Waiting
Most of our time is wasted waiting
Gripping on to our patience as tightly and politely as we can
Standing, sweating
Breathing
Playing with our phones to avoid an awkward contact with unfamiliar eyes
Strenuous
Uncomfortable
Or is it just me?
Na
I look up and see 1, 2, 3, and 4 in a row
On their phones
6
6, counting me
Ah, now we can go inside

Nothing can stop me from seeing my girl
It's just me and her
Me and her

She pulled me out from the ****
Shes got heart so big
Thought no one could love me but she did
And I just couldn’t believe that

She is at the top of my list
The best touch, the best kiss
I shouldn’t tell I promised
I just can't believe this

Now yes, walls can divide
But nothing can stop me from seeing my girl
Cause it's just me and her
Just me and her

Now isn’t easy to see
That she means the world to me
So just let us be
So just go away

This love is new
And I'm not sure what to do
After everything I've been through
Broken hearts, I've caused a few

Roosevelt 9 and 1
Nothing stops me from seeing my girl
Cause its just me and her
Just me and her

A lonely boy
Out on his own
Making up stories
New tales shall be told
Trapped in a fable
That you did write
And you’ll never see
Because you’ll never be
Alive
You’re dying

Oh lonely boy
Forget the ink
Erase the pencil
And live for today
Trapped in a myth
That you did write

Lonely boy
Why'd you pick this day?
At their expense
To die in misery
The fiction of your life
That you did write

He had laid his wide yet weary eyes upon her in the great halls
Her hair shinning in the light, eye dark and shimmering eyes
And a smile that could stop a legion of chariots, made his come to a sudden halt
Ah yes, she was beautiful, extremely
But at the time his heart was in someone else’s possession
A girl from the land of plenty, and to him she was everything, to her he was just an ornament
Selfish, tyrannical and controlling
He put everything  forward, she pushed it along with him away
in a drunken lustful stupor she cast aside two years of life and love that they had shared
Angry, saddened, hurt the boy limped into the nearest cave to mend his wounds
There he found another girl, this time two year younger than he
She was bright, confident, and kind to him
He hadn't forgotten  the girl he once loved, he wasn't ready to leave forever
Forsaking, the memories and the ties that held them together when she has altogether retired
He tried to focus on the young girl for she, like him put everything she could forward, as did he, for her knew it would be most dishonorable not to try
But his pain and anguish limited what he could bring forth
He tried and tried until his heart stopped sobbing and healing began
Many months passed, he and the girl grew close, she was good to him and him to her
But to him it felt forced, he felt he needed to be with her for the kindness and understanding she put upon him
He was grateful  and truly did care about her
But it did not feel right, it would be wrong to stay with her without an honest burning passion for her
So he left, as politely and nicely as he could
Leaving no mess or unanswered questions
No guilt or remorse
He then recalled the girl he had seen in the great hall
The girl he had often thought of in his journeys
From the mountains of the bear to the gates of Clifton
That girl was still in his mind, flashing thought of her from time to time
In that time he began talking to her to see what would happen, he did not know what would come of this
In the back of his mind he knew what burden he bared
The burden of lust, to flirt with various women and men
Diving into passionless ravenous sessions of *** and lies
Always leaving physically satisfied but mentally petrified
Scared of what will happen next, another kiss, another meaningless gathering of  two lost souls
He liked it, flocks of women, packs of men all for his taking, life of wine
Oh the finest **** to smoke, the finest ales on tap, bottles on deck, all for him
Freedom, gluttony, self destruction, he did all because he could
He belonged to no one, none but his vices
Why did he lust?
For his life up to that point he was undesirable, strange, sloppy, singled out
Never wanted by anyone, always alone always walking the roads wishing someone, anyone to be at his side, then the girl from the land of plenty took him and showed him her ways
He became like her, subconsciously, selfish, uncaring, unfeeling
He believed in love when he was with her, but at the same time gave into his temptations
And hurt, lied and cheated
And he did it to her and the young girl
Even after promising not to
The burden of no self control, the burden of temptation, the burden of guilt free lies
No more, it was time for the boy to be a man
He was reaching his 20th year, it was time
The girl from the great hall and he began to weave a tapestry of truth and love

You all tell me to get help, I can do it on my own
I've been there and back and history will show
The is not the first time, I promise I’ll be fine
They all try to help, I can do this on my own

Try to find the cause, my stressor
The annoy and pry, I fester
There ain't a thing
You can say to me
No doctor, pastor or professor

They're telling me to get help, I can do this on my own
I really hate to brag, there's something you lack, I already know
Tell me I need common sense, oh my family and my friends
They're telling me to get help, I can do this on my own

I ask myself, "who do you think you are?"
"And how did you get this far?"
"Your on the verge of losing your mind"
"Put this off for to long"
"On the edge of suicide"
"Just have your self a nice cry"

