You sealed the deal 
Now there's sadness I can't conceal 
You look so happy 
I've been observing you lately

I cry every night 
Before I go to sleep 
I'll turn of the lights 
To hide the pain that I can't keep

I have so many questions
Can you please explain? 
I think of all situations 
And I think I'm insane 

I shouldn't be crying over you 
I know I deserve someone new 
Someone who will love me
Someone who'll stay true

But I guess I'll be hurt again and again 
And this'll repeat a million times ten
I'm used to being used as a toy 
I'm used to being played by boys 

I won't give it a rest
I'll ask you silently
Be a hundred percent honest
Do you still love me? 

I'm in a world where hope is vague 
It's quite simple, really 
The world isn't what it seems 
And don't you just think it's silly? 

Do you still love me? 
I ask again and I felt the pain
You never answered 
Then I knew, there was nothing I'd gain. 

I was hopeless 
It all felt like a dream 
How we used to be happy 
How loving we seemed

But now it's just a blur 
Our battle against the world ended 
It was you and me together 
But everything has faded 

Do you still love me?
I ask one last time
I'm screaming, please hear me
And tell me you're still mine

It scares me
It's a day when all the monsters
And all the nightmares
And all my fears come true
They're awake
Walking in the streets
Asking for candy
They knock on my door
I hide and shut my mouth
I don't have candy
No, I haven't any

"I think we're stars that lost our brightness,"

"But aren't stars the brightest before they die?"

This I tell you, we weren't the brightest
there's Rigel, Canopus and Sirius
we were merely a dot in the sky
never would we be noticed by people's eyes

star light, star bright
I wish I may
I wish I might
have the wish I wish tonight

astronomy was our thing
the moon, the stars
they were our everything
for us, they weren't far

simply because we found them in our hearts

I was in love 

Yes, I really was

I fell into that hole of love 

I kept falling 

and falling 

until I realized that 

I was just sick 

Sick of everything the world had given me

And I finally found a distraction 

You were the rainbow on that day when a storm plucked a tree off of the ground like it was one of the weeds a gardener wouldn't like around his plants 

You were the music I listened to from my phone when I wanted to escape from the world 

You were the dreams I unknowingly smile at in my sleep 

You were that ice cream I had when I was depressed 

You were the stars I stared at when I had nothing to do 

You were the blanket I kept on me when the night was too cold

You were the doodles on the back of all my notebooks when I was bored in class 

You were my everything, my infinity 

Until I stopped fathoming the world's problematic gifts 

I started to see the beauty and disregard the ugliness of it all 

Just like what I did to you 

The universe is filled with vast loveliness in a way that only someone who observed it daily would understand

Just like you 

But yes, I realized that I was just sick, yet again and love wasn't a distraction but a mere realization of what the universe truly wants me to appreciate.