just lie down
and breathe
just take my hand
be calm
it'll be over soon
but its never over
i have this person at the back of my heels
hes always chasing me
im running
and i trip
he kicks me on the ground until
im bleeding
theres no hiding from him
hes everywhere
outside, in the air, underground, across the world
Everywhere

The first sight I witnessed was a loving caress
Warmth and care was my first sentiment
A family is all it took for my happiness
In embrace and companionship I was content

I grew up and mastered a money making trade
Little by little my loved ones in farewells bade
Little by little, friends and loved ones also are made
I think I was at the peak of my commoner’s creed

But then I awoke in a lavish room with no family in sight
Only to find out my strange and astounding plight
I was suddenly a king with a territory millions of miles spanned
What awaits me is a life filled with luxury and a life painted grand

With a wave of the monarch’s sceptre
Mortal subjects abide my words
Gallant knights slay with their swords
Without hesitation they follow and never falter

But one day of being king, stupefaction once again filled my face
I woke up in unknown lands of new laws and new ways
In here a mortal king may even lose his life to the poorest beggar
For the inhabitants are cultivators in this land besieged by war

With a flip of the hand, mountains are flattened
And with another flip, seas are overturned
This was the apex of this wonderful realm
And to experience this, I was frankly overwhelmed

Then again, born as the strongest man
I have a responsibility and a creed to uphold
Outside this glorious lands of immortals,
Lies darkness threatening to blotch out the sun

As I faced that mortifying experience, I was reborn once again
Literally in a Deity’s body and oh! What a shock I’ve seen
Squatting with the sun behind, I saw a mound in front of me
A mound that once had been the place I’ve lived, the Immortal City

People like ants, people I once had been
And to think that the darkness was my casted shadow
Raising my head, I gazed far into the horizon
The world is vast, This was slammed to me over and over again

A mountain above mountains, a sky above the sky
All those glory and all that I amount to be
Was a frog in a well, gazing at the narrow hole up high
And rose within my depths, was a feeling of melancholy

Indignant, I screamed to the one who played my fate
I don’t want any of this! I don’t need to be immortal!
Godhood can go to hell! I just want to be normal...
To embrace my friends and family once again even if to death I’ll wait

To be saved
that's what we want,
we reach out to people,
sometimes they break our fall,
other times we drop to the
bottom.
It's nobody's fault,
in the end,
sometimes we lack the strength
to save the ones we love,
but does that mean we don't care?
Certainly not!
Let's all forgive each other,
knowing love
always tries
again.

I don’t want to live in a world where I cannot be free.
As full as nectar engulfed in a bee.
Oppression, Isolation and Desperation.
A society scared of the the cracks in its own walls.
Too scared to love.
They just want a touch.

A civilisation filled with fantasies
Your skirts to short, you asked for it
Your arms to skinny, you must not eat
You didn’t say no, so it must’ve been okay.
When can anybody be free?

Oh please don’t tell me I’m wrong
The truth is we’re scared to admit we made a mistake.
But wasn’t that your intention?
To turn my smile upside down
So it could no longer be seen
Until it became your isolated version of perfection.

Oh, maybe, you can devastate me.
Didn’t I tell you I like I like the pain?

It no longer feels okay.

Almost
found a hope that prevails
reaching for me under a starlit tent
Almost
built a boat that sails
across all oceans as they bend
Almost
filled my book with tales
an anthology of moments I didn't attend

Almost
what a terrible word
holding such a stinging truth
Almost
felt like it's all worth the hurt
while wasting years of restless youth
Almost
called out and haven't been unheard
found something I couldn't lose


Almost
thought any path would get me there
where wholesomeness is not just hearsay
Almost
kept a fire in sight that brought me to where
I would find the light of day
Almost
made them proud of me, made them care
made them listen to what I had to say

And now
from where I stand
a lyrical sadness
paper in my hand
I know this is true
                                                            ­             I can almost see you

A WOMAN IS CRYING

In the next room
a woman is crying

a moon
perches upon an hotel sign

unmoved

as a new millennium
dawns

as bright as neon

the woman
still crying

her unknown
despair

shifting silently
from one century to another

human grief
unchanged

from age
to age.

A woman is crying.