They told me to get help, I could do it on my own
I picked up the slack and now I’m back, coming back home
Is it some kinda disorder
Am I bipolar
Or am I just depressed?
I'm my own doctor

Get inside my mind
Lesser men have tried

I told myself to get help, I had no where else to go
Beaten and sad, confused I've gone mad, I'm about to blow
A massacre in my head, take six shots, go to bed
Will I ever be okay?
God I hope so

Cleaning the pan when it's still hot
Look at my life see what it is and what it's not

And even with all the lights on
My cluttered room is still very very dark

Night vision goggles would be nice
So I can figure out how to rearrange my life

My girls gone
But I'll be alright

Family's stressed
And moneys tight

So on edge
Won't lose this fight

Looking for help
There's none in sight

People around me are such fools
An adjustable wrench is a more useful tool

My grades in school don’t even exist
All that money they paid down the toilet like ****

But at least I still got my health
Oh wait I ***** when I eat, cant breathe oh well

My girls gone
But ill be alright

Family's stressed
And moneys tight

So on edge
Won't lose this fight

Looking for help
There's none in sight

Stop your whining
Stop your lying

You're in control
So fulfill your roll

There's not much time
Now save your own life

My girls gone
But I'll be alright

Family's stressed
And moneys tight

So on edge
Won't lose this fight

Gotta help myself
And save my life

When I look at you I need pace maker
Sipping whiskey straight no chaser
Superman with liquid muscle
So I'm gonna give it to you

You're laying on your back
And I'm ready to attack
This is something you've never done before
This is something new to you

I just can't help it, it's partly your fault
You made my spinning head come to a halt
You said, "there's no commitment "
"Let's keep it casual"
"Because after all"
"We're just wild animals"

The both of us going crazy on each other
They say fatal attractions endangered
It's rare to find such a giving lover
Who is always down and one with nature

I feel you clawing on my back
Making moves, I can't keep track
Biting on my lip with an evil smile
You love it rough
And now I know I'm in trouble

Anything goes in the wilderness
But you best forget your innocence
Can you feel that insatiable hunger?
"I wanna make you mine"
"Give it to me now"

I just can't help it, it's partly your fault
You made my spinning head come to a halt
You said, "there's no commitment "
"Let's keep it casual"
"Because after all"
"We're just wild animals"

The both of us going crazy on each other
They say fatal attractions endangered
It's rare to find such a giving lover
Who is always down and one with nature

It'll leave you breathless
Vicious so relentless
Make it so good you wont forget this
This moment so precious, wishing it was endless

We can't help it we're just wild animals
Basic instinct, we're just wild animals
It's all natural when you're wild animals
Welcome to the jungle, you wild, wild animal

Turned off the music
Tried to concentrate on my work
Before I lost my groove
A wall rose in front of my mind
With a stern permanence to it
Solid, impassable
The writers of old
Their determination flows through me
My lungs recite their eternal insight
Aloud
Oh wall, **** you; fall
Have you no purpose but to oppose those who want nothing more than to express, evoke and excite?
Fine then
I will go and become inspired, enlightened as it were
My half occupied note book and my almost eraser-less pencil
I will live, learn, remember, forget, move on, go back, get hurt and realize
Then I shall return
And give you a sermon of life, death and the balance of the universe
Along with the prolific beauty and devastation of the human soul
My chant shall bring you down
As it has before

Chewing away at the minutes
Swallowing the seconds
And spitting out the hours
To make up a day at a time

Thank you
I’ve been waiting to unveil my surprise

Wrapped in lace and ribbon
Forgotten not forgiven

A shard of glass
From the window
You once fell
Happy birthday

For on the day you hit your head
Not a word was ever said
That you were dead
So happy birthday

I shall lay it here
No one had ever known
Only I
Only me

Happy birthday

The day the ocean met the sand
The earth became a paragon
A perfect paradigm

Then the earth saw the sun
Standing still in space
Bursting with radiant beams
Filled with soothing comfort

But the sun disappeared
And the earth was disheartened
Suddenly it saw the clear crystal moon
In all its wonder

At the coming of the porcelain orb
The waves would rise high upon the shore
Caressing the sand
And putting the earth in a state of enchantment

This intoxication of natural ecstasy
The fall of darkness, the break of light
And all that happens between the two
Is what we call life

Hold on, you're now going to have to say so long
Go ahead, please just make your way and break free
Don’t make this a problem
This is to save you, this isn't for me
Yes you know, need to keep your soul it isn't something you can sell
My heart will bleed from this overwhelming emotional clog

The heart grows fond, if there is some distance
I can’t comprehend your brash decisions
And you just deny, tell me why

Because a promise is a promise you’ll break
My dearest apologize, the sympathy I fake
I can’t even trust you, I can’t even blink
I think it’s my past that’s really to blame
Yes you know need to keep your soul it isn't something you can sell
My heart will bleed from this overwhelming emotional clog

The heart grows fond, if there is some distance
I can’t comprehend your brash decisions
And you just deny, tell me why tell me why

The heart grows fond, if there is some distance
I can’t comprehend your brash decisions
And you just deny
Stop crying and stand up for yourself
If you keep letting them silence you you’ll never get out
Remove yourself from this self destructive, disgusting rut
No one can do this for there’s no one

One second is there something we missed?
Why must we confess and be told to repent?
Not everything’s black and white or open and shut?
What could be the answer if there is one?

