fear takes hold
same thoughts that
caused infinite nights
of crying, tears
i was having hope
of a future where
i was happy
i was comfortable
too used to that thought
never considered that
it could disappear
please don't go
a year without you
my love, is a year
without life
and i'll be ******
if i lose 5 years of life
**** im **** scared now and on the verge of tears and my playlist happens to play all the sad songs ****** i dont wanna sink back into a place where i dont wanna live, it's easy for me to tell myself to think happy, it's another thing to actually be happy and want to live, that takes a lot. i haven't wanted to live in so long, i finally do, and im scared its going to slip again. not many things/people make me feel this way, you're one.