We try hard to be who we're not.
Try too much to fit in with our peers.
Acceptance is what we search for in those four years we spend in high school,
hoping along the way we can find ourselves behind the facades.

Mask after mask,
we shield our true selves from the people around us.
But somewhere along the way,
we lose who we are in the mix.

life is a mind game are you the bishop are the pawn?

When I look up at the star's I think, about the past future present and all eternity.what I can be and what I will be. An endless space of infinite ponder and wonder.

I'm so confused
No I don't understand
Because who I see here
Is Not who I am.
Reflections tell a story
The one everyone sees
But if you look deeper inside
There's much more left to be.
We're told when we're young
That anything is possible
But society continues
To declare dreams improbable.
I don't hate who I am
Just who I see in the mirror
For these thoughts I keep hidden:
They provoke too much fear.
I want to be normal
Young and happy
But I can't figure out
If I'm really me.
I make a decision
Decide on a label
That is until
New cards hit the table.

Ah,
but where are my friends?

I envy those who
sleep beneath the ground
as I toss and turn
beneath my sheets.

The rain coats the windows,
the clear paint on the wooden walls,
sheets of gray steel on the sidewalk,
blank faces in the windows--

the quietude, the quaintness, the
quilt of rain in the forests
and dripping from the roofs.

And where are my friends?

Away, miles away,
far from my wet eyes.

We are all clay,
formless and
smooth.

Life sculps us
with punches
and grips
and floods.

Life walks all over us
until we turn
rough,
cracked
and dry.

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Love—is anterior to Life—
Posterior—to Death—
Initial of Creation, and
The Exponent of Earth—

The word's I want to say never come out, I see you from afar and all i want to do is shout. But I'm afraid I'll disappoint you again. im afraid i'll hurt you again, my plastic heart is already to paper thin. if I can never say anything to you again, i hope you know you will always be my friend