"lonlieness" poems
when you are a loner the worlds a bitter place
with a life lonlieness the world is hard to face
you live in the shadows of a darkened mind
reality of life you have left behind.
nothing seems the same as the world outside
deep in to depression you begin to slide
lock yourself away in your lonely space
life when your a loner is such a lonely place
Sep 30, 2014
Sep 30, 2014 at 12:36 PM UTC
I am dirt,
I like to bury plastic
and broken glass inside of me.
How do you get rid of a body?
you bury it.
How do you keep treasure safe?
you bury it.
How do you plant a garden?
you bury it.
How do you express your emotions?
you bury it.
..right?
You can bury a lot of things
so why can't you bury those?
My soil is no longer plentiful
all my sprouted plants have died
the grass is thick weeded fuel for fire
because I like to bury
the worst kind of things
inside myself.
I must remember,
that it simply will not do,
it might seem otherwise
but it's true,
you can't bury everything.
(Not without repercussions)
I must remember,
that I cannot bury my fear
bury my lonlieness
bury my depression
anxiety
anger
longing
and heartache
under food.
My feelings have been hurt
but if I bury it under
some nachos
I won't have to look at it.
I'm not as pretty as the rest
but it's okay,
I'll bury it under a mound
of cinnamonroll frosting
a burrito
a smoothie
a banana
It's okay,
I know how to make myself feel better
my body knows what to do
when it is in peril
to survive
to thrive
I must bury the bad things
through satisfying my tongue.
I must remember, though,
these things cannot be burried
under a buffet
cannot cower behind Ben and Jerry
no not even the fruits of the land
can gain me enough weight
to forever keep these feelings bound.
I must remeber that the only way
to survive the feelings,
is to expel them.
How do you get rid of an old blanket?
throw it out.
How do you toss a moldy peach?
throw it out.
How do you get rid of the emotion-fueled eating?
throw it out.
Throw it out I say
Rather
Throw it up
expel it
get it out
It's burried deep
so I must throw away all that's inside
in hopes maybe these feelings will be cured
throw it out
throw it up
you can throw out a lot of things,
so why can't I throw out this?
I can't burry these trials
so I must briefly drown
and send them down the drain,
that's the only way to feel better
that's the only way to get through this
the only way my body knows how to survive
and thrive
don't bury it!
throw it out I say
throw it out
rather,
throw it up.
Jan 17, 2015
Jan 17, 2015 at 3:39 PM UTC
I remember
how I begged the friends to come to my party
at the age of 21
how I faked my smile in the pictures,
how I feigned joy
to cover up my deep pain ,
I remember my cold birthday
at the age of six
watching television
without any heat,
as the mice crawled near my feet
I remember the burning
the lonlieness
the longing
of wanting
companionship
some love.
Looking back
I chased all my friends
many of them weren't so enthusiastic at times.
I did this my whole life
I didn't know,
that I didn't need to starve
to be fed.
I am still learning,
the other day someone complimented me,
I was literally shocked,
because it has happened so rarely to me,
that I felt so much joy and love in my heart.
that kind people exist,
and than I cried about that deeply inside ,
about this notion this fact.
At my past birthday
the" friends " that I had there,
kind of ignored me
went off to smoke,
and I had to beg them to take my pictures.
I just feel so much disgust
in my heart and soul.
When I saw her the other day,
all I wanted to do was spit in her face
and yell "FK You Btch ,"
you didn't deserve even
one ounce of my fking presence.
Instead all I did was glare deeply at her
and she the cowardess that she is ,
wouldn't even look at me
or ever apologize.
Now I may be alone
but I am choosing myself!
My people My places
And My life .
I am choosing
I get to have Choice.
Sep 14, 2023
Sep 14, 2023 at 5:58 PM UTC
Those long, thin, intertwining threads of loneliness
Twisting, turning, expanding
Slowly enveloping the free spaces in ones heart
From where joy and happiness spring.
Floods of feelings stopped and dammed
By that wall causing separation of self
From those you want to embrace, feel, love
Hold, spend time with, grow with
Be one with.
You are trapped into thinking
That darkness is a safe place to be
So you sit there and watch the world go by.
Missed chances, missed people, missed life.
This is the product of loneliness.
