I guess this is it, you're really gone
but how can you expect, me to carry on?
You're dead, dear angel, you left me alone
and I sit here crying, curled up with my phone
You were always an angel, my dear, sweet love
Now you've returned, to heaven, high above.
But if this it, and you're really gone
I don't think I, can carry on

I liked that you liked my poetry, true.
But I didn't write poems to impress you.
I wrote because of what you made me feel
I wrote so I could remember it was real
I wrote because the emotion was too great
So I still write even though I'm too late
I can't change your mind
not with my words, no matter how kind.
But I still write, because I still must
because I still feel, though all is dust.
I also made you a promise, one I intend to keep
and so this poem you're reading now, is what my heart does weep.

"Eppur si muove."
"And yet it moves."
The truth's the truth,
regardless who approves.

The curtain falls, and ushers in,
a blackness, mirrored deep within,
the stands are empty, the stage is dark,
my footsteps echo, as I embark.

And so I leave the stage behind,
the glorious world, where I once shined,
sans hope, sans light, sans life, sans air
I know where I'm going, and I'm not yet there.

It's been a week since I made you smile
and I won't do it again, for a long while
But if we couldn't promise that forever
then I can't say it'll happen never.
And so I just sit here, still in love
with you, the girl I'm dreaming of

So now I sing a sad lullaby, wondering if anyone will cry?
I really, highly doubt they will, I doubt they'll even try
If only you knew how I was in so much pain
But you don’t, So now, red tears will fall again
I will grab my knife and set it against my skin
All the pain will go far away as soon as I begin
Dark red liquid drops from me to the floor
My arm goes numb, I fall against the door
But I continue slashing away
I am not in pain, not today
I feel so alive now, it's the greatest of highs
As a red light flashes before my eyes,
I feel more alive than I ever have before
I stagger to the bathroom, going past my door
Leaving a trail of red I get into the bath
My blood was dripping, it formed a path
For inside I was already dead
Inside my body, and in my head
Dead inside from the scars you left behind
I just draw them to skin, take them out of mind
But it's about now, that I don’t care
Blood flows from my body, I'm beyond repair
I close my eyes, I feel so cold
It is time, I will not grow old
I can feel my heart rate slowing
My breath leaving, my life-force going

Then. I. am. Gone. Goodbye

Body shaking, heart pacing
fingers drumming, mind racing
Anger like this, you should fear
Anger where my mind is clear

There's no buzzing in my ears
and I'm not on the verge of tears
I' love the way my mind's alert
Soon you'll be in a world of hurt

She gave me up, to be with you
This is something I want to do
But it's not something that your worth
In that way, it's like your birth

So go now, run boy
Be her pretty, little toy
I honestly don't even care
In the end, it's her pain to bear.

I guess that am fueled by spite,
More than anything else at all,
Cause it's 1am and here I write,
But it's not meant to make you fall

And she's back and it's great and I'm top of the heap,
she says she loves me and I'm feeling complete.
But then comes the days, when she no longer replies,
and each time I reach out, a little more of me dies.
My head says I'm being stupid, by my heart starts to bleed,
'There's a logical reason...' 'but it's her love I need'.
So hey, maybe she's not gone, maybe I'm thinking too much
But I miss her so much, I crave her voice and her touch,
now I'm unsure if she's mine.

Questions asked, but never answered
Like what was it, that I did wrong?
and do you enjoy it, when I come along?
Why do you, love him so?
And why do you make, my legs jell-o?

Questions asked but never answered
Like what is beauty, if not your smile?
Not that I've seen it, for a while
or what good is life, if not with you?
Not that a bad life, is something new

What should I do? My muse said'goodbye'
She left every idea, to shrivel and die
I don't want to write another word
I'll go back to games, and being a nerd
'Cause all of this site, reminds me of her
But now things are different from how they were.
Goodbye you dreamers, you poets, you writers.
I'm off to go study, and pull some all-nighters

There is no point, all is dust,
my life will end, as all things must.
No feeling is worth the pain of life,
a pointless waste, filled with strife.
So with this blade I'll end it all
and into peace, I'll finally fall.

Within my poetry my words are elegant
but talking to you it becomes evident
that you make my words a savage mess
I keep saying the wrong things I guess
I don't mean to hurt, to mess up, to annoy,
my once strengthening words now seem to destroy
but I swear my intentions were the best
I really do care, you're different to the rest
Around you my words seem to fail
but I still hope our friendship prevails

I cried the night you left,
And I woke up missing you,
And I know it's for the best,
And it's what we had to do,
But **** it I'm in love,
Girl you hold my heart,
And I swear to god above,
I wish we didn't have to part,
But as it stands we do,
And now you're so far away,
And I'm still in love with you,
But neither of us could ever stay.

