it feels like everything needs to be perfect,
     heart will pound faster everytime
     i’ll make a mistake.
the thoughts inside my head,
     drowning me—these are killing me—
     trying gasp every air that i can take.
i can’t take it anymore,
     tears about to burst, head’s about to explode.
     and the attack will start now.

maybe i hate you, maybe i love you.
maybe i couldn’t have the courage to say this to you,
mabye this isn’t that deep.
maybe i love you
maybe i love you
maybe, you, could love me too.
but maybe, we may be together.
maybe, one day. but until then we could dream about each other.

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even if we just left everything from here
everything's not the same
the same as we used to be
everything's not the same
like those butterflies we see in spring
everything's not the same
even if we can't accept it
everything's not the same
we've grown
everything's not the same
we used to laugh
everything's not the same
we wish it was

this was a mistake,
something t,hat should’ve been fixed.
we’Re not comp/atible.
thinking about you,
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these feeling, hoping,
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roaming the streets up late at night,
we kept walking even if its dark.
just followed what feels right,
even if we didn't know where to go.

i remember we're laughing
romanticizing the years,
falling in love and getting drunk,
now im 18 and im terrified.

uncertain about the future
as we long for summer to come back
spent our time distracting ourselves
because we can't be kids again

time passes
it starts to decay
how this’ll be the end

wither
this heart of yours
slowly disintegrate
into nothing

sunken feelings
heavy thoughts

let it go
breathe
you’ll be back

who holds my hand, as we sway
while the grass touches our feet
as we smile into the end of days

longing, waiting, for you to come
hug me, as we dance the night away

kissed you in the grass of march,
as i wrapped my hands around your waist,
i can feel you glow
radiating the moon's light
maybe we could lie down
and let the world go fast forward
let's stay the night
as we doze off into the stars, into the galaxy

‪i just saw the venus shine‬
‪funny, how it reminded me of you‬
‪i keep trying and trying‬
‪forgetting you is so hard‬
‪i know i should ‬
‪but how?‬
‪i could only avoid you‬
‪not see you‬
‪but the way you move‬
memories with you
‪your smile—i just can’t‬

‪drafted texts asking how you’ve been‬
‪wishing i could see you‬
‪it’s midnight and you’re still in my head‬
‪nostalgia is creeping in‬
‪missing you, *******‬
‪regretting the things that i haven’t told you‬
‪i wish i was brave enough,‬
‪for you‬

memories,
captured in a moment.
on a single paper,
remembering in the silent,
inks fade, doesn't last forever,
together we are broken,
but we can see it in this small paper,
these happiness and enjoyment.

when the drought is over
poured everything on to it
it smelled like the steam of hot soil
petrichor, you said