Each cut...is a message.
But most can't Decipher
They don't understand the constant panic
The fear of life and death
The pain of smiling when you want to cry
The feeling of self Hatred and being unworthy.
Useless. A waste of space. Not belonging

They only see what you show them
Never trying to get a better look at the picture painted Before their eyes
Eve. If they knew they'd just ignore it.
Like everyone else do.

Each cut is a symbol
Every scratch is a mark
All my bruises are reminders

I hate to see them.
Clear on my skin
Hidden like the emotions
Deep with in

I drown in my own regrets
Tasting every bit of sorrow
Talking with doubt everyday
Feeling numb
But caged in by A burning fire of rage

I can't explain it
I don't want to say
To communicate this...with someone other than me
I'd rather die

But I don't think you understand yet...
The hidden picture
All behind the scenes

Maybe look harder....
For the real me

You say I'm wrong
but you know I'm right
which is why we always fight.

I try to be the best I can
but you just want the attention of a man
not the love or care I give

threatening to take my life
when its already yours
I want to make you happy

you just want the money
you don't care
I don't understand...
I want to love you
but I just can't

No matter what I do
it's never enough
I'll do want you to want

just please accept my love
I'll do anything for you
as long as your mine

On your bed
you lay on your back
wrapped up in your favorite cover
Your lamp is on
bringing light to your room
Not too dark but not too bright
a book in hand
One you seem to enjoy
You carefully read over most of the words
sometimes going too fast and restarting the page
You may laugh at what they say
Or cry from the loss of a character
maybe even believe you're in the story yourself
With the peace and quiet of the world around you
It's easy to get lost in your book
Page after page
You get eager to know what happens next
not getting tried of the action, adventure, or romance
All of it keeping you on edge
You read until your eyes wake
and the sun begins to rise
not realizing how you lost time
But all is well
it was worth it
in the end
You finish the book
and the story ends
Now you seek out another
just for the adrenaline
of a new world
What will you read next...

Day into night
The moon always in the sky
at anytime Day or Night
As the Sunsets
it's hidden behind the moon
giving it a dim glow
star shows for miles and miles
does it ever end?
most people are sleep
while some stay awake
Day into Night
it's all the same
it's not complete darkness
the moon is just not there
Day into Night
but nothing is here
Day into night
The moon always in the sky
at anytime Day or Night
As the Sunsets
it's hidden behind the moon
giving it a dim glow
star shows for miles and miles
does it ever end?
most people are sleep
while some stay awake
Day into Night
it's all the same
it's not complete darkness
the moon is just not there
Day into Night
but nothing is here

Father is my death,
life is my mother.
Pain is my sister
fear is my brother.
Anger is my earth
while depression is my ocean
Anxiety is my air
My broken heart is the ground
And my lost soul is the sky
and when it rains i cry
Forrest fires of rage
Thunder storms of hate
The shadow covering more the half of the ground
Evil intentions for me....
Thought of suicide
Cuts on my wrist
Harming each tree in my mind
Hurting the plant every time i bled
Like a poison to my head
Blocking out the light
letting all plant life die
refusing to replace each seed
Soon letting the rivers run dry
Leaving me thirsty
killing the happiness that once flowed through me
Like striking down animal with a gun.
But it's just me........
Killing my own f**ked up world

A body bigger than anything we've seen before
Wings longer than a bus and wider than a house
Teeth sharp and point like looking in a alligators mouth!

Scales shining like a ruby in the light
A tail swaying so hard it hit most rocks

Leg's that crushes the ground beneath it's feet
Claws to ripped fresh meat

A roar so loud
It pierced the clouds

Elements of all sorts
Fire, Earth, Air Wind, Metal
So much more

A beast with such power
Sure to make you cowered
Only the bravest dare go against it

Sleeping in caves
Protecting the treasure

So will guide you and some will ****
It's all up to their will

Facing a creature so intelligent
It's would cause fear and worry
But also worship and love

We all know the beast i speak of
The dragon! It goes by many names

The thing we all grew to love
A dragon, More like a god from above

A blessing and A Curse
That's the best way to put it
A Dragon i bet you can't wait to see it

To see it in the sky
Flying high over the town

Hearing roars the sound so close yet so far
Wishing to be blessed

We all know what a dragon is capable of
But see we will risk everything just to get near

