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Jun 2014 · 2.4k
To the hipster..
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
You try to play me like a fool...

But, I'm not as dumb as you.

You're too pretentious..

Too hipster.

Stop pretending that you are perfect

You can..

     act
              sing

**But, I was getting so sick of that ******* ukelele.
Jun 2014 · 251
when it comes to you...
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
I honestly wish I would have tried harder..

**To save you from that hipster disaster
Jun 2014 · 280
A.E
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
A.E
New girlfriend.
Old girlfriend.

New memories.
Old memories.

I love you.
Jun 2014 · 273
Untitled
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
When you love someone...

So  much it hurts..

You think to let go..

But, you can't.
Jun 2014 · 362
love this feeling
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
I love the sight of you.

Getting to know you.

Hugging you..

It's all the best feeling I've felt.

I get this...

whycan'tyoubewithmeandonlyme?

feeling..

Because, you love him..

More than me.
Jun 2014 · 673
A wonderful song.
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
I am the chorus..

You are the verse.

He's the bridge.

She's the intro.

We fit better...

**Together..
Jun 2014 · 4.3k
whisper
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
You whisper to him...

"I love you.."

I whisper to her..

"I love you.."

What if it's you I love?

What if it's you that I want?

I dream..

You whisper to me...

*"I love you.."
Jun 2014 · 299
K.G
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
K.G
You are my perfect ending

To my perfect story..

I formed this life with you.

Now, I can't forget you.

Don't leave me.

Not now.

Not ever.
Jun 2014 · 223
Untitled
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
It feels like I'm walking..

With no destination.

I'm lost with question.

And not a single answer.

I'm searching for it.

But, I'll never find it.
Jun 2014 · 286
Different (10w)
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
If you saw the real me...

You would feel different..
Jun 2014 · 219
Untitled
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
You grab my hand..

You say it hurts to see me like this.

Just hold my hand, give me a kiss and I'll be alright.

Because, I'm okay with you by my side.
Jun 2014 · 633
Burn
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
You burned the picture I made..

It hurts me in a way.

Why?

I don't know.

Probably because I spent time on it.

But, it was worthless.

We're both looking for better things.

(Despite your damaging UV rays).

I heard when you play with fire..

You're bound to get burned.

Too bad I was left with the scar.

Because, I wanted to forget.

And move on.
Jun 2014 · 209
Untitled
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
I don't want to feel alone.

No, not anymore.

We all make mistakes.

But, believe me there's a price to pay.

It's too bad I feel alone.

Guess I'll never know.

But, this time I'm serious.

I say that every single time.

But..

**I will die.
Jun 2014 · 292
Start & Stop
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
I start. I stop.

I start again. I stop again.

I write, I erase, I rewrite, I stop again.

I sit and stare, I shake my head, I hide my eyes.

You do not come here for glitter and fun, or flowers and sun; you do not squint from the shine. I am broken and torn; I am a handful of jagged shards, to be handled gently just long enough to be dropped in the closest trash can. I have promised you the truth and that isn’t pretty or magical. I’ve laid bare the surface of my scars; I’ve told the tales and felt the sting, I’ve shown you the scared little girl at the center of my shallow stare and fragile little ego, but now, now what I have become forces me to look away, to slither away into a dark little corner and shield my eyes from the light of the truth.

I can no longer convince myself that there will ever be a better day; I have spent endless hours lying in the darkness wondering how to have myself committed. I lie there thinking that maybe if I went to a hospital, and they saw the real me, that maybe I could be fixed. Maybe they could piece some part of me back together, maybe even enough to get me to want to live again.

All I know for sure is I can’t make myself want to pretend anymore, I sit here fighting the urge to wretch with plump little tears scarring my cheeks pondering the point of it all. How much am I meant to bear before I am granted the sweet release? Is it really selfish to say I wish for death, or is it selfish to witness my struggle and expect one more  breath? When I list the reasons to keep fighting they all have birthdays, and names; they all smile and cry, walk and talk, love and laugh, but my name isn’t on that list. I don’t want to fight anymore; I don’t want to lose anymore.

