I suppose worst is over
Knife pulled from the wound

Or like a broken bone freshly set

But being through the worst
Wonder what comes next

Chest tight
Anxiety

To not consider there ever could be an 'after' for us was just foolish

We thought we would be able to withstand any storm

So giving in like that after hurricanes and tornadoes
Amidst a light drizzle
Hurts

Twist story however you like

We were convinced love had the answers

Existed in a plane above the rest of the world

Which sounds like beautiful scenario until you look closer

And realize when you're up that high you've got a helluva long way to fall

I dread the day you will inevitably die
I'll never be ready to say goodbye
We fight every now and then
Cycles repeating again and again
So every morning count every blessing
When life feels extra depressing
I can be much too bad to tolerate
Some things do I'm sure you hate
I severely want you to view me succeed
Atone for every last misdeed
It's been long time coming now
Countless occasions made and broken that vow
Time flew by in what feels like a flash
Cherished treasures crumbling to ash
I sense I've stretched patience thin
Behavior worked it's way under your skin
I recall being younger and naively carefree
Back then world was too big to (truly) see
The shape of hands as they lifted me high
A comfort on which I've grown to rely
Heart bogged down by weight of this shame
Don't recognize the person I became
Your imprint forever will be etched into my soul
Same anchor that throughout the years has played a vital role
I'm afraid before I realize you will slowly slip away
For my iniquities your absence is the hefty price I'll pay
You're the only dad I have and the best by far
I wrote this to tell you how important you are