i’m crashing Today
Yesterday
The Day Before
just tired
of the same things
that I basically do to Myself
i let people walk all over me
and i’m searching
for Something that doesn’t exist
so i’m stuck
in this Humdinger
of a Menagerie
of Nothing

As I write
Streams down my face
A silent cleansing
Of thoughts
Times and roles
I can’t do it
I want to scream
Rage and …
**** my anxiety
Like a tsunami
Drowning my sanity
I hold on
To some electron
Of hope
Waiting for it
To purge out
This exasperating
Existence

I pretend it’s you
little message
Was for me
That tiny splash
The hearts and trees
A couple of teases
Beneficial friend
Or a ship with trails
But really
It’s just a fake hang up
Cuz if you did
You would

Remember our Tom Petty bonding?
Out back as the sun went down
You told me how you met him once
Nerding out over music
I saw the past and future
Mirrored in our eyes
And I was reminded that

Most things I worry about, never happen anyway

Until they do

Maybe I don’t know what it
looks like
feels like
Perhaps it’s more of a
Jingle
That laughs in your face
From the audacity
Could be
it’s a Knife Stroke
That sears into your soul
Right into death