A dragon
Something we both love and Fear

Addicted to the pills
Taking 'em several times a day
I'm faded on the couch
Staring at ceiling
Trying to figure out why I'm even living
Giving up on life
Suicidal thoughts flowing through my mind
Smoking every day losing the time
Popping another pill or two
Trying to escape reality
Always in love
But people keep hurting me
I tried to survive and fight
But I let the **** and drugs take over my life
now laying on the floor
Foaming out the mouth
Eyes rolled back
All because everything is going south
Depression got the better of me so I turn to the drugs
Writing music and poems
But that wasn't enough
People wouldn't listen
Now look what happened
I'm dying all because no helped heal my sadness
No one bothers to care
always saying "I'm fine"
When really it's all a lie
You look at the cuts on my wrist
Seeing the lines and words curved in
Tears in your eyes
Your now upset because you didn't realize
I was calling out for help
But I got ignored instead
Now my body on the floor
I'm already dead
9-1-1 on the phone
You trying to get me to wake up
eyes all white
My body twitching
I'm getting lost in the darkness
I feel numb, without feelings
I can't feel the sadness
Is this what death is like?
It feels so cold and empty
I don't see a light
Trapped in a void
But I can hear voices from afar
"CLEAR," said the voice
But there was no respond
getting colder by the second
My heart stops beating
And my body stops moving
The last thing I hear is
"I sorry I couldn't help you-"
Tears of a girl falling down her face
I'm sorry baby
I just couldn't take it anymore
I let the pills take me away
Overdosing on the floor
is what was happening anyways
(But at least all the pain will go away)
.................

It sounds strange
But the Ocean is a soup
You have your water
and the salt
Fish for the meat
And seaweed and other plants
You can cook it all up
then boom you have a soup
All your ingredients
in one huge bowl
mixing it to together
adding more spices everyday
So like i said
THE OCEAN IS A SOUP

just know it's free flow

Power of my mind

and I'm letting it go

I wont hold back

on what i think

instead I'll release it

Just like a grenade


My brain explodes

With ideas

I didn't know

i even had

now i share them with the world

and my lads

I write poems from heart and mind

not wasting anytime

i type it quick

Making you think

My thoughts hitting you Hard

just like a whip
My blank mind

suddenly coming to life

Making me write and type

More than ever before

Saying thing i didn't know i wanted to say

Writing things that i never knew was there to be said

Poems

Poems they bring out a different side to me

The poems are the reason

I can still believe in my dreams

I can still see me achieve

because poems made me

poems are me

Like the sky to the earth
WE go perfectly with each other

The rain is my thoughts

While the ground is my voice

The air is my flow

The Fire is my passion

The Spirit is my poems

that's all i need

and then i'm free

I am here
but I'm gone as well.
I exist
but i don't.
I'm alive
But I'm dead.
I am somewhere
But nowhere....
You can not see me
But i can see you-
like a game of Peek-A-Boo
Now you see me
now you don't
I'm by your side
But i disappear
I'm in your arms
But I'm on the floor.
My body is here
But i am not
Here but i'm not at the same time
Where am i?
I don't know-
Because i'm somewhere- meaning nowhere

When you think of hell
You think of the worst of things
when you think of Satan
you think of evil
But what if it's the completely opposite
What if hell is just a place everyone would want to be
But then soon grow tired of,
A place where you get exactly what you want
Slowly draining you of joy
Giving you everything you could imagine
over and over a again
until you realize there's no use for it
What if Satan isn't evil?
What if he just grants your wishes
until you can't bare to ask for anything else
slowly driving you mad
as you repeat it over and over and over again.
What if-
we've had it all wrong
and that hell is just a place that's never boring but never fun either
Hell....what is it truly like?
I hope some of us don't have to find out-

In light there is darkness.
In darkness there is light.
In war there will be peace.
In peace there will be war.
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There is a balance to everything
even if it doesn't seem like there is
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children are given birth to everyday
just like people die every day
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By killing one person
you're be saving thousands
but hurting others as well
___
This is the balance of life
no matter the out come
_____
We humans hunt the animals
and the animals hunt the humans
___
in today's world
it's **** or get killed
____
But why does life have to be this way?
well maybe because some are greedy for power
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I can't tell anymore
but some day i hope it all changes

There is hope
Don't depend on fate
Make your own path
Enjoy your free space
No one can control you
Your making the rules
Now use your power