you tell me not to take it seriously?
What was I to do?
Keep dreaming that one day I could have you.
Or maybe I should have realized that once I meet you I couldn't have you.
I don't want to live.
Suicide is the only answer.

Clothes shed..

Tears dried..

You asked,"Are you sure?"

I replied, "You are my first."

My world stops..
My heart beats like a drum.
I look at you in a different perspective..
Lost my soul..
To protect you.

I pretended that I was okay.
Like pretending Mountain Dew was the same as Mountain Dew Throwback.

Indeed.

It's a lie.

So don't try to tell me you're the only one who is hurting..

Because.. I'm hurting just the same.

Tell them the truth.

How you can't stand them.

You are her little pawn.

And you don't notice it.

She holds you with two hands..

Like a puppet on a string.

It's kind of stupid.

Don't you think?

It's hard to tell you how I feel.
Because, I love you.
And, you hate me.
It's stressful.
Because, I know I'll never be with you.
And that's what kills me.

Intricate souls.
Up, down, all around.
Your personality changes.
Zig zag, another way.
It's so confusing.
You're making me crazy.
Just ******* leave.
Seriously.

i'm going mad

i put down two runs of reg meat,
a run of quarter meat,
and hell some grilled chicken.

in my dreams
i hear the grill timers going off
i hear the beeping of the cabinets
i hear the loud scream of the microwave

i'm going mad

Broken
Shattered
I *can't pick up the *pieces.
I can't give you a reason.
I won't walk away until you know..
There's nobody who gets me like you do.
My mind is running empty.
Through the search for someone else.
I can't be the only one who's so disconnected..
It was so different in my head.
Drink up.. last call before the sunrise sets the last scene.
Of empty bottles, heavy hearts.
The memories of broken dreams.
But, wait.. now that I've found you..
Situations from dark now change to gray.
It's perpetually blinding me of my sanity.
I've lost my whole life and a dear friend..

You'll never know..
The emotions I choose not to show.

I can't tell you enough.

I just want to die

****** me tonight

Your hands grasp my throat.

Convincing my lungs to stop working.

My heart will stop beating.

It's like I'm nothing.
                
         I'M NOBODY.

Do you even care anymore?

You don't see it, or understand it
I could frankly care less if you do

From the depths of my heart 
Referring it to as an ocean
It forms a tsunami when I'm around you

From the depths of my heart
Referring to it astronomically
Millions of shooting stars run across the sky for you

From the depths of my heart
Referring it to everything we are
We are love, in the finest forms.

I know..

I can't like you.

And you don't like me.

But, do you know why I do?

Because...

The way your green hair
twinkles underneath the stars.

Makes me wanna run
to the edge of the sun.

Hold on sweetly to your sanity...
Watch it drip slowly.
Think as you bleed.
Then stop.
Because, you've thought too much..
Then everything you knew was gone.
And none of it mattered.
You just watch slowly as you lose hope.
You decide **** it.. I'll tie the rope.
Then you flashback to before it was like this...
And you want to just forget about it.
You think.. I'm just gonna end this...
You write letters saying goodbye.
Saying you're fine.
Saying you're safe now..
And things like I'll miss you..
I love you..
Don't forget me..
The she walks in after you're gone and says...
"Goodbye.. You'd never would've believed me if I said I loved you too."

Laying in the grass..
With my Barrett M82 on blast.
I walk by and I knife you in the back.
20 kills for the win.
On the top again.
I use my scope so I can get a long shot.
But I think one single thought.
I've got one in the chamber.
So please remember that I will...
I will **win

I thought I mattered to someone. Somewhere.
Thought I was alright.
But I'm not.
I'm searching for a soul.
Someone who cares.
One that will help me win this battle against myself.
I think today is the day.
Where I say I've had enough of this pain.
Take the pills to feel again.
Enough of slant rhymes..
Enough of Luna.
Enough of everything I had made.    
Are you gonna care?
I'm just gonna try to take my life.
Try to find light elsewhere.
Dear god, take the air from my lungs.
Because, honestly I've had enough.

I honestly wish I would have tried harder..

**To save you from that hipster disaster

Today I sat down..
And thought aloud.
What am I doing in this life?
Did I serve a purpose?
Was it worth it?
Am I worth it?

Today I talked with an old friend.
She warned me that this isn't the end.
I wonder in my mind if there's honestly time.


Today I lost my best friend.
May his body rest until the end.


Today... I am a new soul.
A new butterfly.. In a group of moths.
And like moths to flames.

I will be new again.

You whisper to him...

"I love you.."

I whisper to her..

"I love you.."

What if it's you I love?

What if it's you that I want?

I dream..

You whisper to me...

*"I love you.."

today i picked you some wildflowers
i saw them there on the side of the road on my way to you

i flashed back to a time when we first met
when my heart was so cold and my brain
was so blue

i sat there staring at those flowers
they were absolutely breathtaking
just like the first moment i saw you

sky blue eyes, sunshine smile

and in that moment
i knew you’d take the hurt and the pain,
and turn it into something..

...absolutely breathtaking

and in that moment
you pushed me to be something
better than i’ve ever been

whenever i see wildflowers,
no matter where,
i’ll always think of the breathtaking you
the person who helped me through

© Levi Andrew

I haven't picked up the pen
in quite some time

It seems as if I'm forgetting
that poetry is everything I used to be

Writing was my escape
And now I feel more than I can take

Now, I'm picking up the pen
Telling my emotions

Explaining the writers block that controlled me

I will finally start again

Do you remember what it was like?

To have each other to depend on?

You have been my everything.

Or at least that's what I thought.

But, hey.. I guess I was wrong.

Um..
I'm yeah..
Bipolar..

Yeah I slice myself open...
Right after laughin..

But I'm not the one to blame.

So blame it on my ****** mother.
My crazy killer father.

Cuz it's all in my DNA..

Yesterday* you passed away.
No matter what I say..
It doesn't take the pain away..
You were my teacher..
No matter how bad you were treated..
You still were amazing.
And I want to thank you..
Wherever you are.
And you are always in my heart.

The way you said goodbye..

Left me like a dead tree branch on the inside.

Never thought you'd leave..

But, then it hit me.

Square in the face..

That nobody could ever replace...

You.

And I looked into your eyes.

Well, I never pictured
what was inside..

And that I am sorry for.

For ruining your life..

And that also kills me inside.

I'm sorry for hurting...

You.

We started over.

Today.

To you..

I am brand new.

Contrary to what people think..
The definition of the word beautiful, is you.
And the definition of love, is you & me.
The definition of happiness are the words you speak.
The way you look at me.
The way your eyes shine..
The way you kiss me.
The way your leg wrapped around me the last time,
and I remember everything.

You said you'd never give up on me..
That is until you left.
I'll never be able to take back
all the things that I regret..
Although, there are things I'm missing..
The things I thought I'd never forget.
But, you left.

You left me in tears..
With this whole world to fear..

I've got this gaping hole
in my heart.
And it's tearing me apart.

It'll never be the way it used to be.
It's not the way it appeared to be.

Because, you changed..
And left me.

You treat me like ****.

Like everything I do,
you're just sick of it.

And, I haven't hurt you.

I haven't lied to you.

As far as I can see,
you've been hurting me.

Making me feel worthless.

I just can't take it.

Two people that I thought
would never hate me,  do.

I can't blame it all on you..

Most of it's me.

And that's the truth.