Oh To Be A Child Again...

Oh to be a child again

Oh to dance with glee

Oh to have no worries

And live a life carefree

To see fun in the shadows

A rainbow in the rain

A light amongst the darkness

And not to feel the pain.

To live with total innocence

And not know how to lie

To love with all your being

Until your time to die

To smile at every person

Whether rich or poor

To play out in the open

And not to close the door

To speak without the fear

Of saying something wrong

To sing without the worry

Of not knowing the song.

To live life to the fullest

To give each day its best

No worry of the future

Or failing in life’s test

See wonder in the smallest being

Beauty in a tree

Oh to be a child again

And live a life carefree.

my smiles to you means i like you
my laughter to you means i need you.
my jokes to you means i will accept you
my conversations with you, means you might have a chance with me.
i will stop running away if you do.
i will take step closer if you do
i will talk to you if you do.

i just want to sing
sing and sing
sing my words out loud
my heart is beating
beating for passion
passion that overtook me
passion that controls my mind
i just want to write
write and write
because it's where my passion dwells
i wake up with a new story to write
each day with a new poem
my imagination grows each day
i shine in my little world
a world where a few shine
this passion will forever stay young.

even though i felled in-love
life didn't care and stills goes on
even though my heart got broken
life didn't care and stills goes on

don't fall in-love with an ambitious girl
because she will always run after her ambitions instead of you
don't fall in-love with a feminist girl
because she will always win at anything against you
don't fall in-love with an independent girl
because you will never get to control her in anything
don't fall in-love with a smart girl
because she will always outsmart you a step ahead
don't fall in-love with a writer girl
because she will write out all your flaws if you ever break her heart
don't fall in-love with a singer girl
because her last song will be about how a bad *** you are
fall in-love with a poet girl
because she will rhyme out your greatness
before you even give up your heart to her.

It's been awhile since then
I don't know how
But each day gets better
I eagerly wait for tomorrow
Only if I could berry yesterday
Live today and say good morning to tomorrow
Laughter can never be wait on
Smiles should never be counted
If we already know the possible outcomes,
Let's never take risks
As my friend once said
Never walk into a fire with your eyes open
Unless if you are a fire yourself
I don't care how many I lose
As long as I have one dearly true one
I just hope we never see each others tears
Just one hello, and here we are
It's not worth it to walk into a pit
When you know, there's one ahead
Just country songs,  may be fire works,
I don't know myself this might not be for forever
But I am graciously glad for the time
I hope we hold on to each other, as long as we breath life
I don't know why and no reasons
But this is the only way I can go with friends
Am a bit scared each day
But am hanging in there, coz I know your names
So yea, this is all

a great country with greater ambitions for all
i don't know where i would be if not here
a country worth fighting for
because we all wake up with smiles on our faces
we share every bit we have among us
even though our winters try to cover the rising of the sun
our sun never hesitated to rise
i have no words to express the greatness of this nation
because it's too great to find the exact words
our winters are the coldest
but somehow we always find a way to keep ourselves warm
if holding the door for you, we do it real good
if saying hello, we will be the first you hear it from
we might not be famous in the world of acting or singing
but we are famous and known for being polite
which is a million times worthy
i don't want to sound like bragging
but really this nation has stolen my heart
in a way a boy has never done before
i was not born here, nor am i a native of this ground
i have wondered looking for love and peace
and only here in this nation did i find my heart
i will not be ashamed to hold the flag of this nation
i will not be ashamed to sing the anthem of this nation
the growing of a tree tells a story in this nation
from east to west we rise every day with greater determination
the fireworks of this significant day will end today
but they will keep firing in our hearts for this nation
the smell of the grass of this nation washes away pain,
and when you step on the grass of this nation it brushes you with care
on a rainy days the sky drop low that it gives you a feeling,
and provokes you to believe you can climb
and reach the skies along with a friend.
on a sunny days, the sun gets bright that it makes you
want to talk to any stranger on the sidewalk.
I am inlove with this nation.
i came from a very far land, but this land has become my only home.
i don't care who says i don't belong because my heart say i belong

i am an angry feminist because i have been too far ignored, too far silenced and yet not given a chance to voice my mind.

