A cruel heart will never win
Yet the human mind seems blank
As the light inside of the soul dims
And the devil starts to sing
You will never see the heavens of god
You will always be a toxic drop
For I will always feed on your heart’s sins
While you remain paper thin

A gazing mind
So lost in time
Shines at night
Drifts off sight
At rays of light

Ground shaking beneath me
Time crumbles in my hand
The speed of light strikes
And slows my list of chance
I know I am young
The path is way ahead
But there is so much to be done
My dreams, career, and life
Depend on me right now
Yet my “living in the moment”
Is long gone somehow
What am is supposed to do?
Should I have fun and live?
Find a person to spend my time with?
Building a plan for when I quit ?

At the age of 5 you were my superhero
A Superman with powerful strength
At the age of 12 you were my idol
A man with the unexpected best
At the age of 16 you were a bother
I considered myself the unheard victim
At the age of 18 you were my friend
You filled me with advice and wisdom
At the age of 20 you were my angel
You put all of my sorrows to an end
At the age of 23 you were my dad
That is not a superhero but a king

Alone in a dark room
I stare up at my fairy lights
Daydreaming about you
In those countless nights
I wonder if you think about me too
As my heart ignites
At the thought of loving you

Black and white
Glitter falls
As the angels drop
From the sky above
Glow and rise
Echo calls
Through the colored wind
Clouds start to mend

I want to scream at the world
I want to shut all doors
I want to be left alone
I want to break the rules
I want to shatter the glass
I want to yell at my wounds
I want to erase my past

Sun goes down
Stars shine bright
Galaxies spread
Through the night

Hold my hand
Bring me close
Music starts
Playing the notes

As we dance
Under the moon
Floating in space
Gently in June

Clouds and hues
Cover our feet
Hearts listen
To the beat

Calmness builds up
Eyes are close
Glowing ember
Starts to grow

Lost in time
You are the one
Said the three words
That I said to none

A small romantic gesture
Is all you need

To block out the world
And watch people leave

Listening to the hollow whispers
And that one song that makes you blush

You feel the beating drums in your ears
You feel the sudden rush

You try to look away
But you keep your gaze

As if roses were blooming in their eyes
And you can’t break the pace

A small romantic gesture
They make

Can make you feel
Like you haven’t walked for days

A sweet scent of vanilla and musk
Fills the entire room

You don’t know if this is it
Or is it too soon

Mistakes and wrecks were done before
A heart can only bear much

So how is it still so weak and tender
To a single romantic touch ?

I am in this space
Where peace and anger roam
A place where I feel wise
But also think too soon
My head keeps on bleeding
In all possible directions
Thinking it will be lost
But in reality still has its connections
My heart feels heavy
Yet rests with ease
Having faith in its creator
Knowing he will please
My body seems to be growing
But time seems to go back
To a place of childlike behavior
With an adult’s act

Once upon a time in a century
The idea of passion and love was history
It never occurred to a young mind
That there is a lover that hides
And although many signs were written
The heart was not smitten
Yet as the time went by
And the moon glowed in the sky
The mind started to wake up
And the heart started to open up
As the eyes looked in the stars above
The heart started to whisper “ could it be love?”

A woman with great wisdom and truth
touches the burning sun with ease
as she promised to make an oath
to never shed in tears
A woman with a gentle soul
but with heart of steel
takes the hero's role
and follows her dreams
A woman who owns the knowledge key
stands in front of the mirror
wanting to be the woman she sees

Being kind is hard
It can leave you nasty scars
But it’s still worth it
Because that’s who you are

Believe in yourself
You got nothing to lose
Just hold your head up high
It all depends on you

A burden in my heart
Has prevented me from speaking
As my words can cut through diamond
And still is not enough
To express the heavy burden
That is in my heart

When the moon raises slowly in the sky
I drive pass the crowded streets

I look at the grass and feel the wind passing by
That cold yet soft breeze

Car lights spread across so fast and hazy
As I listen to the slow song on repeat

My heart flutters seeing the moon daisies
While my thoughts dig in so deep

I love this moment, when the world is slow
I just close my eyes and go with the flow

I am changing
I am growing
I am learning
I am knowing
I am doing my best
To be my best

