Alarm!!!!
Today is going to be a lovely day!
Coffee stain!
Traffic!
Rain no umbrella!!!!
Terrible boss!!
Forgot lunch!!!
Deadline not met!!
Disappointed boss!!
Traffic!!
What's for dinner??!
No hot water!!!!!!!!!!
Today was actually a lovely day...
I'm alive ain't I?

The empty sky at night
Reminds me of you
That I may have rid myself of you
Empty like the sky this night
But it was when I had you
That my life was full and beautiful
Like the stars at night.

Typing....
Hi.... (delete)
    Heyyy (delete)
      I miss you (delete)
  
Throws phone on bed
And let the words die inside
I quench the fire
I **** the feelings
With the messages I never sent

Memories of you haunt me
I see you everywhere
I remember the short time
And i wish they never were
The way I felt
The smile and laugh
The trust I had
The future I hoped with you
Second, third, forth chances
I wish everything was a dream
A nightmare that I am now
Waking up from

Think with your head
Feel with your heart
Don't switch it!!!

I loved you!
I always did, I felt I did...
I showed it in ways I know how to
With a little restriction, Yes
But I was only trying to protect my heart...
So blame me for not giving you my life
Blame me for not making you my reason for living,

The universe knows that I loved you
Even you know it.
It does matter what I do now...
I loved you.

So now...
Months later,
I don't have to prove anything to you,
I don't have to be there for you,
Show up for you,
Dress nice for you,

I proved my love for you long ago
I don't have to prove anything now!

He loved me because it was convenient
That's not love...

He stayed with me when it wasn't convenient
That's love.

Finally!

Somebody that wants me

I miss you
But I can't tell you
Because telling you means being vulnerable....again
And I don't want to fall
And have no one to catch me....again

We want to prove that we are hotter
than the sun,
We want to show that we are rougher
than everyone,
We want the world to kiss our butts
and let us be,
A form of rebellion!
A revolution that can not be tamed!

Excuse me!

While you're busy shedding skin
Breaking rules
and breaking hearts
Trekking further
and burning bridges

You should know that nobody really cares,
You should know that life is sweeter when you care.

I lie at your feet
Soaking you in every drop
Of my cold- warm tears
I beg you to see me,
See me for who I really am
See me for who you really know me to be....

Baby come into the light
Let me feel your skin
Under the  sky blue sheets
Slowly
Baby come into me now
Let this world begin
Something indepth, so real
You and Me with the skies
Tonight..
Love me so tender, so slowly
Take me and keep me
Your only
Love, friend
Fighters to the end

This is our story
So come closer to the Light.

Mama said
I should forget about you
Give it time my child
You will find someone new

Mama said
Don't waste your time
You are fine wine
And if he can't see that...
My child
You will find someone new

Mama said you ain't ready for us
For me
Too scared to give it a shot
Too scared to love till you drop
Let him go my child
You will find someone new

Mama said you didn't love me
That you didn't care
He has a lot of girls at his feet
He wants to take a sip from every river
I forbid you to think about him
You will find someone new

But mama doesn't know you like I do
She promised me that I'll find someone new
But all i want is you..

We stayed up late last night
Beautiful whispers in the dark
I told you my fears
And asked you if you missed me...

The next morning, I woke up and I couldn't  move
I rolled over and you weren't there....

I wish you'd stay
I wish you'd call me every night
I wish you'd be there by my side
Beautiful whisper in the dark

I wish you could be here with me, fight these demons for me,
Dance to 'mirrors' with me
Be the hero
Truly
I wish more than anything
You'd be mine to have and keep
My hard-headed ******,
I wish you'd stay...

Have you ever met the man called Hope?
He's tall and Chubby,
He has freckles under his eyes,
His smile is like a million puppies
His lips knows me

Hope pulls me close when I poke at his tummy,
He plays with my hair because he thinks it's funny,
Hope follows me everywhere
And never cares what anyone will say
He likes me too much to care anyway

Hope calls me and in my sleep I hear his voice
Hope reminds me that Love still exists
And I am  worthy of it...

Your name is inscribed in my heart
Your voice is second to my hearing
Your being belongs to me
As my being belongs to you

Have you ever sat down and waited for a friendship to end?

I laid in bed
Couldn't sleep
It wasn't the heat
I already showered twice
It wasn't the heat
Gentle breeze raising me up and bring me down
It wasn't the heat
I already felt cold inside
I missed you
I felt your absence in the heat
In the breeze
In the cold even with the heat
Rolling over
Rolling sober
I didn't miss you
I missed the way you made me feel
Like gentle breeze, raising me up and bringing me down
Like the heat, overtaking every inch of me
It wasn't you
It was the feeling
Then I realised
It is **** too late to be awake
Thinking over what can be replaced.