breathing in the dust
i wonder how much longer i have to be here.
in the dim light i try to read,
i drift off to sleep and so do my lamp
i woke up the next morning and,
again i breath in the dust.
each day is harder to live,
today becomes worst than yesterday's
i just hold in my tears, to give another person hope,
that tomorrow is on the way.
starvation for food, starvation for knowledge,
none is greater than the other.
i woke up to wear the same outfit as yesterday's
the freedom of being happy was robbed from me,
by something i don't know or understand.

am afraid to be your friend
because you might say goodbye tomorrow
am afraid to fall in love
because my heart might be broken by you
am afraid to tell you my secret
because you might tell it to the world
am afraid to walk in you shadow
because it might just disappear
am afraid to lean on you
because you might decide to just let me fall

The days are flying
I can't believe this is happening
We are going to say goodbye today
I wonder if I will ever see you again
Can I at least get a hug to remember
I wonder how I will keep going
Without seeing your smile
Without hearing your laughter
My days ahead are doomed

hello poetry
hello poetry became my facebook
i use to wake everyday to check my facebook's new status
but since i found hello poetry
i wake up to check hello poetry new poems
hello poetry, where i meet people,
with the same passion as me, writing.
hello petry, is where i take all my happiness,
all my sadness, and all my creativity.
when i don't have enthusiasm to study for my exam,
i go to hello poetry and somehow i get pumped
when i fell in love, i go to hello poetry
when my heart is broken, i go to hello poetry
when i had a beautiful day, i go to hello poetry
when i had a bad day, i go to hello poetry
the world is a place full of happiness,
sorrow, obstacles and hardships,
i have learned to live and survived it
because i take it out on my writing.

i ****** made it without you
despite the damage you caused
can you hear my voice
it's clear and loud
can you hear my laughter
can you see my beautiful smile
can you see my steps from yesterday's
believe me, am capable of more than you know
just watch me walk away
because of you i conquered something
because of you i learned to endured

my nightmares are never gone
i cry until my eyes dry out
in the dim light i stand alone
my hands are clipped together by cold
my teeth are rattling with fear

one smile begins a friendship
one vote can change a nation
one candle can burn out darkness
one flower can wake the dream
one tree can start a forest
one heart can know what's true
one voice can speak with wisdom

There are too many judges to judge me,
But God is my lawyer.

there are many stars, but the moon
is one
there are many friends, but the best
is one
to forget me, it's up to you
to forget you, i will never do


                                                                                  by; Estahil

tears like rain drops
has the rain stop?
hoping my tears would stop too
i slowly reach for my face
there i still feel my tears
but the rain has stopped

no matter how much you ground me
i will never stay grounded by you
i have my own wings
i have my sister's wings
i have my mother's wings
i have my father's wings
you may have destroyed my wings
but am offered new ones to fight you harder.

It takes more than just you-tube inspirational videos to start living sincerely
and more than just motivational quotes to start practicing our good thoughts
more than just good friends to start being one
more than just don'ts and dos from parents  to really start understating and learning
more than just our failures  and mistakes to start making the right choices
commitments, courage, faith, hope, willingness, wisdom, ambitions, goals, love.....is something that we have to cultivate on our own
giving up is decision only made when we don't have courage or when we lose hope
emptiness is a feeling only comes when we don't have faith or belief of our own
failure only conquers when we stop trying
fears only take over when we let them take over our deep thoughts
loneliness only takes over when we allow ourselves to become the enemy of our enemies
ambitions only come when we dare to dream no-matter the age
success only happens when we act and commit till the end.

if only we could stop the fears
and start doing what we were call to do
start living life as it is
doing the things we can
do best and start
sharing the love Jesus left for us
start living our dreams
without having not to please no one
but ourselves
share our stories and listen
to our neighbors stories
having not to always drink
from the tap
but also from the riverbank
allowing ourselves to laugh
every night when go to bed
and every morning when we wake up
the world belongs to all of us
so lets call it our universe
always live with peace
even without law enforcement
always forgive even though
not forgiven yet
share our gifts without judgments
learn to use our talents
for the right reasons and purpose
stop social networking via internet
and start social networking via reality
stop cheating our way through life
and start living our values and beliefs
stop hiding behind the curtain of fears
and be the first to scream out for change.

