Whisper the words in my ear
2am and we won't sleep, too bad!

Tell me your worse kinda fear
2am and we won't sleep, too bad!

You can cry if you want to
Make me your refuge
2am and we won't sleep, too bad!

I feel your heart beat on my skin
I feel the energy deep within
I know what you're hiding,
Let me in!!

It 2am and we won't sleep, too bad!

                          2am
deep in the sheets of your bed.

He doesn't belong to me
Because I am a mess
a weird human by nature
He has all these things he can hold on to,
I am like smoke
Broken by the disaster
That is my unsteady nature
A hurricane in search of love
I am
A rose with many torns
I am
A pearl in an oyster
I am
And so he belongs to them
They are better than me
Touchable
Stay-able
I am the wild horse
That falls everybody off her back
But waits patiently to be tamed

As i watched you leave
I wish you stayed
As i try to live without you
I feel the ache
In my heart
As if unconsciously
A piece of me has been taken
My heart it aches
And as i try to live this life of mine
I feel torn apart everyday

You took a piece of me when you left
And i want it back!!
I want my sanity back!
Give me my heart!!

I deserve Ice cream and cookies

I deserve attention and commitment

I deserve 'I miss you' 'I need you' 'You are beautiful'

I deserve happiness and a heart to rely on

I deserve hugs and the deepest kisses

I deserve laughter and a sound sleep

I deserve promises and a willingness to keep

I deserve openess and acceptance

I deserve dedication
I deserve them all

And when I find myself
Missing him
After everything he has put me through
I speak to my soul:
You deserve better, Soft one

You deserve Love

I hate you Arnold shortman!
I hate how you make me feel
Weak
Needy
Alone without you
I hate that I think about you
Every minute
Every hour
Every passing day

I hate that I dream of you
I hate that I need you
I hate that I want you
Weak
Needy
Alone without you

I hate that you love me
It means I have to love you back

Our past has done so much to us,
We are only left with memories.
What was,
What would have been,
What should have been.

Our past has done so much to us
Kept us on a leash
We are afraid to do anything
We are afraid to love again
We are afraid to trust again
Too scared to repeat again
Too scared to be again
Why should i Begin Again?

We sat at the bottom of the sea
Waiting patiently for the Healer
To set us free
You moved closer to see my scars
I shifted away to hide my scars
You moved closer and showed yours
Your scars; deep, fresh, everywhere
On your back
On your hands
On your heart
Scars
Greater than mine
I moved closer to show you mine
You ran your hands through

We sat at the bottom of the sea
Waiting patiently for the Healer
To set us free
My healing began when you saw me.

Today i discovered that there are some things bigger than us,
bigger than your hands holding mine,
bigger than your smile, they are divine,
bigger than the way you play with my hair,
bigger than the times we share,
Bigger than us.

bigger than your words - your promises,
bigger than our our eyes - we stare,
bigger than the future we once imagined,
Far bigger than us, i fear.

Bigger things awaits me,
Our love too soon
Has come and past.

I tried,
I tried to pick up the pieces, please forgive me....
But bigger things call me.
Goodbye my love,
Greatness is calling

I don't care if you don't  like me
Don't try me
Dice spicey
Chilling nicely
Red hot  chili peppers
Don't try me
I don't know if i might be
A little crazy
Lately
But try me
I'll cut the king off your kong
I know it best, when you are wrong
I love the chest, pandora's box.
Beg me i pray
Trust me you ain't
That fly
Fly fly the butterfly
And you ain't
That smooth
Smooth smooth
Nobody move!
It ain't a stick up!
But he think he fly
Moving around like some butterly
He think he smooth
True! True!
To that you win
But i don't care
So boo-hu to you too.

I wish i could stop worrying about what people thought of me
Will they like my dress?
Will they like my posts?
Will they think i'm too needy?
Will they think i'm too proud?
Will they think i'm too blunt?
Will they think my skirt is too short?
Will they think my skirt is too long?
Will they like my new car?
Will they like my boyfriend?
Will they think i'm too slim?
Will they think i eat too much?
Will they think i make a lot of money?
Will they think i'm too poor?
Will they think i deserve this?
Will they like me now that i'm abroad?
I unconsciously ask myself these questions..
I unconsciously create a life that others will like
I lock myself away
Who cares what i think?
Let's live to please others shall we!