I am resting
I am working
I am focused
I am earning
I am doing my constant
To be my constant

I am scared
I am effecting
I am worried
I am reflecting
I am doing my understanding
To be my understanding

they say you are so mean
your heart is cold
if you fell from a tree
you won't break cause your stone
you are the cruelest to ever be
and will always be alone
if only they knew my mean words were reality
and not to make them groan
for I may sound so beastly
but on the inside there is gold

A part of me wants to hold you
A part of me wants to kiss you
A part of me wants to love you
A part of me wants this bliss
But a part of of me wants to get over this

Sometimes I lack creativity
And that scares me
I think that I will not be able to write again
Feels like all of my work was just pretend
But creativity has its time and place
You don’t have think out of space
Creativity will flow
Wither it’s sun or snow
Creativity will show

Diamond rain drops flow
Down the streaming river
Of heartbreak and sorrow
Wondering will this be forever

Dim the lights
Close your eyes
Try to sleep
Begin to dream
Clouds of pink
Rivers to drink
Music to dance
Lovers hold hands
Instruments can fly
Moon can rise
Stars glow bright
Two souls reunite
No pouring rain
Or horrible pain
Dim the lights
Close your eyes

I am not sad
I am not sad about the lies you told me
I am not sad about the ways you fooled me
I am not sad about the fact you left me
I am disappointed
I am disappointed at the memories we made
I am disappointed at the time I have waste
I am disappointed at the person you became

Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Hold it together
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
No tears ever
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
It will pass
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Stop being sad
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Think about this
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
Just go rest
Don’t cry
Don’t cry
......................
Ok let it out

Do you see me ?
No you can’t
Do you see me
For who I am
Or do you see
What you want me to be
A person you desire
That’s not me

Sliding down the edge of the moon
Touching the glowing river of stars
Crystal clear clouds in the mid of June
While dandelions spark and sing on Mars

Sometimes I take the ease
And turn it into a battle field

Ignoring the blessings I got
Just wanting what I want

Building walls up high
Between my happiness and I

Keep thinking about tomorrow
Daggers filled with grieve and sorrow

Why can’t I just turn my head around
And enjoy life for what it is now

Everyone has that one to laugh with
Sit on the stair case and give a small kiss

Everyone has that one to talk to
Dance with and say “ I love you”

Everyone has that one to go around the world
Explore the cities and play with the birds

Everyone has that one to cry to
Open their heart about what they went through

I see and I learn from them
Wishing I have the one
Wanting their life’s gem

Cause everyone has that one to settle with
Buy a big house and watch their kids

Everyone has that one to goof around
Bantering about the things they found

Everyone has that one to make things right
Drives them crazy and whisper through the night

I see and I learn from them
Wishing I have the one
Wanting their life’a gem
Wondering if it will even happen
And when?

We always want the expectations
The dreams and wishes we have
We set our path and preparations
To achieve these promises in hand
We try to avoid reality
The unwanted truth
We build a wall for actuality
To achieve our desired youth
“Expectations are perfect”
But what does perfect mean
Is it just getting all your dreams come true
Or is it to get what you see on a screen
Maybe it is just to make it through
“Reality hurts”
But with pain comes strength and wisdom
If we are always sitting pleasant
Getting what we want in our kingdom
Then what’s the point of going to heaven

I am either fire or ice
There is no in between
I am either below zero
Or a flame you can see

East, west, north, south
I will never have a doubt
Our hearts will always be together
Even when buried it will always be forever

If you ever break my heart
I will forgive you
If you ever lie to me
I will forgive you
If you betray me
I will forgive you
If you broke my spine
Or ever made me cry
I will forgive you
If you ever leave me
I will forgive you
If you ever steal from me
I will forgive you
If you ever took my work
Or acted like a ****
I will forgive you
If you ever mock me
I will forgive you
If you ever hurt me
I will forgive you
If you didn’t keep a promise
Or disturbed my calmness
I will forgive you
I will forgive you
Because at the end of the day
God will judge you

A bird I called fruity
Spread her wings across the sun
Going up to the heavens above
As she enjoys the trees beauty
And sings to the melodies as they run
Your free spirit is something I am proud of

