What is inside?
Something I do not know
Building in my veins
Will it help me grow?

I come across a wall
And moving to the side
I see another obstacle
That I can’t reveal or hide

I turn to my left,
Then right and around
I see my mirrored self
She doesn’t make a sound

Too long she’s been standing
Waiting to take control
And find that ***** girl
That some ******* stole

She is fierce and fantastic
Wanting to explore
Taking any sensation
To become a slutty *****

That ******* didn’t ****** you
I heard myself say
You’re a **** hungry woman
But are you ready to play?

I thought I was prepared
For ******* and the feast
Though I’m scared to show the world
The carefully hidden beast

Pressured stirring mounts
Like an ******* ***** fever
It is time for slutabration
And unhinge to receive her

Am I on repeat?
Offending the offenders?
Racing to wait
Or waiting to race?
Did I see another redo?
Perhaps a pitiful protest
Was it a cry for confidence?
Or a confident cry?

No help for the helpers
And dreams for dreaming
Hopeless haunting
Keep on screaming
Finding out nothing
You did not read
As you lay in bed
Of your own making

I waited for you today
On a bench
Though far away

I thought of words exchanged
Yet none at all
We were estranged

I sang a song of hope
Forgot the words
To help me cope

I remembered a fragrant touch
Of how significant
And oh so much

I spoke alone outside
As I sat on that bench
Trying to hide

Spills out
As I try to
Grab onto

strings, straws
threads

Maintain Balance
ShowNoFear

as

i slowly
disintegrate
inside

I read the in between
A font of your choosing
To scour and glean
What I might be losing

You shouted the meanings
In a few blasts
I wanted more teasing
Would you make it last?

You said I am greedy
But so are you
And we both are needy
For the ******* too

I visited my hallway today
Anger was boiling inside
I slammed open the door
And yelled for all
“Get the **** out”
They scrambled left and right
Some disappeared
In the back
Misting away
One tried to beg
To stay inside
Another was cocky
Thought he would stay
But I screamed again
For all to leave
So I could finally have peace
From the yahoos
In my head

My feet tread endlessly
Searching for the truthful path
Needing somewhere to obtain peace
Finding a direction

These shoes are confining
There is no comfort until removal
But my footprints seem obvious
And I think I’m lost

I yearn for help
Others that might boost my endurance
There must be a path that matches mine
Prints that would hide my own

Turning, twisting my toes along
Some agile and then slow swaggering
Take me to directionless ends
Could my turn be now?

My soles are weary
I trek along
Wanting quiet oblivion
My heels will rest soon

These steps only know the next one
Only one moment to the next
Never a direct line
Never a distinct direction

Yet I feel strength in my stride again
Taking a step, a turn, a twist of my own
Tomorrow is today
The journey always beginning

Because I moved

For faces and waists
Abs and butts
And whatever else you want
enhanced or cut

Skew it and filter it
and cook it for a while
Any way you want,
you will be in style!!

With a background or not
Bring on four more
Packed muscles for you
So you won’t be a bore?

It’s a new dawn
And even if it’s not,
You can make it so
With push of a dot.

Good luck to you all
For there are fish in the sea
Don’t know if they’re cats
But probably

I wasn’t even the same
Not in shape or size
I was different
In color and my thighs

I wasn’t similar to her
And definitely not them
I was an anomaly
A flawed and broken gem

I wasn’t that important
Or essential to the game
I was just the sidecar
So why treat me the same?

too much Silence
Cages me in
absent Sound
is like a blaring horn
which obscures
that voice i want
in my h(ear)t
those wanton words
that Choose me
to let Go

I have a scream building inside
I want to release it
I am scared
I am anxious for the fallout

It’s waiting to come out
It’s tangible and deep
It rolls on the back of my throat
It’s ready for removal
It’s coupled with a sardonic laugh

It doesn’t have any parameters
It’s has no boundaries
It’s arrival will be sudden
It’s removal, a cacophony of noise
It’s a burden of pressure

I need it to escape
I have no outlet
I am frustration personified
I am a scream

.      Where did your comfort light?
       Within your grass? *******


This is what happens when you have a long drive and some good lines come into your head. Then you do that voice to text thing because, hey you are driving!

But **** that voice to text **** can’t hear your words correctly because.... loud car. Then you are taking a sip of your tea but it spills and you get some cussing.

Like the tide
flow and Cycle
full and Inviting
yet shrinking to Escape
Leaving the flotsam
wondering If ...
will It Entice?
beckon a traveler
to outstretch a Hand
Lingering trails
onto the sands
Hearing a Lullaby
In the smashing surf
It seeks Attention
through It’s Harmony
Asking for the tie
a thread of Conjoining
the tide to the moon
to the shore
and the Land
Returning
the Ebb and flow

What are you thinking?
Nobody really wants you
It’s a quick **** or pic ****
Great ****… maybe ***
Look look lookie loo
And then…
Why would they really want a

Tired, single mom
Who is plain and overweight
Someone who is too much
And lacking at the same time

They will be your friend
You make a great friend
Loyal and honest—wait
Too honest
Pull back

You make a great
acquaintance sidekick/wing person

They will pass the time with you
and you will somehow get them laid
by that hot skinnier one over on the yonder

If you asked
I would say yes
Because
You’ve never asked
And if you told me
I would do it
Because you never have
If you searched
You would find me
But you didn’t look

