It seemed so much had been lost.
So much had slipped through
A grasping hand,
A yearning heart,
A desperate mind
As mine.
The dull march of days present
Was shadowed by the
Gloom of regrets and
Shrieked by a shrill wind at lonely,
Bitter hours.
What was mine? What was ours?
Gone for good and all?
My love, it seemed, was only
Ever a dark dream.
In my swelling and stinging agony,
Love was
As a locked door
And my heart was a bloodied fist
Beating against it.
A wraith-like specter of doubt clung to me
With oppressive raiment,
Scrapping over exposed skin
Like course, mortifying fabric.
Then, from out of a pristine past,
A voice
Called out to me.
The herald of an angel
Rung clear and glad as winter bells,
Celebrant!
The dark narcissus of mortality was
Driven off!
The burial cloak was split;
The stone was rolled back!
A hope newly found
Surrounds and soars above me,
As a deep, azure ribbon of
Stretching, unending sky!
I am imbued with cheering thoughts
Of our days gone by!
Glories recalled in a moment relived;
Revelries and song lifted with voices
And hearts, stout and full!
Together,
With my beautiful Eurydician queen;
Returned, she was,
From an underworld of time.
We coax and stir
The memories of first passions,
Innocent, powerful and pure.
We are now bending
The arc of our history,
Rending the precious pearl of affection
From the murky domain of
A love denied.
Renewed and viewed through
Prismic fractures of sadness
And through the sharp focus
Of blue eyes, in rapt recognition,
Surprised!
Today is reborn,
Lived again and again,
With each pulse of the clock,
Each beat of my heart.
The blood within
Is purged of that familiar poison.
All is potent and refreshed:
You, your face, your voice, your touch, your scent,
Your vibration pours to and through me, once again!
Oh, true friend,
Tender lover,
Gently knocking at my door.
You return from distant lands
Remote and misty,
Bringing light and love
To my lonely shore.
I approach from my realm,
Far removed.
Age and ages have chiseled
The shape of my soul.
In part, it is smoothed;
Refined with wisdom, empathy, and clarity.
Also, though,
It is,
In part,
Broken, jagged, and cracked,
As the forgotten sculptures
Of ancient empires,
Renowned
And doomed.
Yet I realize, all at once,
That I am not forgotten.
I am not doomed
To shadow.
I breathe,
I seek,
I still have hope and
Words to tell!
And I still have my love for you!
My life is now freed from that
Sad spell.
This breath,
This stony soul
(Sculpted by the Artist of Pain)
And this trammeled heart
Trembles in desire of
Your beauty,
Your touch and
Your presence --
Your calming presence,
Bringing levity,
Reassurance
And familiar stories of
Hopeful remembrance.
From love recalled,
Comes your unexpected
Embrace and
Sweet sign of friendship.
That time of distress has come and
Gone and we turn to discover that
Our tender connection remains,
True and undefeated!
It rises with the earliest song
Of still sleepy birds,
Lilting on the cool air of the morn.
This uplifting emotion
Again flows within me,
As an angel granting absolution,
Touching me in a place
As deep as first love.
Welcome!