As you come to realize this,
Some can cast off the dark cloak.
For many this is as casting bread upon the water
Their loneliness grows seven fold
Taking them deeper in the trap.
It is one thing that expands, thrives
Feeds on the dark.
For that is where you sit in loneliness.
It is insidious.
So I’ll sit here in the dark
Remembering the happiness
Trying to find the will and strength
To claw myself out of the darkness
And back to the light
To once again gamble on the outside world.
Dan Gray
Apr 20, 2013
Apr 20, 2013 at 7:05 PM UTC
so many homeless people in the world day
reality of life seems so far away.
living day by day living in despair
sleeping where they can sleeping anywhere
with a cardboard box made in to a bed
lonlieness and sorrow going through there head
all they need is someone to tell there troubles too
someone who will listen and tell them what to do
so many homeless people in the world today
maybe with some help theres somewhere
they can stay
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 7:30 AM UTC
Now, as I look upon this empty room
I am alone, but not quite lonely.
Voices carry on, with no face.
Footsteps with no person.
What I have realized is.
There is no one left.
Everyone's gone.
I'm alone.
Again.
But.
They're here.
The room, full.
Joyous laughs ring.
Yet, I'll still wait here.
It's not terribly strange.
Although not alone, lonely.
Nobody here to help me through.
What a strange feeling lonlieness is.
I may become completely secluded.
Wondering what may become of me.
Fighting for even a fresh breath.
It's what I always wanted.
Once again, here I am.
All alone at last.
I am happy.
All alone?
Until.
Wait.
No air.
Tiny space.
You're nearly gone.
What is happening?
Merely the side affects.
Don't worry, you'll be fine.
Unless you give them control.
Them you may ask? Don't be silly.
There are voices inside of your head.
Reminding you how pathetic you are.
Always twisting up your insides.
You can try to ignore them.
Your only companions.
They never leave you.
You believe them.
Comforted.
Someone.
Cares.
Enough.
To even talk.
To you anymore.
That is not how it ends.
Oh, well, maybe it could be.
There will always be loneliness.
Not everyone will fight for their soul.
Then, the lonlieness will attack again.
Jun 1, 2015
Jun 1, 2015 at 1:52 AM UTC
so many homeless people in the world day
reality of life seems so far away.
living day by day living in despair
sleeping where they can sleeping anywhere
with a cardboard box made in to a bed
lonlieness and sorrow going through there head
all they need is someone to tell there troubles too
someone who will listen and tell them what to do
so many homeless people in the world today
maybe with some help theres somewhere
they can stay
Jun 10, 2014
Jun 10, 2014 at 9:09 AM UTC
christmas for the homeless is just another day
just a day of lonlieness no where they can stay
living in a doorway in the cold and snow
in cardbox no where they can go.
just another day as lonely as can be
no christmas decorations or a christmas tree
no presents they can open on a christmas day
happiness and joy seems so far away.
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 12:24 PM UTC
its like a plague,
it spreads through my body
first, my head,
first it crawls into my skull, causing its poison to clip in the cracks
and then the poison seeps into my brain, making me feel like everyone hates me
it kills my nerves,making my emotions go away
then to my chest
it travels down my spine and around my ribs, crushing my ability to breathe
and it clogs my arteries, getting closer to the source
then, it finally gets to my heart, breaking it instantly
at this point, i am to broken to utter anything, i stay silent like a winters night
from there, it goes down
it kills off my liver, making me scream ****** ******
it makes my kidneys shrivel, making me fall
stays inside the intestines, making me hurl and *** my pants
i am nearly dying, but it still goes on
its poison is to much, and i die
its the day that the loneliness poison finally killed me
at least i won't be lonely in hell
Aug 28, 2013
Aug 28, 2013 at 10:06 PM UTC
you want me to give you my heart?
Your crazy
My minds already been made up long before I knew why
Love is just infatuation
For now
Letting someone ****** your life
Twist your emotions
How is this sweet?
I've seen these poor people
Stop at nothing for love
And when it all ends
They're broken
Shattered
I'm terrified
But deep down I long
I long for that one person to complete this mess
Though I refuse to love
I can still dream
Still wish
That I could be that one
For some reason I will not can not
Let a person take me over
Does this mean I'm doomed
An eternity of lonlieness
Although I have my chums
They all have they're "loves"
And I have my cats.
