And if i treat you unfairly
And if i don't reply you like i should
And if i play you like a fiddle
Making you suffer in bits of ways
It's because you deserve it
And i deserved better

I'm happy sleeping alone
I'm happy in my company
I do want to be in love and melt in the beauty of it
But for now
I'm happy alone

Whisper the words in my ear
2am and we won't sleep, too bad!

Tell me your worse kinda fear
2am and we won't sleep, too bad!

You can cry if you want to
Make me your refuge
2am and we won't sleep, too bad!

I feel your heart beat on my skin
I feel the energy deep within
I know what you're hiding,
Let me in!!

It 2am and we won't sleep, too bad!

                          2am
deep in the sheets of your bed.

Have you ever sat down and waited for a friendship to end?

I deserve Ice cream and cookies

I deserve attention and commitment

I deserve 'I miss you' 'I need you' 'You are beautiful'

I deserve happiness and a heart to rely on

I deserve hugs and the deepest kisses

I deserve laughter and a sound sleep

I deserve promises and a willingness to keep

I deserve openess and acceptance

I deserve dedication
I deserve them all

And when I find myself
Missing him
After everything he has put me through
I speak to my soul:
You deserve better, Soft one

You deserve Love

Alarm!!!!
Today is going to be a lovely day!
Coffee stain!
Traffic!
Rain no umbrella!!!!
Terrible boss!!
Forgot lunch!!!
Deadline not met!!
Disappointed boss!!
Traffic!!
What's for dinner??!
No hot water!!!!!!!!!!
Today was actually a lovely day...
I'm alive ain't I?

I don't care if you don't  like me
Don't try me
Dice spicey
Chilling nicely
Red hot  chili peppers
Don't try me
I don't know if i might be
A little crazy
Lately
But try me
I'll cut the king off your kong
I know it best, when you are wrong
I love the chest, pandora's box.
Beg me i pray
Trust me you ain't
That fly
Fly fly the butterfly
And you ain't
That smooth
Smooth smooth
Nobody move!
It ain't a stick up!
But he think he fly
Moving around like some butterly
He think he smooth
True! True!
To that you win
But i don't care
So boo-hu to you too.

My eyes saw him
My heart foretold our future
You know the works
       " laughing in bed"
"Fun with doing nothing"
         "Holding hands under the table"

I told my heart to shut up!

Today i discovered that there are some things bigger than us,
bigger than your hands holding mine,
bigger than your smile, they are divine,
bigger than the way you play with my hair,
bigger than the times we share,
Bigger than us.

bigger than your words - your promises,
bigger than our our eyes - we stare,
bigger than the future we once imagined,
Far bigger than us, i fear.

Bigger things awaits me,
Our love too soon
Has come and past.

I tried,
I tried to pick up the pieces, please forgive me....
But bigger things call me.
Goodbye my love,
Greatness is calling

He loved me because it was convenient
That's not love...

He stayed with me when it wasn't convenient
That's love.

The empty sky at night
Reminds me of you
That I may have rid myself of you
Empty like the sky this night
But it was when I had you
That my life was full and beautiful
Like the stars at night.

Did you hear of the girl
That ran away with her Lover?

Did you hear of the spark they caused
When it was all over?

Did you wish it was you?
Behind the curtains,
You watched as they lived out their perfect life..


I wished it was me
Hearts racing fast
Into the deep of the woods
Alone we are at last

Nothing can stop us
No mountain can block us
The rivers will steer us

I wish it was me
Me and my lover...

I just want to know,
Do you miss me the way I miss you
and do you think of me....

I hate you Arnold shortman!
I hate how you make me feel
Weak
Needy
Alone without you
I hate that I think about you
Every minute
Every hour
Every passing day

I hate that I dream of you
I hate that I need you
I hate that I want you
Weak
Needy
Alone without you

I hate that you love me
It means I have to love you back

We shall rule, when the Captain dies,
We know and we believe,
As we wait patiently,
As we plan carefully.

When the Captain  dies, we shall rule,
We have taken in more,
More than we can condone,
But we will not lash out,
Because,
We shall rule, when the Captain dies.

We shall rule, when the Captain dies,
No one will accuse us,
No one will think it is us,
Because they can not see our hearts,
And we have served with our blood,
And with smiles on our faces,
Surely,
When the Captain dies, we shall rule,
We deserve to rule,
The Captain will have to die,
For us to rule,
So,
We shall rule, when the Captain dies.

We shall rule, when the captain dies,
They say,
But there can only be one Captain,
Who will be the Captain?
If we all want to rule,
We shall know the answer,
When the poor Captain dies,
Because as we secretly chant,

When the Captain dies, we shall rule.

Hurt people hurt other people
You didn't hurt me
So I won't hurt you
We were hurt by other people
But we won't hurt other people

As i watched you leave
I wish you stayed
As i try to live without you
I feel the ache
In my heart
As if unconsciously
A piece of me has been taken
My heart it aches
And as i try to live this life of mine
I feel torn apart everyday

You took a piece of me when you left
And i want it back!!
I want my sanity back!
Give me my heart!!