Look at me my love and don't look away
Don't let the world lead you astray
I'll keep you safe as long as you are mine
So stay with me and you'll be fine
Safe from the endless, black abyss
Safe here with me, for another kiss

She'll love you forever,
but I think that you'll find,
Forever just means,
till she changes her mind.

So don't waste a moment,
make the most of each day,
I know love is fleeting,
but you should love anyway.

I've written all these poems, I know all the right things to say.
but they don't matter anymore , they don't make difference do they?

That girl's still got to be in there, she can't just be gone,
oh it's not fair,, why on earth did you have to move on?

Why am I stuck here still loving you,
hoping that you feel same but you never do.

**** it, those eyes, they aren't meant to seem so pretty,
and they shouldn't shine brighter than all the lights in this here city,
those lips really shouldn't make me feel the way they do,
it shouldn't matter, I shouldn't care, but my dear it's you.
Maybe I'm wrong, perhaps it's the lack of sleep,
baby I really hope I'm wrong, I've got promises to keep,
but with your all-too perfect eyelashes and really messy hair,
you've got me wondering if maybe I still care.

Roses are red
and violets are blue
there wasn't enough time
for me and you.

The roses are wilting
the violets, dying
You were my everything
and now you're done trying.

Who's that girl in the tight blue jeans,
talking to the boy with the long dark hair?
What about her's so distracting?
Why can't I help but stare?

Why is her voice as soft as snow fall?
Why does she make, the other girls, seem plain?
Why am I lying awake thinking of her?
Oh no! It can't be! Not again!

I'm not supposed to feel this.
and I know I'm not supposed to care
But with this girl it can't be helped
Because her beauty is far too fair.

I've always know he who never tries, never wins
with that in mind I smile and so it beings.

I regret the things I didn't say, the things I didn't do.
More than anything, I regret my time not spent with you

I made a lot of mistakes, but summed up in this rhyme
Is the worst mistake I ever made, thinking I had time

If you remember how I held you, I'm sorry I let go
If you love someone else now, then I'm glad that it is so
If you think I ever cared, know that I still do
If you think yourself forgotten, know I write of you
If I am forgiven, then even so I'm sorry
If you're not okay, then know that I still worry
If I am forgotten, I still remember every word
If I ever make you laugh, it's the best sound I ever heard
If I'm ever missed, I've missed you since we parted
If you're feeling all alone, know I feel brokenhearted
If you read my poetry, then I'll write you something new
If you wonder how I feel, know that I...

Kisses stolen
I love yous whispered
Listening to the beat of your heart
Laying beside you, in my bed

Memories, of things now gone
Everything's okay though.
!

But what do I do with the letters,
with the words that still hold all your love,
some days I just want to burn them,
and as the wind takes the ashes, rise above.

But others I sit and I read them,
and remember when you felt that way,
and breaks my heart when I read them,
because **** it I've got more to say
.
The letter I wrote you sits on my bedside,
I read it again every day,
because I'm haunted by the things have happened,
and by the things that I still need to say.

Once upon time she was the sun.
The light of my life, she was the one.
Now she's the moon, a symbol of poetry.
Because she's still the one who inspires me.
And there were other other girls, countless tiny stars
But my relationship with them was nothing like ours
Because the stars aren't worth trading for the sun or the moon.
And no girl's worth giving up the one who makes me swoon.

Now it is sunrise, I can't see the stars no more
Lets this day never end because it's you I do adore.

Who is the boy in my memories?
I'm certain that he isn't me.
Why can I even remember that night?
There wasn't much to see.
Except a petty argument, some broken glass,
And the people that we used to be.

How odd that the girl who made me believe,
  in love,
   and in hope,
    and that things will get better,
doesn't believe those things herself.

I miss the days, when I could say,
all the things I needed to,
When I could stutter through some poems,
And explain why I love you.

I miss the days when I could call,
At 2AM in tears,
And you would be there for me,
And brush away my fears.

I miss the days when I was there,
And you were by my side,
When you laughed your sweet sweet laughter,
And I didn't have to hide.

Or just give up on me, that's cool too
I don't need to be happy to make it through
I made the supid mistake of actually caring
and so now it's the punishment that I am bearing
But this time I won't actually cry
I'll fight back the tears, till they make me die

You see my world goes dim,
at the thought of you and him,
I was sure it was meant to be,
the perfection that's you and me,
but you don't care, not anymore,
that you're the girl I still adore,
and if I lived ten thousand times,
I'd spend them all thinking up rhymes,
so I'd find a way to let you know,
that I'll forever love you so.