I am sort of kind of content
Jul 18, 2013
Jul 18, 2013 at 11:55 AM UTC
people they get lonley climb in to a shell
face the day alone in there living hell
hide themself away from the human race
living in the gloom of there lonely place
such a shame to see people in this way
there are such a lot do this everyday
just a life of lonlieness is all they ever see
locked up in there cell that dosent have a key
Sep 5, 2016
Sep 5, 2016 at 10:24 AM UTC
i wake up every morning longing for more sleep
i look at the clock
im already behind schedule
i leave my my room to see my family
my biggest bullies
i go through the motions of getting ready for the day
i look in the mirror and im unsatisfied with what i see
but i feel hopeless about being able to change it
i go through my day experiencing small bits of joy
but mainly bordem, lonlieness, and unluckieness
i get home on whatever time depending on the day
and i go to my room
then i see and hear you
through my laptop and tablet
and i realize its not so bad
thankyou for being my source of joy
i love you liam james payne
Apr 21, 2014
Apr 21, 2014 at 4:01 PM UTC
im rotting within myself
im the living definition of a cavity
bleached and beautiful on the outside
but rotting in black sut on the inside
i did not take my medicine today
therefor i am anxious
overly anxious
my nerves are telling me something atrocious is about to happen
but it simply is not
im trembling
no one can help me
no one can soothe me
my phone was gone half of my day
my safety blanket
was gone
that means i was gone with it
i've been gone
im so gone
let these meds flow
i tried to text you for comfort
but you could give a **** less about me
you were drunk
while i was pouring myself out to you
you joked around
another reminder that i have no one
lonlieness poked me at my every pressure point
im irked
scared
restless
it sickens me that i need you in my breaking points, i need you in my 2 am thoughts
i need you to calm me
but all you cared about was the ***
you didnt care about me in my breaking points
you dont care about my thoughts at 2 am
its okay
if i were you i wouldnt care either
im too easy
please mercy me
let me fall out of myself
for the sake of myself
Oct 25, 2015
Oct 25, 2015 at 2:30 PM UTC
Written by Diana Garcia
Sweet words went in one ear and out the other. My poor unfortunate lover.
How could he know his embraces were not like yours.
How could he know that my heart became so coarse.
Lonlieness came, my void deepened.
My love for you resurfaced but the envy awakened.
I stood by, hoping, wishing for a glance in my direction.
Little did I know, you and her were just a miserable misconception.
My heart raced, I thought maybe I'll faint when our eyes met and your eyes glistened
We clearly are not through
This whole time, it was always you.
Oct 27, 2017
Oct 27, 2017 at 4:51 PM UTC
Mixed emotions get the better of you.
Your head spins round and round trying to figure it out but you can't.
You feel a sense of lonlieness,
Like no ones their for you...
You want to run, but don't know your destination.
You want to hide, but don't know where.
You want to do something, but don't know what.
Your gut is telling you no, but your heart is saying yes.
Listen to your gut, because if your not sure your not sure.
B.m.P
Aug 9, 2014
Aug 9, 2014 at 12:35 AM UTC
when a heart is broken it brings you despair
when the one you love is no longer there
everything you had seems so far away
all you feel is emptiness every single day.
