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Andrew Jan 2019
Can you stop?

Or has it gone too far
Too long
Too much

There is no end

You are ruining yourself
Your wife
Your kids

Do you remember us?

One thing, though, is true.
Your kids will never be like you...
Andrew Dec 2018
I desperately want to be creative
But that makes me exactly like everyone else
. . . . .
Andrew Dec 2018
I eat
Once a day
But I still eat

Probably too much
The scale sure thinks so

I'm so tired
People are noticing

There's so much lying
So much hiding

I'm done
Nothing is working
I don't want to be here anymore
Andrew Jan 28
Look around for a moment,
Nothing will ever be the same.
The light will never hit her face like that again.
The breeze will never blow quite like that.
Enjoy the uniqueness of right now.
Andrew Dec 2019
he called me prince
when he said he loved me
the day he started his game
of manipulation and fear

i never loved him
never even cared
but he kept pushing
the word prince scared me

but one day you came along
you were different
kind, funny, sweet
i started to fall for you

then we kissed
in the heat of the moment you whispered
"my prince"
into me

and the word took on a whole new meaning
ive been dealing with someone harassing me, but some people have a way of making everything better
Andrew Dec 2018
Last night
You saved me
You saved my life

I know I will wish that you never stopped me
Nonetheless, I am grateful

I'm sorry I made you cry
I'm sorry I brought the image of death
To your mind

Please don't cry
I never meant to make you cry
Andrew Jan 2019
A long day
Bruised sides
Ribs visibly shifted
Chest swollen
Stabbing heart pain
But it's all worth it
Because someone saw me
As I am.
A man.
My binder hurts me really bad but it's worth it
Andrew Jan 2019
Everything has changed
You are my every thought
My reason
My Whole World.

I didn't realize
How close we would be
But you are
My Whole World.

You are the most beautiful
The smartest
The most kind
My Whole World.
I love you
Andrew Mar 2019
something feels off
not wrong
but tonight will be rough

my chest hurts
so much
i feel trapped in this shell of myself

dizzy, shaking, afraid
laying on the bathroom floor
nobody can see me

ive started to cry
too dizzy to stand
cant open my eyes
my body is wrong

it will never be over
drying the tears
time go back
be who they want me to be
Andrew Dec 2018
When I look at you
I see the future

Kids were never part of my plan
But you'd make a great mom

A little house in the suburbs
Our perfect little life

One dog and one cat
Because you're a dog person

The future is bright
You are my shining light
Andrew Jan 28
Perfection is an illusion.
Dont hold back,
Waiting for the perfect word,
Because you know that word will never come.
Why do we strive for perfection?
Its true that we get better-
Not through patience,
But through patience and failure.
We must stop holding back,
Knowing that progress cannot exist
While perfection pressures on.
Andrew Dec 2019
P u s h i n g .
The further you go the better you are.
If you stop
you are
n o  t   h    i     n      g      .
You’ll never get into college
You’ll never be successful
You’ll never get out of where you are

You will
N e  v   e   r
be happy.
Andrew Jan 2019
I was weight restored
But then
Something happened
I don't know what

I'm back to a low weight
Not my lowest
But low nonetheless
And nobody believes me

I'm asking for help
Begging for help
But even those closest to me
Don't know how bad I'm getting

It feels like
There is no escape
I'm too weak to recover
I'm too weak to survive
Andrew Dec 2018
Hiding behind a wall of secrets
Trying to get out

From time to time someone finds
The way around
They see behind all of the lies

A small boy
Curled up, afraid
Trying to get a glimpse of the other side

And when he finally sees the light
Words like she and her
Push him back

He finds that it is best
To rebuild the wall
Return to hiding

And go back to pretending
That he is happy
How people see him

And those who saw
Behind the lies
Forget that she is really he

It seems nothing will ever change
Until the day the wall comes down
And none of it remains
I wrote this a long time ago, right when I realized I was transgender. Middle school.
Andrew Jan 28
what is an ocean?
why do the waves crash?
what makes the tide come in?
why do the rocks and the shells change in that way?
The effect of the water is clear.
Moving at its own pace
With no regard for how much each movement
changes what surrounds it.
And changing itself in the process.

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