And if i treat you unfairly
And if i don't reply you like i should
And if i play you like a fiddle
Making you suffer in bits of ways
It's because you deserve it
And i deserved better

I can't wait to meet you
To see you
To hold your hand..
I close my eyes and imagine it

I can't wait to be with you
To feel your skin next to mine
To take in your smile
I close my eyes and pray

I miss you

I met you when i didn't want you
You held my hand
Made me smile
I am at ease
Now I want you..

We are letting go of the past

We are reaching out to the future


But we have failed to embrace the beauty of now....

I hide in the dust
Pretending that it doesn't choke me
I lay down with the wolves
Hiding the fear
The howling night is never ending
I have searched for the spring
For the love that dwells in it
I have been all that I should
And it has left me broken
On the floor, with the dust
It has left me numb
On the floor, with the wolves
I don't know how to fight
And I don't know how to get up...

I kept your sweater
Obviously!
And I will never return it
Obviously!

I think of you when I shouldn't
I forgive you quicker than I should
I want you when I shouldn't
I miss you more than I should

And so I hate myself everyday
For feeling this way
And so I blame myself
Believing that you'd stay

The angels say you'll come back...
I laugh every time I hear that
I'm laughing now

So I kept your sweater
Obviously!
Not to remind myself of you
But just because..
It's a nice sweater..

I held your hands
In that moment I had a glimpse
Of what you could use your hands
To do

Hurt people hurt other people
You didn't hurt me
So I won't hurt you
We were hurt by other people
But we won't hurt other people

Some nights
I wish
It was just me, you and the darkness that covers us

It's hard sometimes
Trying to forget you
When all the memories come in like a flood
It's hard not to cry
It's hard every time
Trying to move on

....And even if I killed myself for you
You wouldn't even realise it
Because everyday with you
Was a slow death of me
You can't even imagine.

Have you ever loved someone that didn't love you back?
Have you ever loved someone who loved you when it was just both of you?
Have you ever loved someone that didn't know you existed?
Have you ever loved someone that hated you?
Have you ever loved someone that loved someone else?
Have you ever loved someone that thought you loved someone else?
Have you loved someone that was far away?
Have you ever loved someone that has past away?
Have you ever loved someone that you are not suppose to love?
I see we have all loved that way and that way and that and that....
I see we are all caught in some kind of web.

We shall rule, when the Captain dies,
We know and we believe,
As we wait patiently,
As we plan carefully.

When the Captain  dies, we shall rule,
We have taken in more,
More than we can condone,
But we will not lash out,
Because,
We shall rule, when the Captain dies.

We shall rule, when the Captain dies,
No one will accuse us,
No one will think it is us,
Because they can not see our hearts,
And we have served with our blood,
And with smiles on our faces,
Surely,
When the Captain dies, we shall rule,
We deserve to rule,
The Captain will have to die,
For us to rule,
So,
We shall rule, when the Captain dies.

We shall rule, when the captain dies,
They say,
But there can only be one Captain,
Who will be the Captain?
If we all want to rule,
We shall know the answer,
When the poor Captain dies,
Because as we secretly chant,

When the Captain dies, we shall rule.

With you is ice cream and cookies

With you is lovely evenings

With you is laughter fest

With you is crazy me -unfiltered

With you is safe and happy

I wish
I wish
I find a you is someone else

We haven't met yet
But I feel like I will enjoy making you smile..
Watch you laugh
And maybe pause the moment
Or let it play in repeat but in slo-mo

We haven't met yet
But I feel like our hugs will last
a longer while..
My small head resting on you safely
As you fight the urge to carry me

We haven't met yet
But I feel like we'll be in each other's space for a while.

All I wanted was you
All of you
The real you
I didn't care for anything more
I didn't care for anything less
I know who you really are
All I wanted was you

You came and all my smiles
Have left my cheeks so rosy
Have made me feel so lively
Again..

You came and understood my pain
You see me like I really am
You've made me feel so happy
And my heart that was gloomy
Is no more...

I know my words are short and undefined...
I know you want this to be more and
Amplified...

But with my short words I will tell you,
From my heart
Though it worries
Though it doubts
Though it wants to foolishly  know how all this will turn out...

You make me happy and I can't remember the last time I smiled as hard as I do when I'm talking with you.