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Andrew Mar 7
9:32
something feels off
not wrong
but tonight will be rough

9:47
my chest hurts
so much
i feel trapped in this shell of myself

10:04
dizzy, shaking, afraid
laying on the bathroom floor
nobody can see me

10:12
ive started to cry
too dizzy to stand
cant open my eyes
my body is wrong

10:19
it will never be over
drying the tears
time go back
be who they want me to be
dysphoria
Andrew Jan 16
Everything has changed
You are my every thought
My reason
My Whole World.

I didn't realize
How close we would be
But you are
My Whole World.

You are the most beautiful
The smartest
The most kind
My Whole World.
I love you
Andrew Jan 5
A long day
Bruised sides
Ribs visibly shifted
Chest swollen
Stabbing heart pain
But it's all worth it
Because someone saw me
As I am.
A man.
My binder hurts me really bad but it's worth it
Andrew Jan 3
I was weight restored
But then
Something happened
I don't know what

I'm back to a low weight
Not my lowest
But low nonetheless
And nobody believes me

I'm asking for help
Begging for help
But even those closest to me
Don't know how bad I'm getting

It feels like
There is no escape
I'm too weak to recover
I'm too weak to survive
#ed
Andrew Jan 1
Can you stop?

Or has it gone too far
Too long
Too much

There is no end

You are ruining yourself
Your wife
Your kids

Do you remember us?

One thing, though, is true.
Your kids will never be like you...
Andrew Dec 2018
When I look at you
I see the future

Kids were never part of my plan
But you'd make a great mom

A little house in the suburbs
Our perfect little life

One dog and one cat
Because you're a dog person

The future is bright
You are my shining light
Tinny
Andrew Dec 2018
I eat
Once a day
But I still eat

Probably too much
The scale sure thinks so

I'm so tired
People are noticing

There's so much lying
So much hiding

I'm done
Nothing is working
I don't want to be here anymore
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