Gave up on romance
Gave up on love
Gave up on everything
That I thought of
Maybe it’s stupid
Maybe it’s tough
But I thought that
It would be us
But I still stare at the stars every night
Hoping one day you will knock on my door
Telling me you saw me
And wanted to know more
So here I am sitting
Just waiting for you
Baby just make my dream come true

I gave you my time
I gave you my heart
I gave you everything
That I thought of
Maybe it’s something
And maybe it’s not
But I thought that
It would be us
Yet I still gaze at the rain drops out of the room
And blush at thought they remind me of you
Holding me closely
Right in your arms
So here I am sitting
Just waiting for you
Baby just make my dream come true

And every time I came closer
You were at the ends of the earth
Our lives kept blocking
And I was tired of the search

So I gave up on romance
I gave up on love
But I still stare at the stars every night

Getting stuck in the artistic sense
Is very frustrating and draining
You feel like your talent is for rent
Not something you possess
One day it’s all pages filled up
The next day you want to give up
It always seems that the more we feel
Wither it’s happy or sad  
The more we crack our creative shield
Maybe that’s the point of it all
The journey of art
Should pick you up when you fall

You fall in a dark hole sometimes
You start to panic and scream

You think your about to die sometimes
You think that no one is near

But if you just take a moment to think
A moment to relax and breath

You will notice the hole will start to shrink
As diamonds and gold fill up under your feet

we might complain about our situation now
" I am so bored I had enough"
" I want to see my friends this is so rough"
" I wish I can go outside and have fun"
" I need to shop for the new stuff"
yet others may smile and bow
" god thank you for keeping me alright"
" thank god I found a place to sleep tonight"
" I am blessed with my family at sight"
" god thank you for the food and clothes you gave in this daylight"

Whenever you feel your mind stress
A simple sip of green tea will do the trick

I feel grey
It’s just one of those days
Not white or black
Not happy or sad
Just grey

Grey feelings is what I feel
No colors at all
Desperately wanting to heal

My heart hurts so much
As pain starts to rush
I maybe over exaggerating
Or just hopelessly debating
But I feel cracks expand
When I can’t feel your hand
I feel so very weak
Yet I can’t go to sleep
When I think for countless minutes
Of all the possible struggles and limits
That I will not be with you
That dreams will never come true
I never thought that for a moment
Time could be so worthless
For a person who doesn’t even care
Wither I am sad, happy, or just there
It’s strange that my heart stings
And my head rings
For someone so far of hold
In both body and soul

I wish I had a heart of stone
No sadness or broken bones

I wish my heart was not foolish
And can dodge every bullet

I wish my heart was crystal clear
No words to hide or disappear

I wish my heart was not beating
And would not keep on bleeding

I wish I had a heart of stone
No constant pain or sore

Hold me
And never let go
I need some warmth
To let my tears flow

Time is flying
People fighting
Till the suns low

Hold me
As the lights dim
Don’t go running
Like they all did

I got options A,B, and C
But what should I choose?

I still can’t clearly see
Which option is a win or lose

My future is on the line
And I must do what is must

But for the first time
I just feel lost…

My heart is pretty broken
And it *****
To think that one person
Could wreck us
With just an innocent smile
My brain explodes
And within a long mile
I’m at their road
Just stuck in a constant circle
And it *****
To think that my musings are eternal
And still love

Day and night
Disappear out of sight
Brown, white, black, and other
Spots, stripes, and plain cover
Run around the house
“Oh! I saw a mouse”
Eyes wide and focused
Trying it’s best not to get noticed
As it’s curious fur brushes the air
And it’s naughty whiskers flare
“It’s time to go to sleep”
“Don’t touch me you freak!”
“Stroke my head and repeat”
“Give me something better to eat”
Indeed they are prestigious creatures

I miss you
Although I haven’t meet you
I need you
Although I haven’t seen you
I love you
Although I haven’t known you

Learn to be alone
Learn to be happy
Learn to be satisfied
Learn to be you
Don’t waste your time
Thinking about how and who?

The lands are the limits
The skies are the limits
The planets are the limits
Your heart limits the limits