I have lived with those names close at hand for some time now, but as time works its way into my bones and carves its initials onto my face it gets harder to keep from seeing these names as a reason to continue  and not as a reason to not. This is survival of the fittest and I am slowing the herd. I have long thought that maybe a quick flick of the wrist and a slight sting would be easier than having to drag myself into a smile, to sit calmly as my blood runs dry would be infinitely less distressing than to wake up behind these eyes again tomorrow.

You will find no apology here, no words to ease your feelings about my desires, this isn’t about you. This is a day in the life; this is where I live, and why I can’t anymore.


This is why I sit and I stare, why I shake my head, why I hide my eyes.

I will write, I will erase, I will stop.

I will start again. I will stop again.

I started and now I'll stop.
This is it.
Jun 2014 · 265
Smoke (10w)
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
Cigarette smoke.

It binds

the only being of us

*together.
Jun 2014 · 383
Suicide
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
Suicide.

Seems so perfect.

Seems worth it.

The feeling of worthlessness..

It makes my *jaw clench..


Lips closed.*

No words.

Eyes stitched shut.

There's no time to heal.

So they say call..

1-800-273-8255.

But, you can't see their face.

What's the point?

There's no hope for this useless case.

**Which is exactly what I am.
Jun 2014 · 170
Untitled
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
The thought of letting go..

Just too much to bare with.

But I understood the words..

Leave Me Alone

I drink to forget..

I suppose you don't care.

But, the pain is too much..

And this is where I say enough.

Because, I'm too scared to say goodbye..
Jun 2014 · 201
Overrated.
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
You
       Are
              Overrated.

Just
        Like
                Having
                             A
              
      
                 **baby
Jun 2014 · 302
Untitled
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
Tell them the truth.

How you can't stand them.

You are her little pawn.

And you don't notice it.

She holds you with two hands..

Like a puppet on a string.

It's kind of stupid.

Don't you think?
Can't take another year of it
Jun 2014 · 236
MLV 1
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
I  thought...

Every single word...

      Sliced
               Me
                    Open

Now I'm the one who's broken.

Leave me alone.
I don't need your bipolar crap

      It's all just a new slice. That you created.

Don't take your words. Don't take them back.

Because it's too late for all of that.

You said how you really felt.
And you meant it.

I never said how I truly felt..

I trusted you so much.

Waited around for the words I care..

You lied about all of the **** you said.

Why couldn't you have said I don't want to be friends?

It'd hurt way less than this.

This is probably goodbye for the last time..

Just let me die.
Jun 2014 · 385
Yea
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
Yea
Um..
I'm yeah..
Bipolar..

Yeah I slice myself open...
Right after laughin..

But I'm not the one to blame.

So blame it on my ****** mother.
My crazy killer father.

Cuz it's all in my DNA..
Jun 2014 · 369
Untitled
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
My world stops..
My heart beats like a drum.
I look at you in a different perspective..
Lost my soul..
To protect you.

I pretended that I was okay.
Like pretending Mountain Dew was the same as Mountain Dew Throwback.

Indeed.

It's a lie.

So don't try to tell me you're the only one who is hurting..

Because.. I'm hurting just the same.
Jun 2014 · 3.0k
Ruined (12w)
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
It's not ruined
If it is...
You're the one
who ruined it.
Jun 2014 · 664
I'm lazy.
Levi Andrew Jun 2014
I'm lazy.

I'm ugly.

I'm fat.

I'm crazy.*

Go away.

You're obsessed with your boyfriend.

Who is rude.

Stop mocking my poetry.

It hurts.
May 2014 · 353
Addiction..
Levi Andrew May 2014
Are there any alternatives to this?

Any alternatives at all?

Because, I see the scars.

I see the blood splattered on the wall.

To know I've made many mistakes.

To say I'd never go back.

But, that's not true.

I went back to the blade.

Both catalysts.

Epic.

And

Mundane.

I found a new purpose.

To live on the edge of a blade.

And, the feeling of...

Being...

Alone

Worthless

And..

Scared

Wasn't enough to get me there.