time will heal the hurt and your lonlieness
help your heart to mend take away the stress
then you can start a new find your heart once more
learn to love again as you did before
Aug 30, 2016
Aug 30, 2016 at 4:05 PM UTC
The Things I Think About
Most Souls Dont Know
How To Think It Out
I Believe In Anything
And Right Now Im Bleeding Out
My Twin Soul Flames
Is On Her Way
I Need Her Now
Rain Storms Just Rains More
Im See A House
In Side Its DRY As Ice
Pain From Eyes Just Burn The Ground
Deathly Alone
No Needed Explenation
All That My Family Say Is Not Okay
I ******* Take It
Swallow My Spit
Transmute All Sensations
My Heart Going To Stop
So I Begin My Meditation
Theres A Demon Screaming
An Angel Singing
The Walls Are Shaking
I Built Em With My Blood
Its So Strong
They Will Hold On
And With Stand Thier Placemnet
I Am So Strong
I Will Not Yell
I Will Not Speak
I Will Just Breathe
I Will Not Fail
Heal My Body With Angelic Energy
Purify My Consiousnnees
Sub Consious Mantras My Remedy
Im More Ready Then Ill Ever Be
Im Alright I Am The Light At Night
Remember Me
If Tonight I Take This Knife For Stake
And Slice My Throat And Face
Because I Could Not Breathe
I Love My Slef More Than Any Body Could Give To Me
I Am A Miracle
Of Living Dream
That Will Never Die
Even When I Leave Earth
Spread These Silver Wings
And Bodies Cry
I Am Bleeding Opera
I Oughta Try
Tell My Mother
That Shes The Reason For My Lonlieness
And Readyness To Die
I Just Wanted To Spend Tine
The Past Really ****** Up Your Mind
I Would Go Back And Change A Things EXcpept
Our Vibe
Cos Our Connection Died
And Its Dark At Sometimes
I now Know My Soul Better That I Know My Mom
Well I Never Knew Her
And It Feels So Wrong
Mom I Say This Strong
Im Letting Go For Ever
I Was The Only One Holding The Rope
As I Play These Notes
Just Know You I Dont Perceive Right Or Wrong
I See Through The Midst
There Is No More Holding On
Its So Cold With Out Coat
I Will Not Pass Over Without A Soul
I Just Might Take Flight Tonight
For Ever IM Bleeding Hope
Who Ever Is Reading This Note
When Somebody Speaks
Be Judement Free
And Look Deep Into Thier Soul
People Scream And No One Knows
I Am Raven
And A Dove
Suffocating Stuck By Crows
Its A Metaphor
Only The Deepest Souls
And Poets Know
No Suicide Note
I Didnt Want To Die
It Was Time For Me To Go
Apr 16, 2016
Apr 16, 2016 at 9:32 PM UTC
everydays a struggle when there is despair
when you need someone and no one is there
no one you can turn to to tell your troubles to
just a world of lonlieness in it only you
everything seems grey life seems such a mess
mind is in a turmoil nothing but distress
everything is a struggle when your in despair
no there beside you on one there to care
Apr 17, 2014
Apr 17, 2014 at 9:13 AM UTC
people they get lonely but they just dont say
they keep it all locked up and hide it out the way
living with despair with no one there to care
no one they can turn to with troubles they can share
just a life of lonlieness that no one else can see
trapped in a mind of sadness that needs some company
Feb 2, 2014
Feb 2, 2014 at 10:11 AM UTC
life it has a lonely road that lonely people take
and there lonely life each of them will make
living in there world of darkness an despair
living in there solitude with no one there to care.
lock there self away from the world outside
living in the shadows somewhere they can hide.
just a lonely road that never seems to end
just a life of sadness at each and every bend.
if only we could only help them take a different view
then the road to lonlieness was something they once knew
Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 9:31 AM UTC
Heavy burdens on my mind
Are is like holding up the ocean floor,
I'm fragile like glass.
Not only am I cracking at the seems,
but I'm starting to leak...
Every person I push away
is one less to seal the tears,
the patches are never a good enough job.
Soon I'll be broken and everything will be layed out for all to see.
I can't contain the pressure
of this cold,
dark,
lonlieness any longer...
Jul 8, 2017
Jul 8, 2017 at 8:40 PM UTC
There is a space by my side.
Do you see it?
Once it laughed,
when all was right.
But with the changing tide
I was gone and it left:
life swept aside.
A rip where once was
full, now all is null.
But now I find it's lack
a fine companion.
I laugh and the silence
eats it
I speak and the words
fall flat
I cry and the lonlieness
engulfs.
There is a space by my side.
Do you see it?
Do you see it?
Do you see me?
The silence is all the response I need.
Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 1:43 PM UTC
living in a box a shop front for a home
no where i can go just walk about and roam
living like a caveman out there in the wild
all i seem to be is someones long lost child.
i feel so alone when night begins to fall
as i lay my head against a concrete wall
if only i had stayed where im supposed to be.
lonlieness despair i would never see.
Oct 9, 2014
Oct 9, 2014 at 5:01 AM UTC