You rolled in with your sunshine full of laughter.
You rolled in with a promise of love and kindness.


I accepted it...
I valued it...
I loved unconditionally...


But then the storms of you came...
The feelings of happiness you gifted me at the start, you took away and replaced with horror.


You rocked the boat so violently...
But I held on for as long as I could...
Hoping the storms of you will pass.


In the end, I realised letting go and allowing the tides to sweep me away from the storms that is you, gave me the strength to move along and just forget that I never even had the real you.


Now I've found my peace, no longer riding the waves that you created in the storms that is you.
With peace comes happiness...
Someday I hope you'll find it and feel it too.

Starry eyed as a youngster.
Believed in everything the world had to offer.
But that all changed, because people that I've known liked to change like the seasons.


They all gave me nothing to believe in.
I had to pick myself up from the pieces.
Now I always live in the moment.
Scared to hurt someone else with my jagged pieces.


Now all I know is what I feel in the moment.
They all gave me nothing to believe in.
28 and still get lost in my emotions.
Scared to let someone walk in just to walk out again.
Learned enough too, to change with the seasons.
Sometimes I revisit the closed doors.
Not by choice but to remember, they all gave me nothing to believe in.


Lost in thought, when I'm deep in my feelings.
Sometimes I have to remind myself who I am.
No matter how deep a mess you're in.
You have a choice to believe in something.
You have a choice how to live your life.
You have a choice if you'd save yourself just to survive.
Sometimes the people you know will give you nothing to believe in.
But it's up to you what you believe in.

And now our story has ended.
We've said what had to be said.
We just went around in circles.


The world kept spinning and so did my mind.
I loved you but now I just hate you.
We just kept spinning in the same tangled lines.
Like we're constantly stuck in each others minds.


I let go not because I wanted to.
I let go because I had to choose myself this time over choosing you.
Circles that's what it felt like with you.
Stuck in a never ending nightmare of unloving myself just to love you.


You said my feelings are temporary, that I always ended up pushing you away.
What you didn't see was that it was you that pushed me away, when you hid and darkened parts of you just to show me the sides you wanted me to see.


I opened up my doors to you, gave you the keys to the doors that I've left locked for a long time.
But we just went around in circles, because your words and promises never materiliased.


And in the end... we were really just strangers, with memories best left locked up, because we never really knew each other.

I'd die for you...
You'd die for me...
That was the deal...
An unspoken pact...
When we whispered, together forever.


Now the blood runs cold...
In the ground where you left me...
Covered me in bullet holes...
With the words that you said to me.


You said to me once, no one gets left behind.
And I trusted you and your Web of lies.
Now the blood runs cold...
In the ground where you left me...
Covered in the bullet holes, with my own gun you shot me.


You shot me, not once or twice but three times to make sure I'd die.
Now the ground weeps in cold blood.


I look up at your face and give you a sad smile, with a choking breath I tell you it's okay... Without you, I'd still survive.


Now here I am, still standing with the gun wounds you left me with... And a stronger will to live, to breathe and stay alive.

You walk with the weight of the world on your shoulders.
Crawling here...
Stumbling there...
Making a mess, just about everywhere...


At night you look up at the cosmos.
Watching the stars, shining down brightly on you.
You think to yourself of all the things that you've been through.
Replaying each memory of the times you've lived through.


You don't seem to be able to see it.
You don't seem to be able to believe it.
But the stars that you keep watching at night, sees a beautiful soul that is surrounded by a light that shines so bright.


You envy them... The stars in the sky.
You want to be them, to shine bright and to be admired.
But you don't seem to be able to see, that within you resides a light admired by the stars that you envy, that you keep watching at night.


Beautiful soul, don't be so sad.
The scars that you have, prove every battle you've won.
Don't compare and dull your own shine, just so you can be the same as any other star.
Embrace the beautiful soul that you are, as we are all unique and you deserve to shine just as brightly as the stars you envy in the sky at night.

She didn't always receive what she deserved.
But she understood that not everyone was the same.
She kept her distance a lot of the time, always watchful but not always careful.


Protect yourself and your dignity at all times.
But she was the kind, to not always listen to advice in time.


She gave out honour to just everyone around her, she encountered.
But she was careless when it came to herself.


She was the type to take it all in...
Absorbed the wrong energy from the ones that surrounded her.


She read them like a book, she said to herself.
But the words they recited to her, didn't always mean the same things that she comprehended.


She kept building walls up, to defend her fragility.
But allowed the wrong ones to tear them down brick by brick.


But she still refused to avoid her beliefs, she still gave out honour even if it was the last thing she did.

Life's a fairytale right?
Life's always happy and full of sunshine and rainbows and smiles, love and laughter as the stories they tell you as children.


Yeah... life's a fairytale, for the ones that see it through rose coloured tainted glasses.


But that's not reality...
Life's hard and complicated and full of sorrow, suffering and pain.


If you're the type to see that life isn't tainted by all the negative things. You live in a different dimension.


Reality sets fairytales apart from it.
Reality taints everything in life with all the different colours in the spectrum.


It's not black or white or the different shades of grey.
Life's not always full of bliss and good things.
But you know what reality teaches you that fairytales don't?
Is that no matter how much negativity you go through in life... It's always your choice to get back up and keep going, keep going to live a full life with bravery, passion and the strength and will to get where you want to be no matter how tainted life makes you feel.