Yet its a big world
What choice do I have?
Or do I?
Where do I go?
It's big enough,
That am lost everyday
Yesterday is gone
Today is here
Tomorrow is coming
Hold on or let go
It's upto to me and you
Just a little further each day
Who said I can't, or you can't
When days are longer,
Wait for me
When days are shorter,
Keep up with me

how long should i dearly hold you in my heart
tell me, how long should i keep you a secret in my heart
there's this thing i have for you
tell me, tell me, how long, how long.
i can't remember exactly when this started
neither do i know how long it's gona continue
i have lost track of time now, that's how long it's been.
how long are you going to keep me a dreamer
it was interesting for awhile, but now it's just.......
i don't have a word for it.
just forever waiting for a never rising sun.
i guess this must be the love i heard of while i was still innocent
my imaginations weren't enough,
that you began to be my daily guest in my wonderful dreams.
how many times are you planning to let me fall
my heart only race for you, it had never gave up.
i wake up to find courage everyday,
to look for where your heart lies.
even when i don't want to, my heart keep a place for you.
there's this thing i have for you.
tell me, tell me, how long, how long.
can you help me find a way?
can we find a way together?
if this fate slips by, i wonder if you will know,
that my heart once belonged to you.
i see many stars in the sky,
but i can still easily spot which one is you.
how long are you planning to keep me a dreamer?
yes, yes i appreciate your presents,
but it's just the gap between that bothers me.

i know there's no other girl
who will fulfill my qualities for you
or afford my smile for you.
that's why you shouldn't have
close your eyes towards me.

i want to make it possible
but everything just seems too impossible
somebody help me fight
the journey is taking too long
it's getting me weaker and weaker
somebody make me believe again
that i can break down walls
if only i could stop the world
if only i could reset time
the tears are quite bitter, how long
there's so much beauty, but i can't seem to have it
all the books/poems/stories i could have written if not...
all the friends i could have made if not...
all the hugs i could have given if not...
all the kisses i could have given if not...
i don't understand every single f*ing day
the numbness has stopped me
somebody explain things to me
when did i ever give my permission
i crushed yesterday and will be today and tomorrow too...
i don't know the difference between the days
no-matter how far i run away
the distance don't do any justice, pain still finds it's way
fighting demons both in the daylight and at dark
somebody tell me where hope is
am hopping someday i will find excitement
in tomorrow or breathing air
the impossibilities just tell me i shouldn't try
even if there had be motive of trying
i wouldn't know how...
can i make it through the nights, somebody promise
somebody help me fight in the battle field.

am so independent
who comes across my way
i put the world behind me
i live a single life
i decided long ago
my tears are for happiness
my talk is for laughter
my heart is for loving
my hands are for reaching out
my legs are for leading
my personality is to inspire
i will use my days to search for joy
i will use my breath to give love
in myself i found love
in the world i own nothing
in myself i own so much
whoever comes my way gets joy
to the world am a criminal
to myself am innocent
there's so much in this world
but to be who you are,
or to be happy
you have to hide everything behind
live life as nothing is wrong
live life as nothing to worry about
live life as nothing is going on

Some times to win life over
You just have to don't care.

my secrets are not just secrets
my secrets are mysteries
my mysteries are not just mysteries
my mysteries are adventurers
my adventures are not just adventures
my adventures are magicals

yes am in-love with you
you smile gives me butterflies
your gaze is so stunning
your laughter is so full of love
just thinking of you make me smile
i will write every-single day,
how in-love i am with you
i hope you will get a chance one day,
to read this beautiful lines about you.
you make me want to listen,
to love songs day and night
it's so heart breaking to see you,
walk away from me everyday.

You may never understand me no-matter what language I said it or what language I write it, but am OK with that, because I have learned to deal with it and accept it.

walked over thorns
and somehow made it, but with markings of left scars
a voice told me i wouldn't make it, and for longer than a second
i gave it serious thought
it consumed me, day after day, night after night
with every thorn i stepped on, it numbed a nerve in body
but even with numb nerves, i could still feel everything
it came in form of thoughts, people, and more i can't list or name
it made me question everyday, not in a sensible way
convinced me many things undeserving of trust
every step made my stomach coil, but without my own permission
i kept going, because i felt a promise
the world seemed upside down, every breath felt stolen
every smile felt wrong, waking up became a chore
sometimes time felt stuck, other times it felt out of proportion
only the hard questions with no answers circled the mind non stop
that promise came, i don't know who made it
i call it promise because it came, and i am living it now

oh no this is love poem
oh no this too private
oh no this depressing
oh no this is my enemy's
oh no this is too judgmental
oh no this is embarrassing
oh no this does not make sense
oh no this is about my break
i don't know which one
i have lots of them
i just don't know which one to show you
may be if you wait till tomorrow
then i might have something by then for you.