They say it hurts like a sting
When your heart is broken
Into a million different pieces
But I don't feel a thing
Instead I feel nothing
Not emptiness
And not heaviness
Instead I feel free

Maybe my heart was never broken
Maybe you can't break a heart that is already broken.

You are a little broken too
I see you pick all the shards
Tryna Fix 'em with glue
You see that I'm broken too
You help me up my shards
And you hand me some glue

Broken pieces
Hiding behind our smile
Broken pieces
Let me fix you as I watch you fix me too.

We want to sleep but don't want to sleep,
We want to hang up but we don't want to hang up,
I'm uncertain about these small matters
But what I am certain of?
We certainly want to fall asleep in each other's arms...

I miss you
Everything in you
Everything with you
Come to me
Let me mould you in my love
Let me cradle you in me
Let me show you how much I need you
Let me show you how much I miss you

Did you hear of the girl
That ran away with her Lover?

Did you hear of the spark they caused
When it was all over?

Did you wish it was you?
Behind the curtains,
You watched as they lived out their perfect life..


I wished it was me
Hearts racing fast
Into the deep of the woods
Alone we are at last

Nothing can stop us
No mountain can block us
The rivers will steer us

I wish it was me
Me and my lover...

I think I'm crazy
Insecure
Overreactive
Overthinking
Stupid
My friend held me close and whispered
"Not everything is your fault."

Dandelions sleep
The music as it plays, isn't that deep
Not even that deep

Watch me as I pray
Kneel beside my feet
The music as it plays, isn't that deep
Not even that deep

I beg you to see the wonder that I see
The beauty deeep within
The splendor, the grace
In taking things slow

The broken and the scared
Need a chance to take things slow

So watch the dandelions sleep
Listen, to the music as it plays
It's not that deep
It was never that deep.

We often run into the arms of those
Who can justify our madness,
Those who make us feel better about the monsters we have become,
Because we don't want to be better,
We don't want to change,
That's too much of a task for us
We just want to be loved the way we our,
Our ***** selves...

I just want to lay with you
Stay with you, play with you
Be your flavor...everyday with you
No music
No lyrics
Just me and you

I finally realised why i miss you,
You listened and you always wanted to be here with me...

You didn't care if it was stupid
Or if what I said was weird
You didn't care if I cried or if I laughed
the whole time
You were just happy to be here with me....

I must admit that you forced yourself into my life,
I was fine on my own.

But you made room for me in your scattered, messy and confused life and it was home...

You were deep
Like real deep
And I never doubted your love for me

You wanted me,
In your scatterd, messy and confused life.

Thank you for loving my with your whole being, and for kissing me on my forehead for no good reason.

I love you for no good reason.

I told him to go
And he left
And he didn't look back

I drove him away?
Naaa...
If he wanted to stay
He wouldn't have left

I realized that I belong to no one
And so I owe loyalty to no one
I can be who I want with who I want, when I want.
That is the freedom I need.

This night I'm tired

I'm tired of trying

I'm tired of  trying to be who I was

I'm tired of doing what I used to do

I'm tired of trying to prove anything!

I'm sitting this one out!

Sophie with zero energy everybody!

Friday night, I'm just watching!

He said goodnight
But he didn't leave
He stayed

He said I was his slice of heaven
I sit here crying
Begging my soul to love him
As much as he loves me
But I can't
I can't make myself love you

I'm happy sleeping alone
I'm happy in my company
I do want to be in love and melt in the beauty of it
But for now
I'm happy alone

My eyes saw him
My heart foretold our future
You know the works
       " laughing in bed"
"Fun with doing nothing"
         "Holding hands under the table"

I told my heart to shut up!

You said I was beautiful
But I didn't believe you
I didn't know you that much to believe you

You said my eyes, that you could get lost in my eyes,
I felt it was a cheesy line, it didn't even rhyme
I didn't believe you
Because I didn't know you that much to believe you

You said I was perfect, my skin milk and honey
My lips melted butter
you touched me like I was clay

You said I was your blue flame,
"Don't pretend to be wild for me, don't try to prove your worth to me.
Baby you are beautiful, can't you see? You are more than enough for me"

Words fail me sometimes
I can't convey how it feels some days
I find myself wondering and wandering,
Asking and doubting,
Praying and crying,
Wishing and waiting,
But there you are lost in your bliss
Calm and collected
As if life is just a breeze and a thunderstorm,
Your arms stretch for my heart
And call me home to you

I want to learn from your stillness
From your quiet calm voice
Your 'hello', calms me
Making me want to lean into you
Forever...

