What we have is dead
An emotionless attachment
A void of meaningless reasons
A life of broken fragments

Touching you doesn't feel the same
Your touch, It's Cold. Empty.
Your movement no longer sync with mine
We have lost our flow of rhythm

Our hearts no longer beat the same
We have vanished from our own existence
Your hair isint as soft as before
Maybe its due to our distance

You no longer melt under my touch
You no longer smile with glee
Your actions no longer match your words
Maybe this is the truth I finally needed to see

You came all this way it must count for something
But I know its because you think you owe me
Standing by your side through it all
You feel like you had to do this for me

Though I can feel the tension in the air
We aren't the people we use to be
7 months can really change a person
You leaving was what set me free

Now your voice is empty
And so are your words
Dead end lies
Coated with sugar

What we have is dead
We are clingying to who we were
What we had, what we did
Even though now its all but a blur

what's dead is meant to be buried
Deep within the ground
Leave it there, locked away
Where it can no longer can be found.

Let's not try and resurrect the dead
Because what's gone is gone
And quite frankly
Its never coming back.

I'll pay you a visit
Once a week
Don't worry about it
I'll be your relief

We can watch movies
Dance, sing without a care
We can act like the queens
Sassy and full of flare

We can bake cookies
Eat ice cream, Play a game or two
We can pig out on junk food
There is no need to feel so blue

This is your life
The pathway you have chosen
This is your future
Don't allow yourself to feel broken

You never liked them much anyway
The drama and those people
So dont allow your dreams to sway
When you feel isolated and alone

Stand up straight, Meditate
I know you can pull through
You are my best friend after all
There isn't anything you can't do.

So raise your head to the sky
Feel the nice cool breeze
This is the first step, its one of many
Its okay though just be at ease

Its a new world for both of us
One not many may choose
We may rarely see each other now
But you will still forever be my muse

Don't let loneliness swallow you whole
Don't fall down that rabbit hole
Because I will forever be around
Just do your best and reach your goal

Good luck my love
I wish you the best

- Your best Friend.

You're name still echoes within my mind
The possible meaningless things that makes me question my life
I swore to forget you
To remove you
Stop
Break
Release
Yet you so easily walk back in
Its as if you see through me
Every wall and facade
You have the key to each lock
That stands in your way
Though the others struggle
Attempting to fill your place
You simply won't let them
Stopping them from filling that empty space
My hearts opened to you
Again once more
But the question is
Do I still love you the same as before?
Am I missing you
Or do I just miss the idea of you
The sweet gentleman touch
Is causing quite a fuss
I care for you though
I can say that with pure honestly
Though my love for you has changed
Faded into void of endless possibility
Somewhere within I still long for your touch
The Affection is intoxicating
Those sweet words are pure bliss
Though theses things leave me contemplating
Contemplating why you left me like this
Though my heart is still riddled
Screaming at me why
I know I shouldn't let you back in
I shouldn't let you waste anymore of my time
through the silence that speaks louder then any words could
I still care for you
But never again will I feel anything more
Because I refuse to be broken
Broken like I was once before

Hold me close
Please I beg you
I can't stand it anymore
I'm standing by the edge
I feel the pain deep within my core

The past is brewing over
And I'm way in over my head
It hurts it hurts I beg you
Please stop it before it spreads

**** it before it takes away my smile
Destroy it before I lose it all again
Just hold me tightly please
Though I know its all in vain

I'm crying and screaming
Please forgive me
For feeding you lies instead of the truth
Its cruel and selfish to push this upon you
But if I'm lying about my own pain and sadness
Thats something I'm always willing to do

You don't need to worry its okay
I don't want to burden you with my problems
My trauma, my scars and my bruises
No matter what it is Ill always come up with excuses

I'll do anything to hide you from the truth
You don't need to see this ugly side of me
Though ive seen each and every one of yours
I'm still unwilling to let you see

Bolting it shut with iron doors
Locking it tightly down
I'm pulling up my facade now
My mask is telling you I'm perfectly
Fine

But internally I am screaming
I was want you to hold me close
I'm losing myself within my own mind
Everything only the outside is far from the truth

So please, oh please
I'm begging you
See through all my lies
See that truly down beneath
That I'm honestly dying inside

Hold me Close
I beg you*

They say you're a Monster
A vile villain, A Hideous Beast
And that might be true
You've painted a fearsome picture
An image that chills people to their very core
Guarding your soul in deceit
Surrounding yourself within a den of lies
though the whispers of the shadows
This power bestowed from above
But you love this Fear
The fear that you create
That stirs the souls of the weak
And kills everything made in the name of love
I'm standing here with you
I should be afraid
I know.
You expect me to tremble
To cower at your feet
But this fear wont stop me from seeing
It wont stop me from unveiling the truth
The reality behind that mask that you wear
This power and persona that you've fabricated
Is hiding the real you within there
You may not be forgiven for everything you've done
But I'm willing to stand by you, I'll stay with you
I'll promise you that I'll never run
And though I may fear the consequences of seeing
And in a fleeting moment you could tear me apart
but this fear that beats simply wont stop me
It wont stop me from finding your Heart

You're more than
A Monster shrouded in lies.

S T O P  I T

Stop trying to return into my life
Breaking and entering
His voice and spirit has returned
I can hear the same tone
Its still so menacing

Stop talking
Stop telling me these useless lies
You're telling me you need me now
Though I can see the truth in your eyes

You're still the closest one to me

S H U T   U P

Just stop talking right now
My hearts feeling pity
You're still drawing me in
But there is no way now
That I can let you win

Not after I've come so far
I'm not willing to lose it all again
Not after I've done so much
I don't want to be fastened to that old chain

Please just leave me alone

You've done enough already
I've given you my entire life
Everything that I have is yours
What else must I sacrifice?

So stop it
please just stop.

Those lovely words that are so sweet
I can't keep turning you away
For I am weak for you
Weak for your mysterious ways

Beautifully crafted lies
that fall oh so perfectly in place
Begging at my soul
Words that with poison they are laced

My options are few
I honestly only have two
Wait for you......
Or don’t
The equality in pain strains my soul out of my body
Floating above myself saying “somebody help that guy”
My own soul doesn’t recognize me anymore
I’ve become a frail pale corpse of just existing
Negative purpose deeper then the surface of the hurt on my face
I positively have no place to race at the pace I use to run at.
My body is worn down to much
The chest I kept joy in before has been stolen
The X marked the spot, you hit the jackpot
Stealing away yourself, the only treasure I had
The hole that was dug created a cavity
Not one that a dentist could fill
But one that made me empty without you, my sweet Emily.
No pill or drug can take my pain away
As my soul still apart from me thinks maybe life is better this way?
A soulless existence with no feelings to have destroyed
Like a robot or just “some body” null and void