I liked that you liked my poetry, true.
But I didn't write poems to impress you.
I wrote because of what you made me feel
I wrote so I could remember it was real
I wrote because the emotion was too great
So I still write even though I'm too late
I can't change your mind
not with my words, no matter how kind.
But I still write, because I still must
because I still feel, though all is dust.
I also made you a promise, one I intend to keep
and so this poem you're reading now, is what my heart does weep.

I've written all these poems, I know all the right things to say.
but they don't matter anymore , they don't make difference do they?

That girl's still got to be in there, she can't just be gone,
oh it's not fair,, why on earth did you have to move on?

Why am I stuck here still loving you,
hoping that you feel same but you never do.

I love you as much as anyone could
And honestly, it makes sense that I would
Perfect beyond reason,  perfect beyond doubt
And you're certainly not something I can live without

I thought I loved you as much as I could,
But I clearly don't love you as much as I should
Because you always find ways to make me love you more
And every time you prove your angelic perfection, I sit in awe

But what do I do with the letters,
with the words that still hold all your love,
some days I just want to burn them,
and as the wind takes the ashes, rise above.

But others I sit and I read them,
and remember when you felt that way,
and breaks my heart when I read them,
because **** it I've got more to say
.
The letter I wrote you sits on my bedside,
I read it again every day,
because I'm haunted by the things have happened,
and by the things that I still need to say.

You're over there, and the sun's yet to rise,
but here it's day and I'm still dreaming of your eyes.
I hope you sleep, so sound and perfectly,
you'll never know how much I want you here with me.
I've loved you for such a long time now,
and I know I'll be kissing you awake some day, some how

Body shaking, heart pacing
fingers drumming, mind racing
Anger like this, you should fear
Anger where my mind is clear

There's no buzzing in my ears
and I'm not on the verge of tears
I' love the way my mind's alert
Soon you'll be in a world of hurt

She gave me up, to be with you
This is something I want to do
But it's not something that your worth
In that way, it's like your birth

So go now, run boy
Be her pretty, little toy
I honestly don't even care
In the end, it's her pain to bear.

I understand why light bends, and why the skies are blue
But I can't possibly understand what it's like to be you
I understand how photons, are both particle and wave
but I have no idea, about the way females behave
Understanding science is as easy as three point one four
but the human brain is complicated and oh so much, much more.

Yet understanding you is so much more vital
than understanding DNA's full title
I understand the physics,
behind rudimentary time travel
But I don't understand why
when your around, my words they do unravel

But I feel you understand me,
and I can't return the favour.
Yet at least I understand poetry,
it's been a real life saver.

I cried the night you left,
And I woke up missing you,
And I know it's for the best,
And it's what we had to do,
But **** it I'm in love,
Girl you hold my heart,
And I swear to god above,
I wish we didn't have to part,
But as it stands we do,
And now you're so far away,
And I'm still in love with you,
But neither of us could ever stay.

My bed smells of your cigarettes,
and you left your lighter too,
and I hate the way it hurts my head,
but it makes me think of you.

I woke up this morning and rolled over, expecting her to be there.
Cause when I close my eyes I hear her voice, smell her perfume and see her hair.
But I opened up my phone and realised, that she's not mine to miss.
Cause I had my chance and lost my girl, and I'm just dreaming of her kiss.
But ******* it if I could, I'd fight for her every day.
But even if I did that, she'd not be mine anyway.

One day though, you will all see.
One day she'll be waking up with me.
The dogs all asleep, at the foot of our bed.
My gentle kisses, gracing her head.
The love in my eyes, and care in my voice.
As I remind her that she was always my choice.

Another goodnight, for a sleeping you,
a great many of these poems, I've come to accrue.
But still I say, goodnight, sleep well,
and in your dreams I hope you dwell,
on the things that give you a reason to smile,
and that you get many in the next little while.
I hope you wake up, to a perfect day,
and find such beauty reflected, by those eyes of blue-grey.