Our past has done so much to us,
We are only left with memories.
What was,
What would have been,
What should have been.

Our past has done so much to us
Kept us on a leash
We are afraid to do anything
We are afraid to love again
We are afraid to trust again
Too scared to repeat again
Too scared to be again
Why should i Begin Again?

Have you ever loved someone that didn't love you back?
Have you ever loved someone who loved you when it was just both of you?
Have you ever loved someone that didn't know you existed?
Have you ever loved someone that hated you?
Have you ever loved someone that loved someone else?
Have you ever loved someone that thought you loved someone else?
Have you loved someone that was far away?
Have you ever loved someone that has past away?
Have you ever loved someone that you are not suppose to love?
I see we have all loved that way and that way and that and that....
I see we are all caught in some kind of web.

He said goodnight
But he didn't leave
He stayed

And as I pushed myself below
To drown myself in my sorrow
I met you
You held me and brought me out
You held me soo close
Soo close you didn't let go
I met you
When everybody else was too afraid
You loved me
Every part of me I lost in loving others
You gave me double
Triple
You love me like I am a part of you
Sweetly
Love like I've never felt in a long while

As I pushed myself below
Hoping to drown myself in my sorrow
I met you
Thank you for loving me
The way no one else can

I fight with the voices in my head
They keep throwing stones
They keep calling me weak
               "All your poems about love!"
And you are  still alone
            That I don't deserve love
" it's not for the weak!"

I don't know if I can wait..
For you to want me
I don't know if I can wait...
For you to see me
I don't know if I can wait...
For you to love me
    I don't know if I can wait

I've been waiting
And I've been praying

But this waiting is killing me
And this praying is breaking me

I don't want to wait
I'm tired of waiting!
               I want love NOW!!!

There is so much he feels
He hides it in his heart
Lost in his heart
He should write about it
He should let it out
I have learnt that there is so much to say, to let out...
Remove the burdens that you bear
Unexpressed
Let me listen to your heart
Let me feel you through your words
He feels so much
He hides it with a smile
He hides it with loneliness
He should write about it
He should let it out.

Your name is inscribed in my heart
Your voice is second to my hearing
Your being belongs to me
As my being belongs to you

In this moment
I am happy
In this moment
I am satisfied
I stare at the sun rolling in green pasture
A sip from the still water I've been walking beside
I could ask for more
Love
Opportunity
Success
I will ask for more
But
In this moment
This quiet, carefree moment
This insignificant moment
I am happy
Joyful I believe

I laid in bed
Couldn't sleep
It wasn't the heat
I already showered twice
It wasn't the heat
Gentle breeze raising me up and bring me down
It wasn't the heat
I already felt cold inside
I missed you
I felt your absence in the heat
In the breeze
In the cold even with the heat
Rolling over
Rolling sober
I didn't miss you
I missed the way you made me feel
Like gentle breeze, raising me up and bringing me down
Like the heat, overtaking every inch of me
It wasn't you
It was the feeling
Then I realised
It is **** too late to be awake
Thinking over what can be replaced.

Why were we created with the need for another mortal?
Another mortal as foolish as we are...

I'm guilty!

I said it
I did it
I shouldn't have said it
I shouldn't have done it
I saw it
I believed it
I assumed it
I forgot it
I kept it
Didn't  forgive it
Didn't react to it

I'm guilty
I accept it

I'm guilty and I'm tired
Now let me be...

With you is ice cream and cookies

With you is lovely evenings

With you is laughter fest

With you is crazy me -unfiltered

With you is safe and happy

I wish
I wish
I find a you is someone else

You are a little broken too
I see you pick all the shards
Tryna Fix 'em with glue
You see that I'm broken too
You help me up my shards
And you hand me some glue

Broken pieces
Hiding behind our smile
Broken pieces
Let me fix you as I watch you fix me too.

I wish i could stop worrying about what people thought of me
Will they like my dress?
Will they like my posts?
Will they think i'm too needy?
Will they think i'm too proud?
Will they think i'm too blunt?
Will they think my skirt is too short?
Will they think my skirt is too long?
Will they like my new car?
Will they like my boyfriend?
Will they think i'm too slim?
Will they think i eat too much?
Will they think i make a lot of money?
Will they think i'm too poor?
Will they think i deserve this?
Will they like me now that i'm abroad?
I unconsciously ask myself these questions..
I unconsciously create a life that others will like
I lock myself away
Who cares what i think?
Let's live to please others shall we!

He said I was his slice of heaven
I sit here crying
Begging my soul to love him
As much as he loves me
But I can't
I can't make myself love you

I can't wait to meet you
To see you
To hold your hand..
I close my eyes and imagine it

I can't wait to be with you
To feel your skin next to mine
To take in your smile
I close my eyes and pray

I miss you

I held your hands
In that moment I had a glimpse
Of what you could use your hands
To do

I miss you
Everything in you
Everything with you
Come to me
Let me mould you in my love
Let me cradle you in me
Let me show you how much I need you
Let me show you how much I miss you

What do you want from me?
Let me write what I feel
Only paper listens to me...
This my way out
This is my only way in...

I beg you let me be
Ignore me if that's what will set you free...