Kneel down and confess
I’m on a trip, in a trance
No one can tell me I can’t

There’s no racing in a day dream
You can go at your own pace there’s no need to run
There’s something bigger out there but we’re not sure what
I will not wait for the end to come

I remember the songs that we sung
About the light of the moon and the heat of the sun
Deep as the ocean and aged as ancient dust
The beat of my heart in sync with the drums

One second is there something we missed?
Why must we confess and be told to repent?
Not everything’s black and white nor open and shut
What could be the answer if there is one?

I can’t remember
The word that you say, was it reminiscent of the gods above?
I won’t depend on or
Defend the belief that everything’s okay

Smirking with open hands
They’re smirking

There’s no racing in a day dream
You can go at your own pace there’s no need to run
There’s something bigger out there but we’re not sure what
I will not wait for the end to come

Forget yourself
Go
Your worry wart's about to erupt
There's a voice from the forest telling you to come
Running from east to west going coast to coast
If you don’t you'll surely go mad

What will you tell your folks?
When you finally leave today
And your life is about to begin
What will you tell your folks?
When you have nothing to say
When you know it’s the end

Your will never hear
Me never ever say
"You are only second best"
Tomorrow's remnants
In the hands of gypsies and magicians

I used to have a women so vain
Lashed out in cruelness and repressed her own pain
A darkened festered soul
I dare not speak her name
And she only has her self to blame

She came to my door
She was slashed and trembling
She didn't need to speak
I could read her rather clear, within six months

An extensive time of healing
Of overwhelming feelings
I did all that I could do
Then she turned to me and said "I love you"

Then we were through

What could I do?

Two years, by her side
Her heart of frozen fire
And the lies she told
With the mouth of treason
Left without reason

Valentine
I ran to the woods
I lost my mind
Her shadow was no more
She is gone

Her parents keep her spoiled
Her friends keep her drunk
And the world, forgets about her
And she knows it, she hates it
But she craves for attention

Yet she remember our time
The times and patience
Our ventures into tears and laughs
And all the experiences we ate

Now I reside in the mountains
And she lives by the shore
We don't speak
But we've moved on

And I'm still standing
And she's still mad
I did my best

When the song has ended
And you've learned a lesson
Yes, the song has finished
And we're amending
The message is sending

When the song has finished
When the story has ended
People are offended
Give them insight
Try as they might
Riot and fight

When you sing it to your lover
Hoping that it will boil over
If you go under cover
Do you love her?
Do you want her?
Do you need her?

Get me front row tickets to the crucifixion
Freud always spoke of oral fixation
I’ve got nothing to hide

In Jones town the bodies all dropped
Turns my stomach into knots
The master mind was never caught
He ate their souls
They ate his lies
The audience just cries

Before I lay
On my death bed
And they drop the bomb
I want to be
I want to see
The winds move mountains

Return to me
Back into my life
I’m getting sick of being beaten down
Looking for answers never found

And I do my best to never make a sound
Oh so close but way to distant
All alone with no assistance
Go away from me no, come away with me

What have I done to my life?
What have I done to my destiny?
Murdered, I killed it stopped it completely
Kicked it endlessly until blood was drawn
Too many faces to which I’m bound

I think I hear a tiny voice
It says to make a choice
I want my freedom and I need it
I want my freedom and I need
Out
Now
Out now

Senseless fight saved
Record night made
Not a word
My gracious lord
Not a word

When the song has finished
And you learned a lesson
Yes the song has ended
And were amending
The message is sending

When you sing it to your lover
Hoping that it will boil over
If you go under cover
Do you love her?
Do you want her?
Do you need her?