Who is the boy in my memories?
I'm certain that he isn't me.
Why can I even remember that night?
There wasn't much to see.
Except a petty argument, some broken glass,
And the people that we used to be.

My heart bleeds poetry, the way your wrists bleed blood
And so I bled, as my world fell into the mud
Yet I bleed not now, for neither do you,
and you don't care, so you're not going to.
But let it not be said, that I did not try,
I just can't bleed poetry, with a muse that's gone dry

How odd that the girl who made me believe,
  in love,
   and in hope,
    and that things will get better,
doesn't believe those things herself.

It's been a week since I made you smile
and I won't do it again, for a long while
But if we couldn't promise that forever
then I can't say it'll happen never.
And so I just sit here, still in love
with you, the girl I'm dreaming of

I have come to the realization
That people have, no imaginations.

So when things were the way they were
I couldn't imagine anyone as perfect as her.
So when I say there is no one better
Maybe I'm wrong, but I just haven't met her.
I can't imagine a future, she's not in
I don't even know, how to begin
But maybe there's a girl, who will allow me to
A new muse for my poems to refer to as "you"

But I can't imagine anyone as perfect as her
And there is no one on earth who I'd prefer

Who's that girl in the tight blue jeans,
talking to the boy with the long dark hair?
What about her's so distracting?
Why can't I help but stare?

Why is her voice as soft as snow fall?
Why does she make, the other girls, seem plain?
Why am I lying awake thinking of her?
Oh no! It can't be! Not again!

I'm not supposed to feel this.
and I know I'm not supposed to care
But with this girl it can't be helped
Because her beauty is far too fair.

I've always know he who never tries, never wins
with that in mind I smile and so it beings.

I have no choice, but to be alright.
I can't be heartbroken, I've lost the right.

Here I beg, for death's sweet release,
so I can finally be at peace,
and no one cares, and no one knows,
about unimportant feelings such as those,
of suicide, and of the end,
and a wasted life, I couldn't spend

You'll never love me again,
But that's okay I got time,
Never can't be that long,
'Cause forever was no time at all.

You belong in his poems, so why do I write?
Why are you still, the most beautiful sight?
You'll never want me, those chances are gone,
I know that. I do, and I've more than moved on.
But you were my muse, for such a long time,
and somehow you still, make my heart rhyme.

I guess this is it, you're really gone
but how can you expect, me to carry on?
You're dead, dear angel, you left me alone
and I sit here crying, curled up with my phone
You were always an angel, my dear, sweet love
Now you've returned, to heaven, high above.
But if this it, and you're really gone
I don't think I, can carry on

Look at me my love and don't look away
Don't let the world lead you astray
I'll keep you safe as long as you are mine
So stay with me and you'll be fine
Safe from the endless, black abyss
Safe here with me, for another kiss

I told you I loved you more,
now you don't love me at all,
it seem this is all life's got in store,
but so far in love I did fall,
and I pretend it's not hurting
that you won't answer my text,
'cause with someone else you are flirting,
everyone left, I should've known you'd be next,
guess I just held on hope,
But if asked for a chance you'd say nope.

Oh I once looked into your eyes
And saw myself reflected.
But I never saw what you saw in me,
What's got you so affected.
I now I cannot see you eyes
You're much too far away,
And I still don't know what it is you see,
But oh my love...please stay?

Pearl, do you remember, the fifth of November,
When fireworks lit up the sky?
We lay in the sand, and I held your hand,
as you curled up in my arms.

Or perhaps you recall, that late night phone call,
when I told you I had a crush.
I didn't want to say, you made me anyway,
and I am so glad that I did.

How about the day, we got carried away,
when I invited you to see the dogs?
That very first kiss, is something I miss,
I knew that I wanted more.

Then when the party came, things were never the same,
we had an amazing night.
You were all mine, the world seemed fine,
and I was awed by every kiss.

And our very first date, you taught me to ice-skate,
though I wasn't any good.
So I sat in the stand, yes I sat and I planned,
and I finally asked you out.