just a hug from you
do you know you are drowning in my mind
let me see your smile forever at least if i can't be with you
i wonder what's the barrier between us
did i set that wall between us or did you?
one of us must be responsible
but lets take down the wall together
or maybe i should just take the risk  alone
you got my mind worked up everyday
even on the days i don't have exams
lets let the love flow between us
i know now that i truly love you
the day you enter my heart you never left
who is being prideful?
am not sure.

in this world we are given all kind of different reasons to live up to
we are taught many different things, facts, lesson to the point where we don't know which, or what to learn and believe
we are judged at an early age
that we learn and begin to judge too soon too early
when no one worries about us
we start to worry too much about ourselves instead of others
after out repetitive mistakes and failures
we start to question our knowledge, experiences, learning and wisdom
when life starts to become too difficult to live each day after another
we start to learn that life is a big one puzzle that can't be solved in aday
every day becomes a new day to learn and
we start notice our daily life lessons that go by everyday
some times our lessons repeat themselves over and over
until we catch a glimpse of them.

some times i convince myself that my dreams about you are fading but the deadly truth shows up the following morning. i can some times wake up in the middle of the nights just to spare you some thoughts in my mind and some space in my heart, but when morning comes again i force myself to live in a denial just so i could get through the delight when my eyes are open. my nights were my only hope to escape, but then occasionally you started to flood my mind. i have learned to convince myself that i cold not be the only one this wide wild world, so i try to stay strong. i have fallen again and again for you and it hurts you have never considered catching me once. like you have started a story for me but you don't want to be part of the story.

i am a girl who pull doors
when it clearly says pull
i am a girl who make noise
when i've been scolded over and over
but you may not know
what's hidden inside
because when you ask
i'd say............

                                                                                  by; May

i swear am sorry for falling in-love with you
i didn't intend to.

sometimes it's at dawn
other times it's in the daylight
that my heart will without permission search
and to the God i know i pray for Him to stop my heart

i thought i will be ok
but only for a while was i
but now am clearly not
every time i draw out you smile
it made me realize i would never
draw out anyone's smile perfectly as yours
i go to bed every night avoiding
the deadly truth of me being in-love with you
it's so heart breaking to know
that there's something so call one-side love
it makes no sense that one person
has to hold those feelings that bangs
around inside a soul because there's no place for them
it's so painful to carry those feelings as long as they stay
one side love......where a person wants
to give away those feelings for free
yet no one wants to accept them
i always find something to like about you even in your walk
is it true you never even for once thought of me
even i try to move on over and over
but yet you are still the most handsome of all
you are the reason why i listen to love songs all night
i find beauty in your eyes, your voice
just like when a person is in love
i find no flaws in you at all
i still find it hard to believe
that the so called one-side love really exist
do you by any chance love me secretly?
do you by any chance have a secret picture of me?
only if you could put my flaws behind
we could have been the love birds now.

as i get closer to you, i understand you more
you make me smile a bit more everyday
you start to learn the song of my heart
as i learn the song of your heart
our laughter today is louder than yesterday's
our distance is closer than yesterday's
today we spend more time than yesterday's
life become beautiful everyday because of your presents
it takes forever or life time to find a friend like you
but it took me better than a minute to find you
i wonder if our friendship is valuable to you as it is to me

we can sometimes be traumatized by something we don't know or understand. life.

It's exhausting
Thinking of that one person day and night
it's more exhausting trying to figure out if they are also thinking of you.
It's wonderful the thought of them gives you a smile
but it's depressing when you can't own their smile.

When you deeply fall in love as time goes
You try to shut your eyes , but your heart stills remains open
Am drowned in the fantasy of love
but I can't have the reality of love .
let my heart fall asleep if I can't have this love.

Life can not be all happy
Life can not be all sad
Have hope and strongly
Carry on each day with faith

The cold never bothered me anyways
So little did I know
All my downs
All my ups
I promise
To never
Involve
You

I will forget to remember that i once loved you.

"To be or not to be, that is the question". Shake spear