If tomorrow never comes
It wouldn't make a difference
I know
It wouldn't make a difference at all

Must break these restraints
This isn't fair
Abandoned
Betrayed

Mine
The Sandman has given me a bed to make and sleep in
Why oh why? Release me
Unleash me
Unhand me
Remand me
Yahweh
Win some
Lose some
Great rich misfortune
Decayed withered family tree
Shambled moral poverty

Great
Hemlock
Archaic Apothecary
Toxic apple
Petrushka, Punch and Judy
Enunciate
Look at the pale reflection

**** my parturition
**** my ruination
Father, tomorrow may never come
Move forward from this lie
I must be on my way
I feel it weighing down on me
Shot nerves
It's here, times up

Get on with it, it doesn't make a difference
If it all ends today
I'm sorry
I wasted what you've given me
For a moment of weakness

You can fool all the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time, but you cannot fool all the people all the time
I deserve this, not your compassion
Look deep in my eyes
There is no way out of this
Illusion of existence

Life charges at you
So hold still and embrace it
When it makes contact
It is what it is

Look at it sideways
Look straight on
Don’t be scared, look from another glass
It’s all perception

All alone in the quiet den
The winter’s kiss caresses my face
One of the lucky ones
For this moment I’m blessed

How did it get this bad?
I hope I do not make my home in those feelings
Trapped in an emotional enigma

I recall sitting there
With the angels smiling at me
The candles we’re all lit
And I felt safe, I felt sane

Because it was grand
I was told it was magic
There was no question
It was still the beginning

In the spring time
I have a spring in my step
The sun springs earlier in the day
Flowers spring up

Time springs forward

The spring board to summer
The trail blazing to Autumn
Falling back onto winter
Melting into spring

Mine to live
Mine to buy
My hello
My goodbye

I’ll think about it maybe
Where’s this coming from
Tip toe around broken glass
Hoping this will pass
This has got to pass

Time to talk
Do not run
Pain brings me smiles
Melancholy fun

I’ll think about it maybe
Where’s this coming from
Tip toe around broken glass
Hoping this will pass
This has got to pass

I don’t know
Pacing at the floor
Sweeping up the glass
Time just goes too **** fast

I’ll think about it maybe
Where’s this coming from
Tip to around broken glass
Hoping this will pass
This has got to pass

First ingest
Then forget
Endless shades of gray
Dampers our salvation of today
Everything closed
Was at one point open
For but a minute

Pocket lint
Ah
It’s mine
Just mine
All alone
To realize

He sure is a chip off the old block
Knock his block off
Knock it right out of the park
Into the china shop, breaking everything
Blame the bull

Your'e a man of few words
More power to you
Needless to say
Let’s talk turkey

Don’t count your chickens before they hatch
Just fly the coop
It’s for the birds
And there’s a fox in the hen house
Feast or famine

A fine kettle of fish
And a can of worms
On a dark and stormy night
But as luck would have it
A penny save is a penny earned
Play with fire, you’ll get burned

Give me a ball park figure
Go against all odds
Because I've got an ace in the hole
And another up my sleeve

She’s rolling over in her grave
You must have been rubbing her the wrong way
Time and time again
That was the straw that broke the camel’s back

I’m scared out of my wits and I’m at the end of them
Sweating the bullets used to shoot the breeze
Time is of the essence
And you’re going slower than molasses in January

You take all the leaps and bound
And always land on your feet
Into the lap of luxury
Making the best of a bad situation

I ordered a slice of humble pie
And all I got was a knuckle sandwich
With an apple everyday
And hefty doctor bills I had to pay

Life’s a *****
It’s a grind
It’s a game
It’s a gamble
Live and learn
Live and let live
Let the good times roll
But look before you leap
That’s the long and short of it

Every dog has its day
Its fifteen minutes of fame
Barking up the wrong tree
And chasing its tail

Grant me the opportunity  to embellish a collection of my recollections
When we were all seraphs in the heavenly connection
Then the mirror we saw in one another gave no reflection
Soon it broke in shattered sections

A life constructed of broken hymens
First steps going somewhere new
Experiencing inaugural moments
Look back and say “the first time when”

Going through it *** backwards and having half-assed it
Playing parts and wearing masks with
Two faces one stone the other elastic
From cradle to casket

To concede and admit mistakes
And see things I start to the end
Let’s swim naked in the luminous lake
So we can say “do you remember when?”

It fits the game
Timed perfectly
Same keys some screens don’t work
Everything’s already unlocked
I lost myself in the sheets
I begin to wander
When you are lost you find yourself
When you hail the lights
The sack has come undone
Everything is as it is
Becoming a swaying shelter

Keep on running
Run to the horizon
A flash of light at the speed of sound
Fallow, the hallow
Like a whistle in the wind
The western wind is blowing in a direction we can't comprehend
First one goes, then the other
Followed by the negative number
Just a hop, skip and a jump
Trickling down the waterfall
Earth's mother will crown me king on the way down

I was your's and you were mine
Too bad love is blind
You were the first I'd find
Too bad love is blind

Oh who could ever see
You being with me?
Two different minds
Oh, love is so blind

Not far or near sighted
The truth, I tried to fight it
I was just so excited
But I was just blinded