This pain
Is good
Helps you remember
That you are alive
Driving out the numb
Or those times
You feel you deserve
That pain
It is the only emotion
That is possible

In physicality
Simple sensation
Powerful
Make me feel
Overwhelm me
Until I am numb
Zoned into exhaustion
Turn off my mind
No complications
Unmake me
Whole again

My mind all day
Focused and clear
Then as I leave
I feel a slight jeer

It edges its way in
This splinter inside
Ruminating
It switches the tide

Then another thread adds
To the knotted mess
I am so very tired
And I feel I’m less

I played to the second
The beats as before
Why another time
My emotions are more

I sigh with desire
A night of soul rest
The words left me yearning
For some kind of best

Enter in my hallway
Intention is your key
Show attention to your ward
Or they’ll turn and flee

Whisper to me **** words
And take me in your arms
Don’t care about the place
Woo me with some charms

Another day we’ll say hello
Tomorrow may be goodbye
But I’ll be at your behest
If only you would try

I tried
I tried with you
I was a mess but I tried
I gave you a piece of me and
I tried to give you more
I tried to make it work
I tried for you
I tried for us
I tried

I’m frozen
With words at my feet
And a crushed heart

I’m still
With your nightly goodbyes
And good morning hellos

I’m waiting
With impatient dreams
And a racing mind

I’m ready
With a willing spirit
And a conquering soul

Where does this desire belong?
Carnality of Casual
Visual or Charitable
Is there a long-term Resilience
or just an entertainment
Awaiting Constancy
Itching to disturb
The gentle balance
Yet the temptation is Resisted
Holding back while
Craving the Reveal
hesitations on each side
solitude continues
distance remains
placation or Trust
All that is Required
is More, HA!

I see too much
Tiny details into the fray
It frightens
Not me, but you
And what I view
Beyond your screen
Some hypnotic wall
Your foggy countenance
Deceives the herd
As they follow the piper
Though I lingered
On the periphery
Some visions were concealed
By your obscurity
Unveiling becomes obsession
Then I regret
For now
I see too much

Judgement
Curiosity
Filling plans
Making demands
Trying for more
Trolling around
Open up
Vulnerable
Hoping
Is this dreaming
Moving on
Come around
Touching fire
Reaching desire
Words devastate
Investigate
Build up
Then ignore
Second chance
First impression
Mistaken love
Crushing connection
Which way to run
Today is done

Chasing games
Caught or Found
if nothing once
try twice again
begging
Whining
Crying or sighing
jumping hoops
another loop
around the block
Wait
hurry up
and Wait
For numbing Crumbs
satiated For seconds
ignoring For days
ticking Clock
time bomb
Worth it
or not
decisions
incisions
Cut losses
and out
assumptions made
have you paid
your lesson learned

Trickling echoes
Down that hallway of mine
Did you whisper my name?
Or was it goodbye?
I stood by your room
Beckoning you to come out
But you were distracted
By some kind of doubt
As I wrote out a note
And slipped it inside
I wonder, will you read
Or cast it aside
Then silence was my answer
For this I did find
Because you were afraid
Of your own little mind

You speak to me
As a stranger now
Someone who you don’t know
A person you just met

And I see you differently
A foreign being
You ricochet off my circle
There is zero feeling
when I see your face
But your voice
It still makes me cringe
Hearing it puts me on alert

Recalling—
Condescension that you used
Words like blades in my back
Slicing into my soul

Remembering—
But your capacity to *******
is no longer there

Ironic laughter fills my mind
As I watch you drift by
Like another stranger
Wandering on the street

When you already see
And know how it goes
**** a duck
And there she blows

Up and down
And all around
Look at them
Don’t make a sound

Another day
Same old ****
I shake my head
Again in the pit

Get the **** out
I say to myself
But I tripped inside
Go help yourself

*******
Is all I want to say
Here’s your two cents
And have a good day!

Wasted time
And curfews
On the march
To see another
Horizon
Counting on
Starships or suns
Waiting to fall
Like a ticking
Explosion
And I know
The next day
Will bring
Silence

I can’t think about the **** ton of yesterdays
Or the half baked tomorrows
If I dwell on the yesteryears
Then I miss the meanwhiles
Contentment to current events
Leads to a joyous jaunt
Finding the lining is what it’s about
The it of the life journey
You know, the one we are all on

I ...
Going from this haze
Not knowing who
I am
Racing myself into
Obvious mistakes
But I can’t
Move
Away

You are Living Life of
The Home Town Buffet
keeping me on this Tether
but so Far Away

do You know
what You Want/Need
I would give You
Everything and my Creed

just ask Me or Tell
what You Feel/Think
please give Me something
before I shrink

so, Pay Attention
or Reach Out
I’m Tired of The Chase
All I have is Doubt

or just let Me go
And Change/Cut those Threads
I am barely Hanging On
to things that You said

or is it Nonsense
do I need to move on
I am Hungry/Thirsty
would You notice Me Gone

Yeah yeah I see it now
Your cold embrace
And sweat on the brow

Sure sure it might have been
The sleepless night
Full of wicked sin

Blah blah was your last line
Into a wasteland
And here’s my sign

simple as
salt
added for
flavor
but complex
sodium
or halite
growing to
cubes
in those boxes
connecting
to each other
compounding
small bonds
to larger
formations
give pillars
or a pinch
maybe dash
too much
destroy
too little
bland
just right
delight