And, what if I lied?

Said that I'd try something else?

But didn't even try.

I did lie.
May 2014 · 230
Untitled
Levi Andrew May 2014
I know..

I can't like you.

And you don't like me.

But, do you know why I do?

Because...

The way your green hair
twinkles underneath the stars.

Makes me wanna run
to the edge of the sun.
Is it love?
#j
May 2014 · 196
I..
Levi Andrew May 2014
I..
I accepted you..
When nobody else would.

I trusted you...
When I could.

I loved you..
When I was drunk..

Wasn't that enough?

I honestly don't know
what else to tell you.

Because, you've hurt me.
And I've hurt you too.
May 2014 · 561
if you thought
Levi Andrew May 2014
If you thought
this poem is
about you...

You were wrong.
May 2014 · 247
honestly...
Levi Andrew May 2014
I ask for your opinion.
I tell your boyfriend to put rainbows in his hair.
I proceed to tell you that I'm not cutting.
But, indeed, I am.

I want you to know..
I still care.

But, as I think back of how many times you've ignored me..
I'm kind of hurting.

But that's just fine.

But, I lied.

I did cut..

And it will never stop.
May 2014 · 507
Feelings..
Levi Andrew May 2014
Oh my God.
Lord almighty.

Go away.
May 2014 · 310
a slice..
Levi Andrew May 2014
I promised myself one ******* slice.
But, I hold the knife.
And I can't stop.
One x after another..
Why do I bother?
May 2014 · 4.3k
H.A.T.E (Acrostic Poem)
Levi Andrew May 2014
Hate for myself.
And I can't blame anyone else.
The time tells me that I'm alone.
E**xactly what did you expect?
May 2014 · 374
Not enough..
Levi Andrew May 2014
Hope is slipping through my hands..
Like sand..
And the pain is something I can't stand.
The world is closing in.
You can take away the pain..
But, that won't be enough this time..
We fight to cover up the scars..
I've had enough.
May 2014 · 192
Thought..
Levi Andrew May 2014
Thought I could
do this on my own.

I was really wrong.

You used to care.

But, then you
started dating him.

He made you
choose him over me.

I used to come to you in pieces..

*So you could make me whole.
May 2014 · 353
Depression..
Levi Andrew May 2014
Dear Depression..
Will you ever get a ******* clue?
I've honestly had enough of you.
You break me apart..  
You pick the wounds.
They'll never heal.
Go ahead, take another piece of me.
You tear me down.
You try to tell me you can hear me.
But, I'm screaming.
I'm bleeding.
I can't forget this horrible feeling.
The tingle.
The want to die.
I have a confession to make.
I've had more than I can take.
You're gonna make me break.
I don't have a perfect life.
It's not a perfect circle.
But, you're gonna **** me one day.
I didn't used to feel this way..
But, you're burning me down.
And, I can't stick around.
May 2014 · 560
Untitled
Levi Andrew May 2014
It's hard to tell you how I feel.
Because, I love you.
And, you hate me.
It's stressful.
Because, I know I'll never be with you.
And that's what kills me.
May 2014 · 425
Oh.
Levi Andrew May 2014
Oh.
I'm falling for you.
It's wrong.
I know.
I'm probably gonna move on.
Because, you probably don't
feel the same.
Which is okay.
Because you have a
boyfriend and he's great.
So just forget this..
Probably shouldn't have written this. But, I did.
May 2014 · 600
Maybe...
Levi Andrew May 2014
Maybe...
I don't wanna say goodbye..
Maybe I want you in my life.
I want you to be there throughout my changes.
I'm truly sorry..
Can you ever forgive me?
Its okay if you don't..
I just want you to know..
I care.
And, I want you here..
I know.. Apologies don't mean a thing to you.. But I mean it. And I'll prove it.
May 2014 · 1.5k
Untitled
Levi Andrew May 2014
You always write poems about hating kids..
Or ****** abuse..

Why can't you get a clue?

I've had enough of you.

You treat everyone like ****.

You say you hate everyone.

It's kind of tiring.

I'm not the only one who thinks so.