There is so much he feels
He hides it in his heart
Lost in his heart
He should write about it
He should let it out
I have learnt that there is so much to say, to let out...
Remove the burdens that you bear
Unexpressed
Let me listen to your heart
Let me feel you through your words
He feels so much
He hides it with a smile
He hides it with loneliness
He should write about it
He should let it out.

I fight with the voices in my head
They keep throwing stones
They keep calling me weak
               "All your poems about love!"
And you are  still alone
            That I don't deserve love
" it's not for the weak!"

Love is a strong word
But it's more than words
It more than just saying it,
It's heavier than that

Love, is in what I do
What I choose to do
Because I can love someone without knowing it,
But I'm showing it.

Love, is in what I do
What I will do for you
Because when I love,
I will do things not just say things
It's easy to say things
But love is in the things I do

How to Love,
I love you when I am available, I don't have to but I want to.

I love you when I want to take care of you, I don't have to but I want to.

I love you when I accept you but still want you to be better, I love you that much to want you to grow.

I love you when I stay, I don't have to but I choose to.

Love is not entirely in the words that I speak: "i love you"
              "i love you"
               "i love you"

         A million times over

Love is in what I give, knowing that I don't have to but I want to.

It's deeper but that is love to me...

I just want to know,
Do you miss me the way I miss you
and do you think of me....

I don't know if I can wait..
For you to want me
I don't know if I can wait...
For you to see me
I don't know if I can wait...
For you to love me
    I don't know if I can wait

I've been waiting
And I've been praying

But this waiting is killing me
And this praying is breaking me

I don't want to wait
I'm tired of waiting!
               I want love NOW!!!

I do want to hurt you
The same way you hurt me

And as I pushed myself below
To drown myself in my sorrow
I met you
You held me and brought me out
You held me soo close
Soo close you didn't let go
I met you
When everybody else was too afraid
You loved me
Every part of me I lost in loving others
You gave me double
Triple
You love me like I am a part of you
Sweetly
Love like I've never felt in a long while

As I pushed myself below
Hoping to drown myself in my sorrow
I met you
Thank you for loving me
The way no one else can

I'm guilty!

I said it
I did it
I shouldn't have said it
I shouldn't have done it
I saw it
I believed it
I assumed it
I forgot it
I kept it
Didn't  forgive it
Didn't react to it

I'm guilty
I accept it

I'm guilty and I'm tired
Now let me be...

In this moment
I am happy
In this moment
I am satisfied
I stare at the sun rolling in green pasture
A sip from the still water I've been walking beside
I could ask for more
Love
Opportunity
Success
I will ask for more
But
In this moment
This quiet, carefree moment
This insignificant moment
I am happy
Joyful I believe

I think having feelings is one of the best gifts given to writers,
Because feelings are dynamic; ever changing. It is an opportunity to express freely.
So I write to release the feelings that hunt me....
Introducing ME..

I want to be the one
Who'd always hold your hand
And tell you, life is not easy
So don't be mad

I want  to be the one
To hold you
Sleep at night
Rain may seem too heavy
Let me hold you tight...

I'm not strong enough to bear your rejection
But i want to be there for you
I'm not wild enough to run your race
But i want to try and keep up with you

Because I love you
I want to take good care of you

Because I love you
And I want to be the one for you

I want you to want me....

Why were we created with the need for another mortal?
Another mortal as foolish as we are...

He said I gave up on him easily
That I left him too soon
I didn't give up
I just got tired of knocking
On the door of your heart
Hoping that you let me in
I was beaten by the rain
I was flogged by the wind
Laughed at because I looked desperate
Mistaken for a beggar
Mistaken for a con-artist
But never seen as a lover
I got tired of knocking
Because if you keep knocking
And there is no answer,
It means nobody is home
Or they don't want to let you in.

So maybe I did give up
Atleast I tried...

What do you want from me?
Let me write what I feel
Only paper listens to me...
This my way out
This is my only way in...

I beg you let me be
Ignore me if that's what will set you free...