Self destructive, depressed
My feelings are suppressed
The trick I learned from you
Nothing else I could do

My heart is now mute
I cannot make a move
Nothing left to prove
In love, someone will always lose

The scar won't fade
But I know one day
I'll be okay, in time
But love will always be blind

Bitter sweet cool heat, joyess pain
While the world turns everything will change
Nothing will ever be the same again
The memories of yesterday I will befriend
I’ll just take it day by day
But then I wonder if I have a say
Or is it another passing thought
I’m just waiting for the world to stop
But I still have my friends the ones I love
Faith and hope are still enough
To get my through the day
I think I’ve done it, I’ve found my way

Time is measured by grains of sand
Expanding sea exploring land
Drifting on with women and man
To sympathize and understand

The shape of your life is your hands to mold
Treasure isn’t always silver and gold
Now compare pre and post
To commemorate this outcome I purpose a toast
I pray for the summer breeze
For without the summer air I cannot breathe

That’s thing about quitters, they’ll take the blame
But are quitting and giving up the same?
This time X won’t mark the spot
Instead it’s the lessons and people we’ve forgot
I always feel there’s more I should know
Implode satisfied, information over load

The birds fly themselves high in the sky
As I observe the world spinning by
I am thankful for everyday
There’s no doubt this life is great
Love and peace to all women and men
But most importantly attempt to comprehend

For unity and trust is what life is about
This and much more I understand now
This and much more I can understand now
This and much, much more

I don’t need her
I don’t want her
She is nothing
Just a liar

Then there's me
So who am I?
I'm just a boy
The boy who lied

So we were wrong
And we were young
This is true
We were in love

Seven little lies
Now our love dies

Seven other girls
Destroyed our world

Seven secrets
And one regret

Now I hate me
And I hate her
Why did I say
Forever?

Ill keep my word
I know you won't
I still love you
I know you don’t

I was wrong
And you're still young
I'll give to you
My sorriness and love

Seven little lies
Now our love dies

Seven other girls
Destroyed our world

Seven secrets
And one regret

You treated me bad
Then I'd get mad
We’d work it out
But your gone now

Seven little lies
Now our love dies

Seven other girls
Destroyed our world

Seven secrets
And one regret

Deep inside my mind
Way back in my head
Somewhere in my heart
Is where the story starts
The shaking in my hands
My life all in a flash
The shivers down my spine
This is wear my sorrow lies

Our enemies on the ground
Our dreams coming true
Counting grains of sand
This is where it ends

Turn it up n let it go
Sit back and watch the show
Our three ring circus
You won't forget us

Tales of love and loss
Trying to make it
At any cost
Here we go

Go from who you are to who you want to be
Nothing is stopping you except for yourself

I see the workers in the back spitting in our food
Greaseballs
Brands are better than tattoos
Get over yourself

Sauced at sunrise
Waking up next to her brings a smile to my face, I feel the breeze
My heart picks up the pace when shes with me

Self-pity
Regret
Doubt
And unnecessary grief are incredibly unbecoming
Avoid the truck in your life

It's hard to be happy when nothing is good enough for you
Laugh at your life
It's just a series of never ending twist endings and what-the-**** moments
"Oh, the cleverness of me!"

I'm feeling saucy
There's no point, never will be
But why am I here?

I'm the mortician/ grave digger
Embalming your loved ones then putting them six feet under
It's a living working with the dead
But they're not dropping like they used to
And everyone needs a little push

It's nothing personal, it's just business
They're suffering is over
May they rest in peace

Do you want them buried?
Or would rather have them cremated?
Or put in the mausoleum?

It puts bread on the table
Putting them in coffins, may they never be forgotten
Give them a eulogy and a loving summary in the obituary
They were killed and the culprit was never caught
You must be so distraught, I'll set up a beautiful floral arrangement

It's nothing personal, it's just business
Sulfuric acid and a ****** knife
A candle light vigil

Do you want them buried?
Or would rather have them cremated?
Or put in the mausoleum?

Here lies another person who's time was up
Another soul taken by our Lord
They were on they're way out, all I did was merely open the door

It's nothing personal, it's just business

Do you want them buried?
Or would rather have them cremated?
Or put in the mausoleum?

