stupid things,
makes me,
remember things
from your
stupid face.

I shouldn't be in the shower at 4 A.M. trying to scrub your touch from my body and your words from my head.

I shouldn't be laying in bed every night trying to find a part of me where your fingers haven't been.

I shouldn't have to watch you be happy with another soul while mine has been lost since the day you left me.

I shouldn't have to listen to my music at maximum volume trying to drown out your voice from months ago telling me you love me.

I shouldn't have had to lose you.

You should've stayed.

you were supposed to be everything,
more than anyone,
but all he is to us now,
is the nothing we feel as we breath,
like it's not a big deal to take in air,
like it's not a big deal to live,
for anything or for everything,
and if you don't have the love and support staring in his eyes,
failed experiment 625,
was made to be unsuccessful to start,
because no one thought to show him how to use his heart.

*-Ruben failed experiment 625-