The arms of the clock weigh heavy in my conscience
Reminding me of when it used to say
How much time I had left, not how much wasted

I look out to these vibrant skies
Seeing with the colors you gave me
Yet in the corners of the clouds there is grayness
A remnant of who we used to be

Moving on, finding someone else
They all seem to have your smile
And with every time I find love again
It's as if I just found you once more

I remember when you walked out the door
And the street lights shone brightly upon you
And your shadow crawled along the floor to me
To enter my mind, spinning into a memory

Last night I giggled with my new partner
Discussing the future and how we would walk it
And for a moment we settled, gazes meeting halfway
Then I saw the universe in her eyes
I saw you.

afraid*
adj.* a·fraid
1. feeling fear or anxiety; frightened.

I’m Afraid...

of change
of leaving my home town
of having to start over
of talking to new people
of not finding somewhere to fit in
of being scolded for my interests
of people looking at my artwork
...
of people, in general

all they do is hurt, criticize, and unfairly judge
anyone who is different

But you see, I’m much more afraid that..
that one day you’ll hate me
that one day you will stop caring
that one day you’ll push me away
that one day you won’t need me
that one you won’t want to be around me
that one day you’ll find someone better

that one day you’ll completely move on
and leave me behind; especially since you’re
the only person who is keeping me going.