It’s really hard for me to show
And truly express my love
But I promise that it will grow
Baby I know you’re the one

Sweetie there’s no one else above
You shine brighter than the sun

Without you I will die
My whole world will be undone
If I can’t call you mine
The cool hand of death now comes

Honey don’t ever run
You’re the only one I love

Our lives are intertwined
You’re not just anyone
The missing piece I had to find
Can you see where I’’m coming from

Honey don’t ever run
There's no one else above
Sweetie you’re brighter than the sun
You’re the only one I love

Here’s one for those flying high
Freed from comatose
Feathered wings crafted from
Lessons and accomplishments

Flow the blood to my heart

Fingers type, sharpened tongues
Bad mouthing, still the eyes
Have yet to see what can be done

You hate me but you hold on
These flames are singeing my skin
It’s not lose or win
And honestly it’s partly my fault
I refuse to do it again

Here’s one for the vagrants
Rapscallions and put upon broken souls
Scowling at those who have it easy
Pushed away by the atrocious aristocrats    

Bring a thought to my mind

Blacked out during my birth
Late to my own funeral
But I was present my entire life

You say you love me but it hasn’t shown
These waves leave me water logged
I’d remember, you forgot
Just leave me out to dry
We can make a clean cut or let it rot

Bring an idea to my mind
An idea and it’s all mine

Flow the blood to my heart
Bring a thought to my mind
Listen to the heart beat
An idea and it’s all mine

Behold, the grueling chore or stripping down to your birthday suit
And listening to someone rattle off reasons why your appearance is sub-par  
Prattling about the depravity of the beautiful people
How they have to live in a world full of ugly, repugnant beings
"You seem to fit that description"
There's an elephant in the room and it's name is Irony
Depth is on the clock and shallowness is timeless

I deduce that you never got much attention as a child, and your parents put pressure on you with out considering that their callousness would rub off on you

Now you pelt those you see with insults and cruelty
When we met you came off as someone with unstable emotions
You told me that the root of all evil is the body and blood of Christ
And the expectations of your parents which they laid ahead of you we're unmet

I remember when you consummated your marriage to bitterness  
You did a banzai trip to the region of self-loathing for your honeymoon
I saw you off at the airport
You we're quasi-happy

You brought your acoustic guitar and scribbled words
Songs about undermining "The Man"
Dismantling the establishment
And grave robbing

You came back with bags under your eyes
A permanent frown
A cup that could never be filled
And a sense of superiority because you've suffered and no one could have survived what you'd been through

You told me the secret to your success was revulsion
And now you see me as scummy, worthless piece of nothing
When you yourself have become a ghost's shadow of the shell of your former self

******* my friend

I've never gotten a chain letter
Or a parcel marked "fragile"

But I've been told to "get out" by many frustrated people
And "come in" by welcoming hosts

I've never been a negative on the cutting room floor
And I've never been particularly choosy on pizza toppings

I don't think I've been a victim of voodoo, but then again how would I know?

I once curtailed my friend's jail sentence by testifying

I've been told everything I know about life is complete horse hockey

I've been the odd man out but I always manage to even things out

I've never not been able to get myself out of a Chinese finger trap

And I have never, most certainly not ever been a white knuckle driver

Stay or run, save me
Run and hide
The only rule here is, you must die
You’ll be gone by day break
But it’s fine
Yes it’s funny
Because I lied

No, I don’t know
Between right and wrong
**** the weak
But keep the strong
They can’t escape
They won’t remember
Kiss the ring
Kiss the scepter

"Spare their lives", they beg me
Choking on their fears
Their final hours are creeping near
They live in a world of blood and sand
To the death, man and man
The crowds watch them take each other’s lives
I sit front row drinking my wine

“Band together, against the empire!"
"Band together, against the empire!"
"**** the emperor, take his life!"
"**** his children, **** his wife!”

I'd give you a hand
If it didn't cost me an arm and a leg
You'll be in my thoughts
And my heart goes out to you

I laid my eyes
On your tapping toes
And buckling knees
You have no back bone

I got a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach
Even though you split my sides
I could read your lips
And I saw you were lying through your teeth

You were tongue tied
Your wrists were slit
Hair frizzed
Voice raspy and dishonest

Don't half-*** two things
Full-*** one thing

It's ready
It's in transit
Surfacing subconsciousness
Poring out light
Beast of potency
A beast
Look at it in the eyes
Look at it
If it smells reluctance it will tear you face off in an instant
If you look at it dead on with no hesitation or second thought
It will show you the way through the murky forests of emeralds
To the bridge
To the cross roads of existence
Follow the coyote
Until time and space have concluded

Blood, water and sand
All records of time
Of people
Cosmic events
All just a distant future's memories

Widen your view
Watch the Coyote make it's presence known
It's four million years old and still young
One ear straight, the other bent; with a crafty grin connecting the two
Twenty-one centuries, dangerous

When the earth raises an army
Of the rejected and forgotten
Tremors uncover sacred devils
Implied silence
The first shot has been fired
The bullet races through the air
To the sea, in her furious waves
The people look down
Aware
Fearful
Steady
They turn away
I scream silently
No reply
It’s all over

Relationship statuses can be changed
But the feelings there will stay with you
It says your single but you and I both know
That we are nowhere near finished

You claim you're "So over it"
You're "So over it"?

You're a infected limb and I gotta make a clean cut
But first I need closure
Gotta make a clean cut
Get over it

What's on your mind?
What's on your mind?

