It started in the burning starlight
There was nothing in me. I was new and everything was naked.
Memories carry with them the heavy weight of another dimension.
Manipulate
He put the tape over her mouth. And I shouted mom's name. “mom”
My lips go dark. Silver and stuck. My face is small. Only one piece of tape for nose and mouth.
Manipulate
Every window bursts open and the anger creeps in.
Little brown eyes go black. My body falls and the room siezes. Each frame of the shot vibrating, camera lens cracks and breaks.
My eyes are new, in a big brown body, with strong arms and fast feet.
MANIPULATE
fist for fist. Tape peeled back by revenge. And nothing sleeps right.
Somewhere else there are stars and you don't have to live
Could I be so naive...memories slipping through my fingers like pebbles. Through my tired, fading fingers.
Destroy
I feel breath. Whispers remind you that you cant be persuaded. Hands remind you that you can't fight back.
His lips making shapes in the dark, undoing buttons on child sized jeans.
Destroy
Overzealous heroes charge in and their fists build walls of bruises around would be abusers.
Maybe they save others...maybe overzealous heroes burn it all away.
DESTROY
And then no one gets hurt. Because nothing exists when it's ashes and bone.
But who am I if I believe memories can disappear…
If I refuse to accept the way they lurk in the shadows of my skull.
If I refuse to acknowledge them they grow.
Sunswept, copper sky. The moon sits waiting at the edge of the horizon
There he is. Big brown body like nothing id ever hoped.
Moving in and they can't see.
Repair
I feel comfort. Longing for that in my own skin.
I feel safe. Longing for that in my self.
Repair
Parents stinging child. Words biting the neck.
Poison lingering in veins. In memories.
REPAIR
But it's okay. He says he's been here before. Savior of the nightmares, i know him.
I sit in the backseat alone, waiting for the conversation to end. English to Spanish. My weight. I'm too big for someone so little.
He rubs my head and says it doesn't matter.
The hand is light and rough. Thick. Familiar and strange.
How could I become him...how could I be so incomplete.
It ended with the scorching moonlight