thinking of you
thinking of me
thinking of what we could be
thinking of us;
of our lack of trust
and those nights all alone i spent weary
thinking of love and cheer,
thinking of you my dear...
my mind collapses: caves in with fear
doubts of what you saw in me
thinking of my insecurities....
but do you ever think of me?
cause im thinking of you, always.

What do I have to do to get you to notice me?
Change my hair, the way I walk?
My clothes, or the way I talk?
To you, I'm just a friend,
Nothing more, nothing less.
I settle for friendship in the end
Because I don't want to make a mess.

We each start out with three hearts...

And then we love,

And before we know it,

All of our hearts are gone.

Only this time,

There's no respawning.

My pain, my misery, they fall from the sky
I try to ignore it, but it still gets by.
memories of what could have been,
The hatred screams under my skin.
pulsing through my veins is the anger I feel.
Wounds break open as soon as they seal.
Darkness surrounds me with every step I take.
I manage a smile that i wish wasn't fake
I laugh when people talk to me,
but alone i wonder what they see...?
i promise i'm fine, i am the same
Cuz i know they all have me to blame.
I know the truth, but it's locked in my heart,
And now it's slowly tearing me apart.
walking alone, roaming the halls.
laughing girls, suffocating walls
pierced through my skin, the terror of home
i guess that i'm finally...all alone.