I see your heart is damaged
How did you manage to do that to yourself?
It's okay just drown your sorrows
Have another drink

You claim you're "So over it"
You're "So over it"?

You're a infected limb and I gotta make a clean cut
But first I need closure
Gotta make a clean cut
Get over it

Your airing it all out, on everybody's news feed
Embarrassing yourself, it doesn't affect me
What's on your mind?

Your airing it all out, on everybody's news feed
Embarrassing yourself, it doesn't affect me
What's on your mind?

You're "so over it"
What's on your mind?
Get over it

There are six realms
Humans
Gods
Titans
Hell
Animals
And hungry ghosts

There are seven planes of existence
Physical
Astral
Mental
Buddhic
Spiritual
Divine
And Logoic

There are three worlds
Immaterial which is beyond perception
Fine material which one can enter and achieve bliss without sensual please or pain on the path toward enlightenment
And lastly the Sensuous where the six realms are and where we are

There are twelve dimensions
Three of motion
Time
Feeling
Thought

Three of space
Spherical separation
Circular separation
Linear separation

Three of energy
Electric
Magnetic
Etheric

The last three are The Creation dimensions
Universal consciousness
Universal thought
Universal feeling

I've dedicated my life to cause and effect
To find universal truths
I've found that the truth tickles the soul
Using dialethic logic

Do not hate, love
Do not harm, mend
Do not doubt, believe
Do not live in darkness, spread light
Do not be sad, be joyful
Find peace and create

You are within yourself

Give to give
Within giving you are receiving
Within respecting you are respected
Within accepting you are accepted

Do not torture yourself or others
Be free
Express yourself
Build your own morals and ethics
From logic and experience
Find the truth

Positivity is the key

Come to reason
With compassion and good health

Be loyal
Have discipline
Be patient
Be aware
Be knowledgeable
Focus
Gain wisdom

But do not be easily swayed
Question things
Not for me, or anyone
Do all this for you and only you

Feel life flowing in, out and around you
Be in the moment
Do not dwell in the past
Do not fret about the future
Know the difference between feeling and emotion
Feeling remains
Emotions come and go

Stand firm for your beliefs and for your inner peace and the well being of the world we live in

Create your destiny

Purify yourself from ignorance
Find serenity within yourself
Bring harmony where ever you go
You will be eternal

Death only claims the body
You are one with the universal in all its glory
Nothing can **** that
All is well

Mister I swear that I have seen you somewhere before
But I can’t remember at all
The time, or the place, I cannot recall
Was it in that hallway as you passed me by?

Was it at the concert you played at
Thought I knew who you were but I guess I don’t

The crowd went crazy as you walked off stage
Your black zoot suite and dark black shades
It seems

Like this is some weird sign
An alarm in my mind
And I just keep wondering why

So was it all just a dream
So was it in my head
I have no idea who you were, but now your dead
Like running into someone
You’ll never see again
Want to know who you were
I can never win

Jazz musician, who played his final show
And walked away through the flowered rows and I still don’t know who he was
Killed in the mist, murdered by my consciousness
And left behind by my **** forgetfulness

Like this is some weird sign
An alarm in my mind
And I just keep wondering why

So was it all just a dream
So was it in my head
I have no idea who you were, but now your dead
Like running into someone
You’ll never see again
Want to know who you were
I can never win

Like this is some weird sign
An alarm in my mind
And I just keep wondering why

So was it all just a dream
So was it in my head
I have no idea who you were, but now you’re dead
Like running into someone
You’ll never see again
Want to know who you were
I can never win

Oh Tuesday morning
The frost of the lawn
Persuades me to stay home
Cut class and brew some coffee
And take refuge in William Blake

If you were dying
Bleeding in the street
I would  help you
Even though you hate my guts
And I'm sure you wouldn't be happy
That it's me helping you
But it’s the right thing for me to do
I will not let you die
So swallow your shallow pride
Just let it go

Why were we fighting?
What were we fighting about?
Well guess it doesn’t matter now
Your losing blood
Patching up your wound, sit still
Just relax, just chill
There;s nothing for you to say
You're still a friend to me
Even though you hate the very idea of me

I wish I can take back what I have done to you
I've hurt you, but not this bad
So what are you yelling for?
What would you have me do?
Leave you to die
And just look and pass you by
So you can meet your end?
No, id never do that to a friend

Now here's that brutal truth
I'm a guy who believes in love, when it comes to soul mates there are none
There's no possible way that there's only one
Are you following so far?


