The fire building inside
   Should cause an alarm

But no one sees
    Nor feels the heat

It rises and grows
    As no one listens

Then finally you'll hear
    There she blows

These  moments always  empty of life
existence  it will never be

For there was hope to one day
Feel the likes of all the others

Always dismissed and never seen
The spirit always being alone

Never rising to it's fullness
And never to be shown

It lays tethered
Bleeding and torn to shredds

If only one day it could
Ever succumb you

You would no longer judge
And no longer would you laugh

The screams of fear
Always left unheard

While laying and writhering
The escape of it never being

To pray for an exit
But leaving you here

Is not yet possible
Forever gone you'll always be
Non existent instead

The weight of this soul brings
Not of joy
Sadness generates and permeates continually

The song of contentment never at hand
Only waves of disturbances crashing one after another

Never allowing a breath of freshness
Only the harshness that burns the lungs

Bringing a heavy heart only made to carry
Slowing down this shell  it evolved in

The love of another brings with it such fury
When at first it only felt so light and hopeful

That which is seen by the eyes for all others
Never knowing it is part of ones make up

The age of which one becomes it's own
Given by the creator to grow and see that it prospers

Try not to pour more hate upon
Me
The nature of what sits within allows no strength to guard it off

I breathe to stay alive in a world I'd rather not be in

It is such a natural thing, to fight for life

Yet, I also fight the urge to live
In this world

My fear of living with such pain day in and day out

Ii's not natural, yet I constantly think of death and how the pain would end

There's such an emptiness
   The void always present
Leaving no desire
    For this life or another
Falling to your knees
    Frantic for answers
Never believing you'll
    Ever be of worth
In the eyes of others
    Is where it hurts
The pain ever growing
    Oh how it badly hurts
The chase of a love
    That will never be
Without fail
    Again tossed into the sea
Drowning in the depths
    Of the deep blue waters
And knowing that's all
    It ever will be
Just how can you expect
    Anything more of me
There's no rebuilding
    The you and me
It never being your fault
     The day I finally
Make you leave me

Pain once again rushing beneath your feet
The force of the blow left undetermined
Love was right there and to not be a cheat
Just like the man who comes to be confirmed

Then slips in the mind of  a troublemaker
Taking it's hand and dropping like a hammer
Then there lay upon the loved and it's maker
Beauty of it shined enough to calm her

Then the attack from whence it once came from
Lay blistering and bleeding from then on
Then brought together like beats of a drum
Nowhere to be seen only heard and then gone

Playing with betrayal will cause the burn
Life's greatest treasure left a grave concern

Laying beside him and unable to speak
He wraps himself around my every breath
Unfolding into his sensual warm wet kisses
If I go away this moment
I will have known what it feels to be loved
Finally