soomehow, I felt like I was betrayed.

So,
I feel as though,
I messed you up,
Like, I shouldn't have even allowed what happened,
Happen.

I feel like I'm responsible for any hurt you're feeling,
But "I'm sorry" isn't gonna help.
"I still love you" won't change anything.

So,
I don't know,
Did you really want me in your heart,
Even though I was slowly corrupting the innards of your heart,
Slowly changing you,
Making you someone you weren't?

So, do you actually still want me,
Even though I've made it clear,
That things won't end well -
Simply because,
I'm a disaster walking on two feet,
A fireman that douses flames of love,
A selfish boy who only cares about himself,
A hopeless romantic who can turn out to be overbearing...
Do you still want me?
Because I can't see why you still want me,
I can't see what I did to earn your love,
Your heart,
Your attention and time...
I'm worthless -
Can't you tell?!
I'm not good for you...
At least for now.