I’ve got
a vague idea of an OK world
hidden behind the ruins of time
waiting to be discovered
longing for me
to knock on it’s gates
thrilled to shower me
with rays of sunshine
the scents so soft
the sounds so comforting
I can’t help but exhale
it tucks me in
with a blanket of stars
makes sure
the moon kisses me goodnight
it takes care
of all that’s living
and in-between
it takes care of me
when I can’t

I’ve got
a vague idea of an OK world
if only I knew
where it was hidden

in that fuzzy place
between loving
and letting go
reaching for the door
intending to walk out
but refusing to detangle you
from my thoughts

so I stay in the fuzzy place
hoping that someone
pulls me back
/
hoping that someone
opens the door

I haven’t decided

I had a dream
that I don’t remember
I remember feeling
like I was floating
high above the world
crossing seas and jungles
joining the butterflies
surrounded by a cloud
of black and orange
they carry me
towards the mountains
where I leave the kaleidoscope
to be by myself
in my safe space
at peace

but I also remember feeling
like I was falling
further and further down
past the birds the towers and the trees
hurtling towards the ground
I brace myself for the crash
that never came
because when peek through
my eyelashes
I am surrounded by a cloud
of black and orange
slowly guiding me
towards the ground
their wings softly graze my skin
comforting me
until I land delicately on my feet
taking a deep breath
I am home
I am safe
I am at peace

lights flicker
in the distance
far far below

I’m here
looking down on it all
wrapped in a blanket
a book lies next to me
pages flipping themselves
in the cool summer breeze
inside are the sounds of life
outside are the sounds
of the questioning
the air is filled
with random notes
fluttering around me
like guardian angels
I know why they’re here

darkness
sat down
next to me
to keep me company
we look at the flickering lights
in the distance
he tells me
you’d do fine down there
if you wanted to
be a light
surrounded by light
but then he shifts his gaze
the moonlight
dancing through his being
but you’d do great
up there
be a light
where no one has dared to be
and with that
he left

trapped in this world
kept on the ground
no way up
I want to leave
this organized chaos
swim in uncertainty
bathe in silence
wash away
the stress that clings
to my skin
free my mind
from the noise
which keeps me
from seeing

I want to fly
with the falling stars
count the colors
of the rainbow
help the sun
paint the sky
and I want to befriend
the stars
play games
forget that life is hard

but here I am
my feet stuck
to the ground

bubbles popping
rain dropping
time stopping

thoughts speeding
mind bleeding
I am dreading
where I’m heading

words slurring
vision blurring

time stopped

rip your eyes away
from your phone
and look
with an open mind
like you’ve never actually
seen
unfiltered view
notice
the sunrise
which is different each day
like it’s no big deal
look at the people
walking by
imagine them living
their own life
changing every day
trapped in their own heads

looking
without seeing
will destroy us
hearing
without listening
might **** someone