I see you, everywhere.
I hear you, everywhere.
I can feel you, everywhere.
But in reality, you left me long ago.

I cannot see your smile again.
I cannot hear your laugh again.
I cannot hold your hand again.
And it is breaking me into pieces.

I will not use guilt to make you stay.
Never will I ever.

But we are tides now,
crashing against each other,
breaking each other's hearts.

The rock between us is Alaska,
the rock that breaks the wave.

We are discreet in the world.
Familiar with each other.

The truths laced under the lies,
but I don't know which is which-

stained cloth over my head,
i work to forget.

but here i am,
procrastinating

under the bright light.

my life has been a giant knot,

i'm trying to untangle it,
to figure it out.

the more i twist and pull,
the more caught up i am
in my own lies.