There's something I've come to comprehend;
That everything eventually has to have an end
No matter how beautiful, or perfect or great
One day it'll all be too little too late

I told you I loved you more,
now you don't love me at all,
it seem this is all life's got in store,
but so far in love I did fall,
and I pretend it's not hurting
that you won't answer my text,
'cause with someone else you are flirting,
everyone left, I should've known you'd be next,
guess I just held on hope,
But if asked for a chance you'd say nope.

2:00 AM has come again
and I sit here, writhing in pain
Thinking of her, and her perfection
I miss giving her, all my affection
I just took things as they were
And I have finally lost her

I woke up this morning and rolled over, expecting her to be there.
Cause when I close my eyes I hear her voice, smell her perfume and see her hair.
But I opened up my phone and realised, that she's not mine to miss.
Cause I had my chance and lost my girl, and I'm just dreaming of her kiss.
But ******* it if I could, I'd fight for her every day.
But even if I did that, she'd not be mine anyway.

One day though, you will all see.
One day she'll be waking up with me.
The dogs all asleep, at the foot of our bed.
My gentle kisses, gracing her head.
The love in my eyes, and care in my voice.
As I remind her that she was always my choice.

It's not that I choose the worst girls
Oh no, I only choose perfect shining pearls
It's that the pearls don't choose me
and that's my problem you see?

My soul's as empty as your eyes
that night we said our last goodbyes
I can't feel a thing, because I refuse to
and you don't even care now do you?
But still I sit and think and write
and dream of you, every single night.

My bed smells of your cigarettes,
and you left your lighter too,
and I hate the way it hurts my head,
but it makes me think of you.

You'll never love me again,
But that's okay I got time,
Never can't be that long,
'Cause forever was no time at all.

You belong in his poems, so why do I write?
Why are you still, the most beautiful sight?
You'll never want me, those chances are gone,
I know that. I do, and I've more than moved on.
But you were my muse, for such a long time,
and somehow you still, make my heart rhyme.

I don't want to remember, I just can't seem to forget,
every single moment, right from the offset.
That look in your eyes, made me feel so bad,
you were beautiful when jealous and now it's just sad.
Every word said on that night, still echoes in mind,
and try as I might, I can't leave it behind.
So a distraction was needed, and perhaps that wrong,
but I remember too much, from your voice to that song.

Blood-drops splatter, on the cold wood floor
as I rest my head, against the door
A painful distraction, from the hurt in my head
and another reminder, of all the times I have bled

Oh how I wish, that's what I could do
But I can't because it, would only hurt you

My heart bleeds poetry, the way your wrists bleed blood
And so I bled, as my world fell into the mud
Yet I bleed not now, for neither do you,
and you don't care, so you're not going to.
But let it not be said, that I did not try,
I just can't bleed poetry, with a muse that's gone dry

I love her enough, to pretend that I don't,
I want to do something, but I know that I won't.
I'll just sit here and pretend, that it's all okay,
because if I did tell her, she'd not care anyway

What is there to say, after goodbye?
I'd say I'll be fine, but I don't want to lie

I'd be a fool to think, I have a chance,
the wise would take a pessimists stance.
It'd take a fool to hope at all,
yet you made me hope, and care, and fall

I didn't even get, a real goodbye
So I'll spend forever just wondering why.
Why I was never good enough for you
Why you weren't happy when it was just us two
Why wasn't I worth a goodbye?
Why wasn't I worth another try?

Entropy isn't quite what it used to be,
Chaos isn't really that new to me,
But how was I supposed to know,
Someone like you could endear me so.
Kinda short but you've those beautiful eyes,
And I'm thinking about you, as this poem implies.
And I don't really know what else to say,
But my dear my heart soars when you're like 'Hey'.

No matter what it is I tell you, you just reply okay
I'm not trying to get angry, but that's all you ever say
I start each conversation, and it's like you try to end it
I waste every moment, 'cause it's time you won't commit

If you've found some one else, I hope he brings out your smile
Because I promise you won't see mine, at least not for while
You mean more to me, than even my own life
So many times you were the reason, I put down the knife

You are my perfect little angel, the best thing I've known
I guess this is my all fault, for all the love I've never shown

Oh I once looked into your eyes
And saw myself reflected.
But I never saw what you saw in me,
What's got you so affected.
I now I cannot see you eyes
You're much too far away,
And I still don't know what it is you see,
But oh my love...please stay?

Perfect doesn't exist, you know that right?
You'll never find perfect, try as you might...

Well except for my angel, the love of my life
The girl of my dreams, and one day my wife.
She's my girlfriend, she's perfect, and so was that day.
That one day together, perfect in every way.
She made it perfect, with a kiss and a smile.
That kind of day's what makes worthwhile.

Yes perfect exist, I know that I'm right
Because two things are more perfect then my dreams at night.