you aren't my missing pieces
or my better half
you're just a shared part of my soul
we’ve pieced together
that i never want back

-k.j.c

Like an old friend inviting you to come inside.
Familiar. Comforting.
It will grasp you in its arms and hold you close;
And when you're ready to leave, it wont let you go.
You will beg and plead to be happy,
and it will put up a fight.
It will make you think that the only way to escape it is to take your own life.
If you are lucky, you can break free;
and it will sit and watch you from afar.
Calling your name.
Welcoming you back into it's arms.
It will intrude your thoughts.
Make you think you are worthless.
That you're better off dead.
Just keep telling yourself that it's all in your head.
Keep moving. You will get far.
Depression is not who you are.

You asked me why I like you
But I didn’t want to tell
Some of my reasons are cheesy...
But here is why I fell

I love the way your lips curve
When I make you smile
It makes me want to pull you close
And kiss you for awhile

I love the way your eyes twinkle
When you talk about things you love
I truely believe
You are a gift from above

I love that you are compassionate
You have such a big heart
That was the first thing I noticed
Right from the start

I love the way it feels
When you hold me tight
I finally feel safe
Like I could sleep through the night

I love that you don’t judge me
For my less than perfect self
That is more attractive
Than any amount of wealth

There are so many more reasons
But I’ll start with just this few
Maybe someday
I’ll give this poem to you

:)

Lately
I don’t feel close
to poetry.

It feels elusive.
Unfamiliar.
Once it spoke to me.
But now it’s mute.

It sits back
and doesn’t look
at me.

If I call out
it doesn’t hear.

Lately poetry is
like that demon
I used to want
to reappear.

just lie down
and breathe
just take my hand
be calm
it'll be over soon
but its never over
i have this person at the back of my heels
hes always chasing me
im running
and i trip
he kicks me on the ground until
im bleeding
theres no hiding from him
hes everywhere
outside, in the air, underground, across the world
Everywhere

The first sight I witnessed was a loving caress
Warmth and care was my first sentiment
A family is all it took for my happiness
In embrace and companionship I was content

I grew up and mastered a money making trade
Little by little my loved ones in farewells bade
Little by little, friends and loved ones also are made
I think I was at the peak of my commoner’s creed

But then I awoke in a lavish room with no family in sight
Only to find out my strange and astounding plight
I was suddenly a king with a territory millions of miles spanned
What awaits me is a life filled with luxury and a life painted grand

With a wave of the monarch’s sceptre
Mortal subjects abide my words
Gallant knights slay with their swords
Without hesitation they follow and never falter

But one day of being king, stupefaction once again filled my face
I woke up in unknown lands of new laws and new ways
In here a mortal king may even lose his life to the poorest beggar
For the inhabitants are cultivators in this land besieged by war

With a flip of the hand, mountains are flattened
And with another flip, seas are overturned
This was the apex of this wonderful realm
And to experience this, I was frankly overwhelmed

Then again, born as the strongest man
I have a responsibility and a creed to uphold
Outside this glorious lands of immortals,
Lies darkness threatening to blotch out the sun

As I faced that mortifying experience, I was reborn once again
Literally in a Deity’s body and oh! What a shock I’ve seen
Squatting with the sun behind, I saw a mound in front of me
A mound that once had been the place I’ve lived, the Immortal City

People like ants, people I once had been
And to think that the darkness was my casted shadow
Raising my head, I gazed far into the horizon
The world is vast, This was slammed to me over and over again

A mountain above mountains, a sky above the sky
All those glory and all that I amount to be
Was a frog in a well, gazing at the narrow hole up high
And rose within my depths, was a feeling of melancholy

Indignant, I screamed to the one who played my fate
I don’t want any of this! I don’t need to be immortal!
Godhood can go to hell! I just want to be normal...
To embrace my friends and family once again even if to death I’ll wait