Then our days in the sun, became second to none,
as our exams approached.
We sat in the park, and kindled our spark,
and I fell asleep on your lap.

A little later a different park, our meetings now held in the dark,
but they were so perfect.
Kisses were stolen and hands were held, my feelings for you they only swelled,
you became my world.

Then nights were spent by your side, sure one day you'd be my bride,
happy beyond belief.
I slept so well with you right there, you calmed each fear took away each care,
more than you will know,

That first kiss after weeks apart, set a fire within my heart,
that weekend was perfect.
I loved every second I could spend with you, I loved every second every of thing we'd do,
it was so hard to leave.

Weeks of nothing then two weeks of you, never was a love so true,
what a perfect time.
Cuddles, museums, and the zoo, I loved every single date with you,
it was so perfect.

But the best things are those we've not yet seen, our greatest kiss it's not yet been,
not if I can help it.

So anyway, all this to say,
I've missed you more than anything, to this day I still wear your ring.
I would love to be back in your narrative,
and I'll be there in my dreams where you still have me.

2:00 AM has come again
and I sit here, writhing in pain
Thinking of her, and her perfection
I miss giving her, all my affection
I just took things as they were
And I have finally lost her

So now I sing a sad lullaby, wondering if anyone will cry?
I really, highly doubt they will, I doubt they'll even try
If only you knew how I was in so much pain
But you don’t, So now, red tears will fall again
I will grab my knife and set it against my skin
All the pain will go far away as soon as I begin
Dark red liquid drops from me to the floor
My arm goes numb, I fall against the door
But I continue slashing away
I am not in pain, not today
I feel so alive now, it's the greatest of highs
As a red light flashes before my eyes,
I feel more alive than I ever have before
I stagger to the bathroom, going past my door
Leaving a trail of red I get into the bath
My blood was dripping, it formed a path
For inside I was already dead
Inside my body, and in my head
Dead inside from the scars you left behind
I just draw them to skin, take them out of mind
But it's about now, that I don’t care
Blood flows from my body, I'm beyond repair
I close my eyes, I feel so cold
It is time, I will not grow old
I can feel my heart rate slowing
My breath leaving, my life-force going

Then. I. am. Gone. Goodbye

And she's back and it's great and I'm top of the heap,
she says she loves me and I'm feeling complete.
But then comes the days, when she no longer replies,
and each time I reach out, a little more of me dies.
My head says I'm being stupid, by my heart starts to bleed,
'There's a logical reason...' 'but it's her love I need'.
So hey, maybe she's not gone, maybe I'm thinking too much
But I miss her so much, I crave her voice and her touch,
now I'm unsure if she's mine.

Or just give up on me, that's cool too
I don't need to be happy to make it through
I made the supid mistake of actually caring
and so now it's the punishment that I am bearing
But this time I won't actually cry
I'll fight back the tears, till they make me die

What is there to say, after goodbye?
I'd say I'll be fine, but I don't want to lie

It's not that I choose the worst girls
Oh no, I only choose perfect shining pearls
It's that the pearls don't choose me
and that's my problem you see?

Who holds your heart now?
I don't know who holds mine.
I miss you when all is quiet
But she makes everything fine.
I wish I could say, why I did it
Why I had to break your heart,
But I just want you to feel better,
You deserve yourself a new start.

**** it, those eyes, they aren't meant to seem so pretty,
and they shouldn't shine brighter than all the lights in this here city,
those lips really shouldn't make me feel the way they do,
it shouldn't matter, I shouldn't care, but my dear it's you.
Maybe I'm wrong, perhaps it's the lack of sleep,
baby I really hope I'm wrong, I've got promises to keep,
but with your all-too perfect eyelashes and really messy hair,
you've got me wondering if maybe I still care.

Questions asked, but never answered
Like what was it, that I did wrong?
and do you enjoy it, when I come along?
Why do you, love him so?
And why do you make, my legs jell-o?

