Stuck in this shell.
Like a part of hell
it torments.
But at moments
it's like a calm sea
so empty.
Until a storm comes
and I'm the only one
and it goes back to hell
and I can't escape this shell.

Why did I laugh tonight? No voice will tell:
No God, no Demon of severe response,
Deigns to reply from Heaven or from Hell.
Then to my human heart I turn at once.
Heart! Thou and I are here, sad and alone;
I say, why did I laugh? O mortal pain!
O Darkness! Darkness! ever must I moan,
To question Heaven and Hell and Heart in vain.
Why did I laugh? I know this Being's lease,
My fancy to its utmost blisses spreads;
Yet would I on this very midnight cease,
And the world's gaudy ensigns see in shreds;
Verse, Fame, and Beauty are intense indeed,
But Death intenser—Death is Life's high meed.

Before: "Amor Vincit Omnia"
After: "et ego odi"

Why do these things  happened to me?
Where did I go wrong?

Questions in my life,
where You can only answer .

My family.
My Friends.
The person I love.
My Studies.
My dreams.
My goals.

I did all my best

Where should I put myself?
Do this world have a place for a person like me?

ANSWER ME!

I'm losing hope.
I'm losing everything.
I'm losing my soul.
I'm losing reasons to live.
I'm tried of wearing mask.
I'm tired . I'm tired.

ooooooh !
WHAT SHOULD I DO?

What’s inside of you
Is inside of me
I know where you come from
Why you bleed

How you still laugh
How hard you cry
Why your still here
Why you still try

Don’t give it up
Don’t give it out
Just stop and listen to me now

What’s inside of you
Is inside of me
I know what your feeling
How it’s hard to breathe

What your doing
Who you are
Where your going
And how far

Don’t give up love
Don’t give up faith
Know your purpose and your place

What’s inside of you
Is inside of me
There is hope
And that’s all we need