Others do too..

You just need to grow up..

Realize that hurting people..

Doesn't and Shouldn't help you through..

So please change..

Because, I've had enough of your ******* too.
Your poem about that inside joke.. uuuggh..
May 2014 · 212
Untitled
Levi Andrew May 2014
Pins and needles evolve about my skin..

You wouldn't think this is the end..

But it is.
May 2014 · 499
you treat me like scum..
Levi Andrew May 2014
You treat me like ****.

Like everything I do,
you're just sick of it.

And, I haven't hurt you.

I haven't lied to you.

As far as I can see,
you've been hurting me.

Making me feel worthless.

I just can't take it.

Two people that I thought
would never hate me,  do.

I can't blame it all on you..

Most of it's me.

And that's the truth.
May 2014 · 679
you
Levi Andrew May 2014
you
The way you said goodbye..

Left me like a dead tree branch on the inside.

Never thought you'd leave..

But, then it hit me.

Square in the face..

That nobody could ever replace...

You.

And I looked into your eyes.

Well, I never pictured
what was inside..

And that I am sorry for.

For ruining your life..

And that also kills me inside.

I'm sorry for hurting...

You.
May 2014 · 239
heavy hearts.. (10w)
Levi Andrew May 2014
The sun sets.

These heavy hearts have

Left our chest.
Levi Andrew May 2014
You said you'd never give up on me..
That is until you left.
I'll never be able to take back
all the things that I regret..
Although, there are things I'm missing..
The things I thought I'd never forget.
But, you left.

You left me in tears..
With this whole world to fear..

I've got this gaping hole
in my heart.
And it's tearing me apart.

It'll never be the way it used to be.
It's not the way it appeared to be.

Because, you changed..
And left me.
May 2014 · 218
after awhile..
Levi Andrew May 2014
Day by day..

I grow weaker

Day by day..

I get more and more depressed

Day by day..

Is the more I forget.

I've lost myself today.
You say I'll find my way..
But, I won't..

Because, today

Is

The

Day.
May 2014 · 250
Untitled
Levi Andrew May 2014
Broken
Shattered
I *can't
pick up the *pieces.
I can't give you a reason.
I won't walk away until you know..
There's nobody who gets me like you do.
My mind is running empty.
Through the search for someone else.
I can't be the only one who's so disconnected..
It was so different in my head.
Drink up.. last call before the sunrise sets the last scene.
Of empty bottles, heavy hearts.
The memories of broken dreams.
But, wait.. now that I've found you..
Situations from dark now change to gray.
It's perpetually blinding me of my sanity.
I've lost my whole life and a dear friend..
May 2014 · 550
it was just a poem..
Levi Andrew May 2014
I'm not confused.
Nor jealous.

I know they're happy.
I'm happy for them.

I am hurt but not by her.

By everything else in this world.

I'm not hurting you.
Not hurting her.

So don't..

Write

Poems

About

Me.
Levi Andrew May 2014
You and him..
You don't quite known how you fit together...
I'm kind of under the weather..
There will be time for us to be friends..
Unless it's the end of us..
Unless you say you care
And you don't..

I'm scared I'll lose you.
Because, he doesn't like me
Like you do..

I'm happy for you..
I am..

Just there's a space between love and lust.

Finding out where you fit..

In my life..

There's always a space for you here..

Somewhere...

You'll always be here.

Even if you don't care.
Yes. I'm confused. Have a lot of thoughts.
May 2014 · 330
Night..
Levi Andrew May 2014
Jewish people.

Germans.

Concentration camps..

I'll turn on the lamp.

And think all my thoughts away..

Think of all the horrible things..

Kids and Moms in gas chambers.

Bodies being burned..

What did kids earn?

**Hell.
May 2014 · 213
people
Levi Andrew May 2014
You think that a poem has to rhyme?

No. Believe me, I tried.

And guess what ?

Poems aren't always about what you feel.

It's just things in general.

So stop mocking my poems

They don't have to rhyme.

Not all the time.
Poems don't have to rhyme. It's called slant rhymes. Not that'd you'd understand that.
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