I need a hero
A hero willing to enter my gruelling darkness searching for my lost soul.

And I'm still not knowing
If when the night falls I become someone else
Or I'm the raw me because I"m alone with myself

- I'm not a good company

i found that i have been
forcing myself to get through my days
as if they were marathons.

running in circles and going no where

Stupid girl and your stupid heart.  Blinded and willing but still filled with lonely nights and lonely beds.  Eclipsed by what could be, only left to be dreaming of something that will never be. Stupid girl and your foolish heart.

This time  
  stay.
when you stay,
  stay still
Still.
Remain.
This time,
  breathe
breathe crystals.
Clear.
melt
into a calming ocean.
  stay still.

This time
  
stay

right here.

I want to cauterize my feelings,
walk on broken glass un-pained,
at least that would stop me from calling out
your name.

rain upon roof,
gentle falls,
creating a cocoon
of humid heat
in which we sit
mesmerized by;
the soft sound of
rain upon roof.