So now I see
There's some one else for me
So I’m moving on
Good bye and thank you now I'm on my way

Get my fishing pole

I'm not saying this cause I'm bitter, oh no
I'm saying it cause you have the right to know
So why waste your time in a fairy tale?
You control who you end up with

So now I see
There's some one else for me
So I’m moving on
Good bye and thank you now I'm on my way
Nothing to say
So come on prove me wrong
You can't I win your excuses are so lame

Some do say it's destiny, there's no such thing
You control it its your heart
Build it up and it falls apart
I think you get whatever you put in
It may work out
It may no,t oh no

So now I see
There's some one else for me
So I’m moving on
Good bye and thank you now I'm on my way
Nothing to say
So come on prove me wrong
You cant I win your excuses are so lame

It's the third week of summer and we've had nothing but gray skies
No sunshine

Quincy Valero is in a bad way these days

He's been dumped
She wanted a kid, a ring and a promise of a life time
He said no
She left

Now, he's searching far and wide for a new dock to make port

He reaches into his back pocket and pulls out three likely candidates

One who has blown hid mind on multiple occasions, and quite a few others

Another who has been straight up stalking him and begging for one night of beastly ***

The last who if he got drunk or high enough she'd do anything, unfortunately she resembled an ugly spud

The firs girl was right out, she informed Quincy that since the last time they hung out she found a boyfriend which she is dedicated to

The second girl has been on vacation since the end of the semester and won;t be back until the next one starts

The third girl is seeing some one but said she would hook up with Quincy if circumstance allowed

He has fallen into a state on unbathed sloth
Staying up until six am
Waking up at three pm
And not going to the gym

He crashed his Mustang back in Ewing
He hasn't come clean about it
His father told me
Quincy tells me it;s just sitting back at his house down there and he's too lazy to go get it

He now goes to online dating cites in hopes of getting laid

What has become of the self-proclaimed Don Juan of Dumont?

I can only pray this time of depressing desperate sadness is temporary

All people will die
Some are never alive
Never lived freely or thought on their own
Always put down with out a sound
Victimized all year around

When you live
The callous have nothing to give
When you breathe
They tell you how you should be
When you live
Take and give
I insist

All people will die
Some are never alive
Some are permitted and others denied
Most are just laughed at and I know that
It’s a cycle going round and round

When you live
The callous have nothing to give
When you breathe
They tell you how you should be
When you live
Take and give
I insist

When you live
The callous have nothing to give
When you breathe
They tell you how you should be
When you live
Take and give
I insist

Here I lie
The smirking contradiction
The creative destroyer
And I never sang in tune
Born to die
Be burdened and be a burden
Steal the glory
There I am, walking away from the cosmos
My tears puddle in a mason jar
I touch a quilt and I hear the voices of sullen souls
Am I loved?

Come back
I lack
A head on these shoulders

Come back
Riddle me with rhymes
Fit all in your schedule

Vanish on the *****
Sold them the fabled gold
Sell me the sacred scroll

My mouth
Spits out
Tales of woe

In my
Third eye
Silver’s harvest gown
When it’***** or miss

It once
Ever flowing sub pump
Vanish we won’t know
Where are we now

She wore white satin lace
Her graceful charm, that face
Looked fierce, like she didn’t care
I’ve never seen one just like her
She’s one in a million rare
Both pairs of eyes met, we knew this was it
We’ve fallen under that spell we had denied for so longs
My heart is usually stone
And this warm feeling makes me scared

My mind is blank
My heart has stopped
And my tongue is tediously tied
We laugh and talked all night
Kissed and cried till the morning’s light
Lost in her essence until dawn
No one and nothing can take away
The moment that we had shared

My tongue is let loose
My heart is pounding
My mind is gone
Will we have tomorrow?
Neither of us will ever know
Unless the other decides to speak up
She’s not talking, so it’s me whose got to ask
But I ask myself, “Do I dare?”
       -Tommy Johnson

All the words are filled with beasts and demons
Except for one
The one that melts my iris in its beauty
She parades in a riptide of water
And moves as if nothing was wrong

I thought they we're saying "trains"
When they were handing out brains
And I missed mine
Now I lost my train of thought
But I'm on the right track
That's for sure

This was based on clear line of communication
You and I both know how to listen
And you and I both know how to hear
Where will we be in a year with this thing?

Will this just be a life lesson?
Another game of trial and error?
Happy Fourth of July, kiss me
This moment will last forever

What was it that brought us here?
With your head resting on my shoulder
It's been some time since this started
I show my love on a cool night in October

Is this just a lapse in judgement?
Are we setting ourselves up to fall again?
Happy Halloween, come here
Let's talk of wonders from where and when

First clenched, teeth grit and spit in each other's face
Belts around our necks, we go together
Against the odds, we're out of favor
We don't care, to die would be an awfully big adventure

We have built something from nothing
Given meaning to the meaningless
Merry Christmas, tell me
Are you as happy as I am doing this?
Every day's a holiday
Everyday's a holiday
When I'm with you