Questions asked but never answered
Like what is beauty, if not your smile?
Not that I've seen it, for a while
or what good is life, if not with you?
Not that a bad life, is something new

You see my world goes dim,
at the thought of you and him,
I was sure it was meant to be,
the perfection that's you and me,
but you don't care, not anymore,
that you're the girl I still adore,
and if I lived ten thousand times,
I'd spend them all thinking up rhymes,
so I'd find a way to let you know,
that I'll forever love you so.

I just want you to know that you're perfect

Looking into your eyes, it melts my heart
Oh your beauty's truly a work of art
Venomously addicted to your lips from the start
Everything I've done was to win your heart

You're all I want, and I need you
Oh you are perfect in everything you do
Utterly perfect, at least in my view
!

Kisses stolen
I love yous whispered
Listening to the beat of your heart
Laying beside you, in my bed

Memories, of things now gone
Everything's okay though.
!

If you remember how I held you, I'm sorry I let go
If you love someone else now, then I'm glad that it is so
If you think I ever cared, know that I still do
If you think yourself forgotten, know I write of you
If I am forgiven, then even so I'm sorry
If you're not okay, then know that I still worry
If I am forgotten, I still remember every word
If I ever make you laugh, it's the best sound I ever heard
If I'm ever missed, I've missed you since we parted
If you're feeling all alone, know I feel brokenhearted
If you read my poetry, then I'll write you something new
If you wonder how I feel, know that I...

There's something I've come to comprehend;
That everything eventually has to have an end
No matter how beautiful, or perfect or great
One day it'll all be too little too late

What should I do? My muse said'goodbye'
She left every idea, to shrivel and die
I don't want to write another word
I'll go back to games, and being a nerd
'Cause all of this site, reminds me of her
But now things are different from how they were.
Goodbye you dreamers, you poets, you writers.
I'm off to go study, and pull some all-nighters

Blood-drops splatter, on the cold wood floor
as I rest my head, against the door
A painful distraction, from the hurt in my head
and another reminder, of all the times I have bled

Oh how I wish, that's what I could do
But I can't because it, would only hurt you

I kinda always liked your anger, it was cute in its way
I'm sure I can wipe away your tears, each and every day.
You break easier, so let me keep you safe from harms
Please just come her, and be safe in my arms.
Your compassion isn't dead, just sleeping
You aren't heartless, you just said you keep weeping

Oh my dear, you have not changed
and either way I still love you

Entropy isn't quite what it used to be,
Chaos isn't really that new to me,
But how was I supposed to know,
Someone like you could endear me so.
Kinda short but you've those beautiful eyes,
And I'm thinking about you, as this poem implies.
And I don't really know what else to say,
But my dear my heart soars when you're like 'Hey'.

I'd be a fool to think, I have a chance,
the wise would take a pessimists stance.
It'd take a fool to hope at all,
yet you made me hope, and care, and fall

How on earth do you expect me to be okay?
Because I'm living in pain, knowing you've gone away
What the hell am I supposed to do?
Because I don't to be me, if there's no you.

Roses are red
and violets are blue
there wasn't enough time
for me and you.

The roses are wilting
the violets, dying
You were my everything
and now you're done trying.

Once upon time she was the sun.
The light of my life, she was the one.
Now she's the moon, a symbol of poetry.
Because she's still the one who inspires me.
And there were other other girls, countless tiny stars
But my relationship with them was nothing like ours
Because the stars aren't worth trading for the sun or the moon.
And no girl's worth giving up the one who makes me swoon.

Now it is sunrise, I can't see the stars no more
Lets this day never end because it's you I do adore.

I regret the things I didn't say, the things I didn't do.
More than anything, I regret my time not spent with you

I made a lot of mistakes, but summed up in this rhyme
Is the worst mistake I ever made, thinking I had time

It's too cloudy tonight, to see the sky,
and in this dark I want to die.
And oh my god that voice is back,
pointing out all that I lack.
Why on earth am I still here?
I've had no purpose for nigh on a year.